pyro-olympics

we went to watch the pyro olypics at roxas last night and it was some experience. traffic was crazy going there.. we literally just stopped in the middle of macapagal, parked, got out of the car and set up our stools my the damuhan. of course this was because a hundred other cars in front f us did the same thing.

anyway, i really wasnt expecting to get great pictures of the fireworks since malayo kami naka upo and my camera isnt that high-tech... plus, i was only going to figure out which setting would be cool to use one the display actually started.. opportunity to play around with my camera lang. but i did get some cool shots... thanks to my shaky hand. :p

(still fixing the photos.. to follow...)

syempre hindi mawawala ang kodakan with the family! :)

two-faced dutch boy

every year on Christmas Eve, my family and i hear mass a few streets away and have noche buena either in our house or a cousin's house (depending on whose turn it is to host). after eating and opening gifts, we head home and open our gifts to each other along with our other office gifts. this year, i expected it to be exactly the same. boy, was i wrong.

my sister, ria, left for work before midnight to make her 1am shift at RCBC tower. a little passed midnight mom got a call from her saying someone bumped our car from behind. mom gave her instructions on what to do and hung up. a few minutes later, she got another call from her and this time, mom was not prepared to hear what my sister had to say. apparently, the asshole who drove into our car banged her head on the hood and tried to run her over when she fell on the ground. luckily some guards from GT tower were there.

my brother, my brother in law, and 2 of my cousins rushed to makati (from BF paranaque) to come to her rescue... my tito, who was in san lo was the first to get there.

so the drama begins. a little background on my family (mommy's side)... no one messes with the girls of our family and gets away with it. (side kwento: when the twins went on their prom, the whole clan was at the coffee shop 'chaperoning'...)

so this dutch guy was in for some bad shit for what he did. good thing no one punched him coz it turns out, the guy had shriveled left limbs... im sorry for sounding so politically incorrect but this guy really pissed everyone off tonight.

when they reached precint 6, the guy denies everything! the nerve! and he even unfolds this whole drama as he enters the precint in his small thingie that moves him around (closest description i have is a mini golf cart). so he denies everything, says everyone is ganging up on him, calls the dutch ambassador, refuses to give his name, and refuses to move! by this time even the pinoy police are getting pissed at his arrogance.

long story short, i just got home and as we speak they are getting my sister's statement, that guy's statement, and a guard witnesses' statement. we're pressing charges of course... assault and physical injury... just so he gets detained until he can post bail on tuesday.

im soooooo pissed right now at the nerve of the guy to deny and lie! i would LOVE to at least get to punch him or kick him where it hurts. he does all this on Christmas day no less!!!

actually, everyone is angry right now. but im glad my sister is okay. last time she texted me, she said she was still shaking and really pissed at that liar.

im going to wait until she gets home. and i hope that guy gets what he deserves.

estupor borracho

last night was a blast. had so much fun at the christmas party... well, a little too much fun according to my mom. :p ay nako, i dont think ill ever hear the end of it!

every year during corplan or christmas party, someone always gets drunk... this year was my year.

julette, kaye and i made our grand and uber late entrance as el cheap-o badings... and we were the official GROs of the night. basta walang sumasayaw, kami tinatawag.. sayaw naman kami! haha. it was fun. anyway, im sure ill hear all the stories up to next year about how drunk i got, but id rather remember how much fun i had dancing (still drunk). haha.

many thanks to everyone who, in one way or another, took care of me... anton, paulo, rap, mang noli, mister manny bede, kaye, apple, anna, julette.... and everyone else.. i really wont be able to remember everyone given my drunken state.

got nominated for celebrity look alike and the the loveteam award. and pau came as a dick head.. how appropriate... the juding and the nota!

photos at my multiply site. kampai!

quiet time

today im a little under the weather, and a bit sentimental. maybe its the lack of sleep. but i think its the weight of knowing that a really good friend of mine if going through one of the toughest times of his life right now.

i pray that He give you the strength to get through the changes that are happening. i know you would want to be left alone right now, but when you realize you need company, or maybe just someone to listen, marami kaming naghihintay na i-text mo... darating kami.

12/12 --- 24!

i had one of the best birthdays this year --- lumalabas i had 2 birthdays! as if saturday was not enough to send me to cloud 9 in happiness, today was off the charts.

grabe. ive never been given a surprise like that in my life. overwhelmed beyond words.

everything that happened today seemed to build to the big surprise kanina. the surprise lunch, with a bwisit afternoon meeting, to the almost loser-ville evening which turned out to be a surprise dinner with all my dearest friends. super memorable to see my friends together... college and post college friends. i know some people couldnt make it, but i know they would have if they could. im happy none the less.

thank you to everyone who made me cry. i know its not that hard to make me cry, but ive never trembled that way in my life. as in may reading na ata sa richter scale yun e! haha. thank you for all your letters/notes. kahit na pinagtawanan nyo ako lahat dahil sa ka-iiyak ko. well, thats me!

thanks lily... for getting in touch with the college people.. i know how hard it is to get everyone together... :p

thanks anna... for torturing and threatening people in the office to write letters to me.

thanks pau... for expertly deceiving me. best actor ka.

thanks mel... 'special' is an understatement to what i felt because of the surprise. you have no idea how much today means to me. i can never thank you enough. (im still shocked you got in touch with pearl pa talaga!) you know me too well. haha. ang galing mo.

i cant thank everyone na isa-isa, but you know who you are...

BIG THANK YOU TO EVERYONE.

i really do love you all.

PS - once again, i forgot to take all the pictures i wanted to take. haha. got caught in the moment. :p

Oh, Joy!

super happy. there is no other way to describe what i feel right now.

thank you to all the people who made my day.

to anton, my early bird. kahit na nabasa ng todo yung pants mo. :p binaon mo yung ulan? hehe. joke. kahit na alam kong si vinsi ang totoong pinunta mo dito, salamat sa pagpunta. hahaha, joke again!

to paulo. actually nauna si paulo kay anton but we had other business to take care of. haha. thanks for not staying in bed to sleep today. :) im thankful i was given the chance to be your friend. :) kyo lang ni mel nakkita nung 'cassandra ponti' look ko... i have no evidence of it, except for your testimony.

to anna, kaye and julette. my girls. i know im usually masungit and majorly mahirit (esp to anna) at the office, but i hope you girls know i love each one of you. sino-sino pa bang mag tutulungan sa office, kungdi tayo tayo di ba? thanks so much for making today extra special.

to kikaye, my caterer. thank you thank you for your wonderful food. everyone said the food was great. dont worry, mom gave your number to all her friends. haha. :) thanks for dropping by, kahit na you missed my sister. :)

to bede and jaycee (aka mr san juan and ms makati). suuuuper thank you for coming. jaycee, remember that kids dont lie... hahaha. im sure vins knew what he was talking about. :) nako bede, may karibal kana!

to pedi and ainee! akala ko di na kayo pupunta. thanks for again making me feel you guys are there for me. (malakas loob ko to be mushy kasi i know pedi probably wont b able to read this!) thanks thanks for everything!

to mel. where do i begin? i guess i should be thanking Him for letting me meet you. haha. its been such a wonderful ride with you, and im looking forward whatelse is in store for us. sana naman may lovelife na up ahead for both of us.

today, i blew my first bday cake since i stopped having bday parties as a child. today was the second time to have friends over. today it rained. even if it rained exactly when the whole thing was suposed to start, i still had fun. ill definitely do this again. haha.

sabi nila, blessing pag umulan on your bday. although technically its still not my bday, i hope the blessings would pour in the way it did today, not only for me but for everyone here. :) halabshu all!

PS - i forgot to take pictures... i have no pictures from saturday. just 2... :(

good news, bad news. old news, new news

just finished eating dinner. thinking back on today, parang ang daming nangyari at super used ang brain ko today.

we've been working on a presentation to Client for almost 2 weeks now. ang tagal di ba? but thats how it goes in the office. you just keep going back for clearances until the bosses give you their go...so today was round three with the bosses. (the first 2 tries left us bloody and with shattered spirits. well, speaking for myself at least.) i wont go into my frustrations with the daily happenings, since i would not want to sound like all i do is whine... after a heated discussion in the boardroom, we finally had an approved presentation... crafting na lang, wich they left to our discretion. as long as were confident daw. such trust our bosses have on us! hahaha. anyway, just some trivia... bumalik din kami dun sa unang pinag-usapan... binaril nila, pero yun din ang binalikan.. somehow. bilog nga ang mundo. :p old news, new news.

good news! after a rough day... i was pleased to come home to see this orange package for me... i totally forgot ruth sent me a package from virginia and hoped it would reach me before my bday, so i was semi surrised to see a package in my name. its here! hahaha. 3 days early. the simple joys. now my problem is im itching to open it. haha. i keep shaking it to guess what is inside. :p lets see how long i can resist opening it. my first bday gift this year!

bad news... today is a sad day for one of my closest guy friends, mike. tito manny, his dad, passed away. up to now i feel the weight of the situation and parang naiiyak ako na hindi. earlier this year, when i last saw mike, he mentioned to me (and mic) they found out tito had cancer. as if this were not enough to weigh him down, mike's family had other big changes to deal with as well.

in one hand, tito's passing is a blessing so he and his family will not have to suffer longer than necessary. on the other hand, its almost Christmas and i know how close they all are to each other. im going to go see him tomorrow... i still dont know what im going to say to mike when i see him, but im sure ill think of something when i get there. bad, sad news.

paramdam lang

i've nothing new and exciting to say.. pero kailangan ko magparamdam sa blog ko. hahaha...

im working on my year-end post. i thought about it when i realized matatapos na ang 2005 and i couldnt help but think: where did the rest of my year go? parang kahapon lang i was ranting about how long and gruesome this year is... tapos i wake up one morning and its 2 weeks to Christmas?! waaaaaaaaah!

weeeell, actually i WAS supposed to write about my pre-bday bloo hoos kaso that would only emphasize and broadcast my already erratic and emotionally unstable image. hehe. by the time i got to sit down and write about it, naisip ko tapos na yun... why write a lasting memory of it. thanks to those that 'helped' me through:

1. mel, for always being the level headed friend and for the wonderful treat last sunday.. you're right, i needed it.
2. pau, for being the ear for my angry texts. kahit na at some point you stopped replying... hahaha.
3. kaye, for that YM session saturday night. thinking about other things (like the elusive christmas freak show party costume) distracted me from the ampalaya-level bitterness.

yun lang. wala ako masabi ano?!

pinoy winter and judai fest

woke up this morning and noticed the air was cool. hay. malapit na talaga mag-christmas. come to think of it, in a few days, one month a lang. now i realize it wasnt a joke when someone told me na pag sa ahensya ka nagtatrabaho, next thing you know pasko na.. di mo na namamalayan. amazing. hahaha.

today is a quiet day. watched a lot of pinoy movies on cinema one... unintentionally, they both had judai in them (kay tagal kang hinintay with the late rico yan and bakit di na lang totohanin with papa piolo)... hahaha. alam nyo naman iyakin ako.. pero nung dulo na nung movie ni rico yan, nung tutulo na luha ko, biglang bumirit ng kanta si april boy... dude, no joke, umatras luha ko. hahahahaha. o well. i had a laugh naman sa movie nya with piolo.. its the one na boxer sya... biruin mo, inuppper cut nya yung amazonang kalabang nya and to my amusement, napa-backflip (minus the hands) yung kalaban! HANEP! hahaha. pinoy movies talaga. tawa ako ng tawa.

anyway... its a quiet afternoon again... im left alone with my mom and she's playing foreman sa construction sa kabilang house... i kinda like the silence. although hindi ko tuloy ma-wari what i feel.. kung masaya ba ako, or senti, o wala lang. baka wala lang. hehe.

with Christmas around the corner, i predict a lot of senti nights up ahead... time to bring together my single girlfriends so we can all keep warm together. hahaha.

11:39pm Just wanted to add mom happened to watch piolo and judai's til there was you on cinema one before pbb... hahaha. its a judai filled saturday! hahaha. i just have to say.. ang sagwa niya sa mga kissing scenes nya! poor leadng men.

prince HARRY and ZARA ang munting prinsesa

(thanks to paulo for my post title)

happy happy night last night. half of the day i was out of my mind with excitement 'coz i was going to watch Harry Potter Goblet of Fire that night!

so out of excitement, i was at powerplant by 730-ish (maybe a little later)... after dinner, kaye ryan julette and went to ZARA... i had no expectation of the place and much less any intention of buying anything... but being that im a sucker for peer-shopping-pressure, i fell in love with this item and after holding onto it for along time, i bought it.

i really had no intention of buying anything that night... i even stapled all my money and labelled them withthe days for which they are intended to be spent... so needless to say, when i decided to buy the top, i had to make pa-simple and take out the staples before heading to the counter! imagine... im in this uber sosy shop and im struggling to inconspicuously take out the staple wires in my wallet! hahaha. ayan kasi...

so anyway, for the first time, i bought something i thought was a bit expensive... but i love it. :) now, im a convert... i cant wait until i can go back to zara (this time properly armed and loaded)... !!! for now, i will cherish the thought that i have a zara paperbag at home.. hahaha. it may not be big like those carried by those damn foreigners, but at least i have one. hahaha.

warning: to those who haven't watchd the latest harry potter movie, think about it before reading the rest of this. i wont be thinking of this much so i might end up saying something that may spoil it for you..

i totally loved the movie! i purposely didnt read the book before watching the movie so i wont get disappointed with the things they's take out. now that ive watched it and enjoyed it immensely, i can stick my nose into the book again... weee!

effects were good.. not an expert on this but i thought they were good... hahaha.

i got really spooked with how voldemort looked! he kinda reminded me of some micheal jackson pics ive seen before, but it was enough to make me feel uneasy. :p i totally loved that graveyard scene... i remember feeling the way i did when i was reading it.

slightly disappointed they limited the quidditch scenes... wala lang. i was just loking forward to seeing how they would do it. but i know they wanted to focus on the more important scenes.. so forgiven!

really saddened by the portrayal of dumbledore... lacks warmth and aura of wisdom... parang the old one was the type id warm up to.. eto parang id even dislike him. he seemed impulsive, moody, and a little violent and angry. i wonder if that was intentional or not... sayang. i love dumbledore pa naman. hope it improves in the next movie.

they're all big na! as in dalaga at binata na. but it still works though... i hope they dont wait too long before they produce the rest of the movies.. baka naman we have a 20+ looking harry with acting of a teenager.. OFF!

i think ill go watchit again.. maybe ill be able to write more about this when morepeople have watched it. hahaha.

but im happy i got to watch harry potter! worth missing panday. :p (incidentally, i didnt miss much with panday daw.. yahoo!!)

little girl angel

im overly excited... in a few hours i will be watching harry potter goblet of fire!!

whoopeee!!!!!!

happy new year!

2006 has begun for me... work-wise at least.

well, if things go as discussed in our meeting earlier, 2006 will be a busier and more stressful year for me. whooptidoo! im jumping for joy.

i dont know.. its been pretty obvious here at the office that i haven't been as productive as i should be... im always tamad and antsy to go out of the office. bad girl! hay. nahihiya tuloy ako kasi kaka-promote ko lang tapos ganito ako. hehe. i dont know if its because sawain ako sa details of the job or im tired and need a longer vacation or whatever. hay. must self-motivate.

so anyhow... im facing an exciting 2006... i thought my 2005 will be busy, but 2006 seems to be three times more busy!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

boy talk

kaye has this on her blog.. and i though it would be fun to answer the too... hehehe.

anong say mo sa...

1.lalaking umiiyak?
everyone cries! i dont mind if guys cry... basta may reason naman and he can carry himself even when he's crying. after all, tao tayong lahat and thats what our tear ducts are for. basta wag lang iyakin or mas mabilis pang umiyak sa akin! hahaha.

2.lalaking seloso?
konti lang at minsan lang, hindi yung konting kibot lang... ayaw ko yung overly seloso to the point that he cannot trust me. asus! batukan kita. ako pa naman, one of the boys ako... but i dont flirt. big no-no ang magselos sa friends ko... he should know my friends are extremely important to me. sometimes ill ditch hm for my friends.. hahaha. okay lang yung mag-selos... basta we can talk about it and he will believe what i say... basta, selos is okay as long as may trust pa.

3.lalaking mahilig sa sex bomb girls?
pwede wag na lang? i really have this impression on guys na mahilig sa sex bomb girls and girls like them. siguro selected viva hot babes carry ko pa. feeling ko siguro if my boyfriend is like that, lumalabas ganun din tingin nya sa akin. hahaha. sa dinami dami naman kasi ng maganda at sey girls out there bakit sexbomb pa?!

4.lalaking hindi marunong mag luto?
pogi points na lang naman if he can cook... but if he cant, its okay. as long as e's not a boring eater. sana he's not the type na same na lang kinakain forever. medjo adventurous sa food. :p

5.lalaking pala tanong?
as in makulit? ay. ayaw ko na sa ganyan... been there... ayaw ko na maulit. mabilis kasi ako minsan mainis pag bombarded with questions ako. nako, lalo na if im in a bad mood or kung its the same things na tinatanong paulit-ulit lang. ask me once, or twice if di tayo nagkaintindihan, but if you keep asking me over and over again, ill stop talking to you.

6.lalaking mama's boy?
being close to your mom is okay. but if its the stereotype na spineless-boy-who-cannot-live-without-his-mother-telling-him-what-to-do-and-doing-things-for-him type of guy... no thanks. i like a guy who is close to his family because it shows how he can be as a father (advanced thinker?!).

7.lalaking puro pangako?
puro pangako na wala namang nagkaka-totoo?! please. i love my father, but i absolutely i hate this about him. i think ive been hurt enough by this particular ugali of his that ill stay away from guys who have this bad habit. if you tell me something, stick to it... if by whatever reason, you cant live up to your word, tell me.

8.lalaking mayabang?
somehow, i have the impression that mayabang guys are pala-away, and hard headed... hindi mo makausap ng matino pag yabang mode na... kasi ma-pride.

9.lalaking sinungaling?
same as guys na mahilig mangako!

10.lalaking mahilig magsalita?
as in conversationalist? fine by me. but if its a guy na madaldal as in cannot listen and cannot keep a secret kasi lahat na lang kinukwento, next please! hahaha. he has to be able to listen and a bit open minded.

11.lalaking makulit?
yung tanong ng tanong, ayaw ko. but makulit in afunny way is okay.. in oderation and if nasa lugar. :p

12.lalaking gwapo?
why not?! haha. improvement of the species! i cant depend on my genes alone no! hahahaha. but like kaye, he has to have a gwapo ugali too! just not too physically gwapo.. marami ako kaagaw dun! baka hindina ako pansinin nu.. kasi hindi ako trophy girlfriend.

13.lalaking panget?
although looks create the first impression, personality will always be the key for a long and lasting relationship... friendship or otherwise. kung pangit man ang guy, it sould not stop me from getting to know a person. i didnt answer the quesion, did i?! hahaha.

14.lalaking palabiro?
minsan pikon mode ako. i have no problems with guys na palabiro. he just has to know when to stop.

15.lalaking bastos?
agree ako with kaye.. maginoo pero medjo bastos is okay. parang food yan... kailangang may konting 'spunk'... may sipa ang lasa, otherwise bland. bastos in moderation of course.

16.lalaking masyadong marespeto?
meaning masyadong mabait? ayaw ko naman yung push-over. ako pa ba ang magmamaton sa aming dalawa??! but he should ALWAYS have respect for women... never physically hurt women... kahit gaano ka-bitchy pa.

17.lalaking mahilig mang asar?
same as palabiro - minsan pikon mode ako. i have no problems with guys na palabiro. he just has to know when to stop.

18.lalaking sobrang sweet na may pagka jologs?
hehe. been there too. hahaha. no comment muna ako. hahaha.

19.lalaking sensitive?
why not? as long as he's not too much of a softie! baka naman mas siga pa ako sa kanya. haha.

20.lalaking matagal mag bihis?
okay lang naman to take tome fixing yourself, but girls still have to be the ones who take longer! and as long as the end 'product' will be worth the wait. hehe.

22.lalaking pervert?
stay away from me.

23.lalaking panget tumawa?
ay, ang lungkot naman nito. hahaha. kailangan pa bang isama 'to? kaya ko na palampasin to siguro. haha. if everything else is okay naman... ill try not to be funny na lang. hahaha.

24.lalaking uhugin?
ano beh! what a question. have some proper hygiene lag sana. i have lots of friends who have eternal sniffles, but carry naman nila. always have tissue and hanky.. do your business in private and as much as you can, wag ka sisiga too loud in public and excuse yourself! haha.

25.lalaking walang kwentang kausap pero pogi?
sayang naman. ill look at his picture na lang. important kasi sa akin yung he can carry a conversation.

26.lalaking hindi marunong kumanta?
a singer is only nice to have. :)

27.lalaking marunong magGuitara?
no biggie if can or cant. :)

28.lalaking magaling sumayaw?
nako. eto na ata ang biggest pogi point... haha. ima sucker for guys who can groove. most of the time kasi, dancing feet are attached to an equally buff bod. haha. macho guys for me arent those that have musclesfrom weights... they're those that are toned from movement lang... like athletes and dancers. hihihi. (kiligin ba... ahahaha.) he doesnt have to be justin timberlake, but at least he can dance with me when we go out.. okay na yun. wag lang nya tatapakan feet ko. haha.

29.lalaking sweet?
why not?! ako pa... mega lambing. :)

30.lalaking romantic?
again, why not?! dapat ma-sustainnya kilig ko for him.. hahaha. wag lang too cheesy... nakakasuya.

32.lalaking mahilig mangSURPRISE?
OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH! i LOOOOOOOOOVE surprises. :) haha. enough said. wag lang ako mapahiya sa surprise nya.

33.lalaking matalino?
witty and smart is enough. i dont need a genius. street smart and maabilidad is okay.

34.lalaking nakaBRACES?
at my age, pwede pa siguro. better than a guy with really bad teeth acting like he's the hottest guy alive. haha. matatanggal din naman braces eventually. it doesnt attract me, but it doesnt turn me off either.

35.lalaking matangkad?
hahahahahahahahahaha. may specific person in mind talaga ako naalala. kung sya na lang din, no thanks na... ugali pa lang ayaw ko na. kahit pa i liked him for years.. hahaha. ayoko na sa kanya. but seriously, height doesnt matter much.. average height will be okay.. taller than me would be preferred, but then again, i could still fall for a guy na di gaano matangkad... ;p

36.lalaking matakaw?
guys naman generally have big appetites talaga... nothing wrong with that. wag lang kabaabuyan levels. haha.

37.lalaking kalbo?
ANO BEEEEEEH! same comment as sa matangkad... ayoko na sa kanya.. im OVER him. hahahaha. pinapatawa ko lang yung mga taong nakaka-kilala nung tinutukoy ko. hahaha. seriously though, if its a self inflicted state of kalbo-ness, okay lang. hair grows back. basta bagay.

38.lalaking marunong magDrive?
sana lang naman. haha. ang hirap nun if di sya marunong mag-drive... di na nya ako makakantahan ng: passenger seat by stephen speaks... YAAAAAAAAK. how baduy! hahahaha.

39.lalaking maBango?
By all means, please be mabango! all my girl-friends know i like mabango guys... ultimate tes: smell his armpits... if they smell good, pasado ka na. hahaha. nakakahiya mga pinagsasasabi ko!

40.ANO ANG WEAKNESS MO SA ISANG LALAKE
- dati ang automatic answer ko is lips.. kissable lips. but now, i dont notice if its still the same. must be. not sure though. haha.
- nice arms and back.. i wont na explain why. right mellie?! hahahaha.
- conversationalist. mahilig kasi ako magsalita... and mahilig ako mag-consult ng mga bagay-bagay.. ayaw ko nung walang opinion sa buhay. he has to be honest too... yung we can talk about anything.
- good sense of humor... but this usually comes with guys that are conversationalists.
- mahilig sa bata.. i have 4 nephews... and i love kids! and kids have to like him as well.
- nice eyes. i like staring at my guys.. lalo na pag tulog... hahaha. wait! kung tulog, how will i stare at his eyes?! ang labo nung sinabi ko! hahaha. basta yung matang 'nangangausap'...
- sociable and 'cowboy'... yung tipong can adjust to any situation... if he can survive a family reunion sa mommy and daddy side ko, okay na sya. hahaha.
- MABANGO. at marunong sumayaw. (note: can dance lang... hindi ko sinabi kailangang dancer.. alam kong may cocomment djan! hehe)

travel bug

ive been bitten by the travel bug...

hung over by the luzon road trip ive recently been on...

envious of the cruise my sister and her husband last week...

dreaming of having all the resources (and companions) to go wherever, whenever i want.

my short list of places i want to see before i get married (not that im getting married soon...):
1. bohol - all my friends have been here.. and the closest ive gotten to seeing bohol is my TV and my Lonely Planet book. i want to be the perfect tourist... see the tarsiers, see the chocolate hills, see all the churches, hang out sa beach, hope to see dolphins, see the caves... EVERYTHING!

2. siargao - whats not to want to see in siargao? ive heard nothing but great stories about siargao. me want to go.

3. camiguin - i always though this was a boring place... then i saw lily's photos... whoa! ganda!!!! and i read in my book there are tons of things to do there too!

4. palawan - actually ive been here before.. i got to see perto princessa and the underground river (i used to call it underwater river.. duh! haha.) but i want to go to the other hot spots... el nido, club noah... explore explore explore.

id write my long list, but ill end up depressed. haha. this is just my domestic list.... hehe.

so i guess ill be working to be able to afford to go to all of these places no? di kaya ako maging nog nog kung mapuntahan ko lahat yan ng sunud-sunod?! haha.

hay. tara, biyahe tayo!

pics!

please check out my new multiply site for the photos nung northern trip namin... :p

come again...

im back! that trip was soooo much fun! i cant wait to post pictures. super sarap not to have anything planned... just a general plan and the details just come as you go.

of course we were able to see a lot of great sights along the way and the journey was just as fantastic as the destinations but just to highlight, there is a quick run-down of the places we were able to see:

VIGAN - quick lunch stop only. had our first (of four) bagnet-with-bagoong-and-kamatis meals. we were supposed to spend the night here nung sunday, but we decided to go on ahead to pagudpud. excited?

LAOAG - sand dunes! i love this place. its so liberating. was sooooo tempted to shout out all my secrets and stuff i keep to myself... just to be able to 'let it go' a bit. trivia though, this is where some scenes of panday were shot.

fort ilocandia! ive been there once in the past with my family... its still as sosyal as i remember... and expensive too. but there is a long list of things you can now do there (parachute at P500 per trip, hot air balloon P800/1200 per trip weekday/weekend rate, ATV. etc,etc,etc) we werent able to do any of these kasi fully booked sila... oh well, something to come back for.

PAGUDPUD - stayed here for two nights. i loved how the waves are big here. although di nga lang ako ginanahan mag-swim... wonder what bug bit me. but pedi sure enjoyed all those big waves!

BLUE LAGOON - around 20-30mins from pagudpud (less with pedi's driving). isolated beach with enchantingly big waves. we got there before the people flooded in so for quite a while we had thet 'cove' all to ourselves. easy to be intimidated by the waves but after a while you get braver. :p na-wipe out man ako, okay lang.. hahaha.

AGUA GRANDE - another 10 minutes from the lagoon. to get there, you pass through this 'bridge' sa gilid ng mountain na cliff na and kinda felt like the great wall... pinoy style. first time ko makakita nung place where the river meets the sea... by this time hypnotized and utterly taken in na ako by the waves in this side of the country. BIG waves. not for surfing though kasi mabato at unpredictable. but we had fun by the rocks waiting to get splashed by the waves. kung hindi lang malamig yung water sa falls (it had just rained) at kung properly dressed lang ako, i would've joined pedi sa falls...

CAGAYAN - pedi's maternal hometown. waves were just as big... and super iba yung feeling to know na we were 'following the outline' of northern luzon! from here we took a different route home in search of more adventures... it was a longer ride home than passing through ilocos, but the bonding time was just as great.

long post na ito! i was only supposed to make a quick post. anyway, maybe come friday, i can write a more decent post.. with lotsa lotsa pics! :)

until then!

i shall rest. for tomorrow, i go back to work!

OT: tomorrow, ill see one of the men of mystery ive mentioned before... teehee...

waiting...

its 530 am... and im waiting for pedi to get here so we can start our adventure. road trip to northern luzon, and pedi's driving all the way. im excited as i welcome this 'break'... first fun VL ko for the year.. the only other VL i took was just a week or two ago and i just stayed home. :p

now im on a real trip... with great company! please dont count my regional trips as 'trips'... out of town nga yun, but i have to babysit... so that shouldnt count. sayang though mel and pau wont be with us... that shouldve been real special! pero ganun e.. kanya-kanyang priorities. haha. im sure we can all get to go out of town again before any permanent losses. :P hahaha. ill be looking forward to that!

padi is due here any minute so i guess ill end here. will be back with photos to share!

let's all have a good vacation... or at least try to.

PS - ive diverted all my calls. please just text me. there is a certain someone that im keeping from being able to reach me. im on vacation, leave me alone for a change! hahaha. BUT, there are a handfull of people who WILL be able to get through. basically family and really close friends... and a few people that i will allow to call about work. come to think of it, isang tao lang pala ayaw kong maka-tawag! hahaha.

heads or hearts

i was supposed to write about luke mijares and the davao adventure anna and i had over the weekend, but ive been thinking about this thing since we got back... so, ill get it over and done with.

things have happened with anna and her ex in davao that got me thinking about my ex (in cebu) and how he came to be my ex... i remember that i broke up with him na love ko pa sya (mega iyak talaga). but i had to be practical about it and stick with what my head was telling me... note, im a heart girl... more often than not, masusunod ang emotions over logic. but this time my head won i guess. my head was saying: mahihirapan lang ako if i stay with him.

i remember being so confused at that time...

1. oo, i really loved my ex. and i knew he loved me more than i loved him. a first for me, kasi all the guys in my past, parang i felt more for them than they did for me (assuming any emotions were reciprocated)... hence the outcome. i was scared (and still em every so often) that hindi na ako makakahanap ng person who will feel as much for me. but thats a risk i have to take.. and i have to hope that i still will!
2. i knew i needed someone who could be around me and give me as much support as i can give him... iba pa rin talaga yung alam mong if you need a hug, you wont need to spend 6K and travel over an hour just to get it. fine, one hour for traffic... but you know what i mean.
3. although its really a small part of the reason, at that time, i started realizing a lot of these things kasi i started to develop something for someone else. shux, thats such a slutty thing to say! hard to explain the situation at that time... pero bluntly, ganun na nga nangyari.
4. plus, mahirap mang aminin, but facts are facts... we DO come from different background, and ashamed as i may be to admit, i never did figure out how i would have introduced him to my family... i just couldnt... shame, shame.

basta ang gulo gulo ko nun. i think i broke up with him 3 times and got back together with him hours after each time sa sobrang confusion ko. but it came to a point na i just decided to ditch what my heart was saying and stick to my head. so tiniis ko, and i broke up with him.

in hindsight, that was probably the smartest thing ive done. dont get me wrong... yun lang talaga ang tamang decision at that time, and maraming tao na ang nagsasabing there are better and bigger things in store for me. it was the harder decision but i took it na rin.

ironic... i broke up with him around this time last year... and now im made to reflect on those events again... i think ive come a long way from that... embraced new emotions for someone new... id like to think too that i have better control over my heart too. may restraining power kumbuggah.

i think that i made the right decision for him too... although his life doesnt seem to have taken the route he had planned to take while we were together, but i dont blame mysef kasi decision na nya yun.

who knows what will happen to me. who knows what will happen to him.

im not such a die-hard heart girl after all!

men of mystery --- cheesy post

straight to the point... i have a crush. hahaha. this feels so highschool. haha.

as far as ive seen, he's smart... creative... gentleman... sociable... and funny. haha. i think i 'crushed' on his smile... oh, and he smells good too.. kahit ibilad mo sa init. hahahaha. hay. i just got home and i still smiling!

i was thinking about it and i think i tend to gravitate towards guys who are sociable, conversationalists (?) but still mysterious... haha. mahirap pagasawaan yung ganun. interesting ba.

yak. ano ba ako. para naman ako teenager nito. pero okay na rin... at least im not masungit kahit na inaatake ng sakit sa tuhod... hahaha.

tweetums. haha. sorry.

halo halo special

the past month has been pretty hectic for me... 2 product launches. and along with those are all kinds of problems that i am only glad to have survived... otherwise, learned my lesson and ibaon na sa limot ang ibang mga detalye. hehe. anyway, what i wanted to say was that i wasnt able to post some important events dahil sa whirlwind romance with my job.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATITAY!
ang tingin sa akin ng friends ko from college, workaholic. pano naman, i RARELY show my face to them sa dami naman talaga ng mga nangyayari. but a few weeks ago, it was pat's bday and i HAD to show my face.. away yun if di ako magpakita. i managed to be just an hour late for the dinner that i set and thankfully leah and pat patiently pardoned my tardiness... after all, mic came later than i did.

i missed lily and cha though... mic and i had to run off to other things... but seeing pat, mic and leah really lifted my spirits... i love these girls to bits! (and i assume they love me as much too.. :p) it was as if we've been seeing each other everyday like in college... kulitan, kwentuhan at endless boy talk... mic's boyfriend didnt seem to mind.. :D

some photos from that night:

CEBU-BACOLOD
needless to say... these regional weekends of mine have been HECTIC... from editing up to 3am, to barely making the production number on a live show and all other 'concerns'... here are the fun star-studded pics from bacolod mostly since i was less ngarag in bacolod and had time to take pics:





last stop... davao... hopefully this one i can enjoy a bit more. hahaha. konting tiis na lang, i can rest a bit longer than a few hours and some stolen lunch breaks. :p

lost post and shopping trends

hay... i clearly remember drafting this post aout 12 hours with anna... i wasnt able to finish it, and now... I CANT FIND IT!

hay. sayang... i started pa naman to write about my 12 hours with anna last last week... to the tue of 12 days of Christmas! sayang.

anyhoo... that day was one for the books... peak na ng ka-jologan ko... ive been spending days and days at abs cbn for all the tie ups we have for the prodcts launches i ahve been working on... and that fateful saturday, we were at the Wowowee tent bright and early to draw the contestants for 2 episodes of the saturdy edition of pera o bayong that we sponsored.

long story short... it was a tiring morning that dragged on to an even more embarrrasing noontime. as sponsors, we had to watch the implementation of the paid portion.. needless to say, ninakawan ako ng cameraman. kilig na kilig mommy ko! she kept calling and texting me! palibhasa new fan of the program since she retired. hahaha.

so after the show, i needed to 'pagpag'... a little background on 'pagpag'... i dont know when and why i thought of it, but its what i do when i unload the bad vibes i accumulate at work... recently my pagpag sessions have resulted in shopping sprees.

actually my shopping thing started that saturday! i really wanted to be in better spirits before going home (kailangan ipagpag ang selos bago umuwi!), so i asked anna to walk aound Glorietta with me a while. i ended up buying a skirt at tango (yes, i bought a skirt). monday after that, i went back for this top i saw and bought another one at topshop...then shoes sa sakayan to complete my get up.

haha. last weekend naman, i was at cebu... i bought this cool belt and blue wedges! i wonder what ill end up buying in bacolod this weekend! hahaha.

ang labo ng post ko. ahihihi.

masochistic tendencies

im happy. im still going to complain about work every so often, but i can honestly say im happy. not ecstatic happy. just happy. sige na, ill go on to the why.

i think now i feel more 'in power' (ironic no, given my occupation)... and that make me happy. dati kasi ang bilis ko ma-depress kasi feeling ko palagi ako ipit and nalulugi sa trabaho ko. yun lang talaga nature nung job ko. and that really was a burden for me. ako pa. i like bossing people around. hahaha.

now, although the requirements of the job are the same, if not more demanding, im armed with experience to be able to handle it better. hindi na ako as affected by work. in hind sight, ang freakazoid ko for being that emotional about work. hello. its just work. you can be passionate about it, but still maintain a healthy distance from it. lalo na in my profession. ang dali-dali for one's ego to take a beating. lagi na lang kasalanan mo. and this still happens, pero i dont go home feeling too bad and too stupid.

kahit na my job isnt the best one id like to have, looking at where i am and how i got here, okay na rin... dami kong natutunan, and natututunan pa... dami nang opportunities to show what im capable of.

konting disclaimer lang. im not in love with my job. my friends think i devote my entire life to it (actually halos ganun na nga.. but im working on changing that), but i still keep my eye out for better opportunities. and if meron, why not di ba? i just want to make sure i do good in what i do. and more often than not, whatever free time i have, id rahter spend it resting. kasi lantayutat na talaga ako minsan. hahaha. pa-ikot ikot na ako... parang 'i like my job, i dont like my job...'.

ganun talaga. i like it but i dont too. its a cycle. sometimes im busy, sometimes im not. pinahihirapan ko sarili ko no? hahaha.

mom's retirement

yesterday was mom's first day as an official 'retiree'... she was set to have dinner with some people at work for her despedida... and i imagined myself walking in with a huge bouquet of flowers and giving them to my teary-eyed mom.

recently there have been arguments left and right about the retirement (which she didnt want in the first place), and i just wanted to stop and take time to thank mom for providing for all of us all these years.. she deserves to enjoy her youth and her life now. i 'convinced' my family to pledge money so i could buy her flowers...

i actually got to collect 3K from everyone... i was excited! sabi ko, matutuwa si mommy kasi i dont remember the last time we gave her flowers. and 3K should get me really nice flowers!

but my plans didnt go exactly as i imagined them... i was right about 3K getting me really nice flowers.... ang dumating, pwede nang i-centerpiece sa hotel! so needless to say, i could not glamorously walk in to the restaurant, flowers in hand, and give them to my mom in from of all her officemates for them to see how much we appreciate all that she's done... heck, i couldnt walk out of my office decently! we fit in the car somehow.. the flowers took up a lot of space, but when mom saw them, whe had a huge smile on her face... that was good enough. mission accomplished.

when we got home, nag-pictorial pa kame with the flowers... she loves them that much, we HAD to have our pictures taken with it.

here are some photos...

thanks mom... we love you. :)

seasons greetings

happy birthday mel.

i hope you find courage to say things you need to say to the people who will appreciate hearing them.

i hope you will find the success in whatever you set your mind and heart to.

i hope you continue to be the beautiful person that you are.

you are happy today kasi people give back to you what you generously give to us.

happy birthday mel!

end chapter

ive always had a working mom, and ive always had mixed feelings about it.

my mom would have to go to the province a lot when i was really young. i remember mom bringing home stuffed toys from legaspi and big sampaloc balls from binan as pasalubong. i still have some of those toys with me... smockey my old stuffed dog, strawberry the hot pink stuffed toy with rainbow palms and soles... and i still crave for theose huge sampaloc balls.

as a preschooler, she stopped going to the provinces. so i get to send her off to work every morning with my famous spiel: 'mommy! you have meeting? call you later! come home early! bring home surprise!'. everyday id do that up until gradeschool when i'd leave earlier kasi pasig pa punta ko.

i think i only started to mind that mom works nung gradeschool na ako... when mother-daughter dialogues were a big deal, and mom almost never came because of work... my report cards were always claimed by sisters... pag called off ang classes ng gradeschool (highschool hindi), id have to wait for my sisters to be dismissed before i could go home.. so ganun din! i didnt see the point of her working, coz other moms didnt have to. but i was proud of my mom.. my mom, the banker... i used to tell my friends na my mom gets assigned to the branches that weren't doing so well para more people would deposit their money there.

i guess i got used to it after a while. i never gave it much thought up until recently.

its my mom's last day at work today. tomorrow, she wont have to wake up early and worry about what to wear. she wont have to think about how to get to and from work. she'll stay home starting tomorrow.

on one hand thats a good thing... she'll be able to attend to the things she's been putting off... like her album from her europe trip years ago... her new house... and other stuff. on the other hand, she's been for as long as i remember! sanay yun na 'boss' sya... i anticipate madalas nanaman ang away sa house.. its no one's fault we all like doing things OUR way.

haha. gumising ako kanina worried at what tomorrow will be like for the family. sabi ko, shet angel, matanda ka na talaga.this retirement thing has been a constant topic of discussion at home... we all know the implications and considerations of this development... but now its here!!!! bukas simula na ng bagong chapter sa buhay ng pamilya ko.

aligaga ako. and this post is a clear indication of it. haha. ang labo labo nung sinulat ko. patalon-talon.

things like this i guess i just have to embrace. no point in fighting it. things will fall into place. HOLD ON FOR ONE MORE DAY.

here's to you mom... thanks for always taking care of us. of being the provider for the family. time for you to rest and enjoy the fruits of your hard work. kami naman mag-alaga sayo. :)

when you're hungry

no, please dont sing "cindy's is the place to be..."

i was just about to say... when you're hungry ang hirap talaga mag-isip. im really in the mood to write today.. pero i cant swing a decent thought.

although it seems na hindi lang ata ako ang gutom.. ang gulo kausap ng mga tao sa accounts! hahaha. hindi nag-mamatch mga sinasabi namin. haha.

nasaan na ba yang chowking na yan? TOM JONES NA KAMI!

whirlwind weekend and lucid dreaming?

what a weekend... actually, more like what a sunday.

i spent my saturday with family to celebrate my sister miah's birthday.. had gluttonous amounts of food... but had loads of fun with my nephews. (sevi can sort of walk na... proud ninang... )

sunday was a hectic day. we were part of the taped episode of ASAP Mania and lets just say, buti na lang kaya pa ng powers ko. hahaha. iba talaga demands ng trabaho ko. you can never be totally prepared. hahaha. thank God i have my support groups --- they're really well, supportive! hahaha.

around 10pm, i was more than ready to call it a day, and rest. we saw a LOT of artistas yesterday... what with the Star Magic catalogue fashion show as one of the segments, i was left staring at the stage and just looking... hahaha. na-star struck ata ako. at least i know it takes a whole bunch of them to 'strike' me... haha. parang lahat sila ang ganda.. siguro its the make up and the lights and the whole mumbo-jumbo.. hahaha. (i love Pokwang.. she's so funny)...

some thoughts on the stars i got to see:

Gary V - this man iba talaga stage presence. i know he's kinda old na for what he's doing, but he's still great to me. iba talaga dating nya. he's older but still as attractive (no, im not into older men.)

Martin N - naka-tira ata lolo nyo kagabi. ubod ng kulit at daldal. hey, he's a seasoned talk show host! haha. but he was pretty funny some times... kawawa rin naman.. doing ASAP twice on a sunday.... why not? haha.

Piolo P - he is indeed papa-ble. maamo mukha... looks like the quiet type.

Bernard P - HOTNESS. i couldnt understand why i thought he was hot yesterday... haha. he was just... HOT. hahaha. i guess its the 'mysterious' guy effect.

Carlos A - wag na lang. hahahaha. isama mo na rin brother nya. hahaha. meanie me.

Eric S - im sorry abe, i know you might never get to read this, but he really does remind me of you... you guys dont look alike pag pinagtabi faces nyo, pero mehn... ikaw talaga naaalala ko. hahaha.

Claudine B - radiant woman... maganda sya in person.. sabi nga ni joan, kalimutan mo na lang muna buhay nya, okay na sya. hahaha.

Camille and John P - funny how they keep these two a 'package'... hello, magkapatid po sila. incest yun. haha. camille is super pretty na now. last time i saw her, 2 years ago pa. she keeps getting prettier! haha. john naman.... what can i say? mahal ko na ba? hahahaha. ang jologs ko talaga.

ay nako ang dame dame dame pa... that fashion show really was a treat... all those stars... haha. (we didnt wait for aga anymore kasi it was getting late and we were all tired and hungry... maybe next time. :P)

needless to say, i was barely awake when i got home... haha. straight to bed. wala na ata ako kinausap pagdating ko. hahaha.

weird thing happened pahabol to my day... hindi ko alam kung dala ng pagod or whatever, but i was awake while i was dreaming.. i mean to say i couldnt tell when the dream ended and when i was awake and conscious. super bothered ako.. one of those dreams na when you wake up, you still have the exact feelings you did in your dream? except this is extra freaky kasi its about this guy i always dream about... with matching 'unifying theme'. i saw him pa this morning! ay, siomay gulay talaga! i had to remind myself.. its just a dream, its just a dream, ITS JUST A DREAM! ayaw na talaga... ang weird kasi nung feeling.

so now, halo ng bangag from the pagod from yesterday and that freaky dream, para akong zombie. lulutang lutang ulo ko. sana lang i can go home early and sana drop by the spa first.

there's a bitch in all of us

some people dont know when to stop talking. sometimes im one of these people. but today, parang everyone's like this.

maybe its hormones... or maybe its fatigue that makes me snap easily. tatahimik na lang ako. baka may masabi lang akong i-reregret ko.

di naman siguro considered pikon ang mainis once in a while di ba? i mean if you are bombarded with hirits left and right, im entitled to get pissed too di ba?

hay nako. now im left to feel very few people understand me... very few people get what my facial expressions mean... but im not self pity-ing. okay lang. mainit ulo ko, pero im not depressed. pissed lang.

o well. tomorrow is a new day. ill be bubbly again tomorrow. this is a momentary thing. and i just need to rant a bit enough lang so i can get up, and walk away.

why do i even bother caring?

pinoy showbiz

i dont know if anyone will remember but ive mentioned in my earlier posts that ive secretly wanted to be in showbiz... parang recently, ayaw ko na ata. haha. buti na lang hindi ako ganun ka-kagandahan at walang pumipit sa akin mag-showbiz. hahaha. kapal.

ive had the opportunity to work with some showbiz people for work... varying degrees of stardom... and ang dami ko talagang na-realize...

1. ms. jill yulo - member, star circle batch 11, commercial model, part of Qpids final 4 loveteams (with the dashing mr. alwyn uytingco), eldest daughter of mr. larry and mrs. jinky yulo.

when we were casting for our lead girl for a tvc early this year, i really had someone else in mind for the lead. but i guess you can call it fate, we ended up with jill. the shoot was pretty much okay. apart for the search for the 'universal guwapo' insisted by client, there was really not much problems with the talents. jill was quiet then. she really looked like a regular talent to all of us.

months after the project was completed, we found out artista pala itong neneng ito... and long story short (as ive mentioned in an old post), kinarir ko ang karir nya. hahaha. pinoys are really great supporters... all out fanatics! right now im busy voting for her loveteam since a really nice person sent money to help with her votes. :) how sweet. i check their PEX thread as often as i can also. jil and i text each other once in a while, chika chika... sweet girl. its really kept me busy, actually. hahaha. but you know, funny things happen.. like pagkamalang kabit ng may asawa... hahahaha. i wont go into details anymore since its really something id rather not talk about. haha. yes, pinagbintangan akong kerida. hahaha. which got me thinking about the hula of 2 separate persons about me being careful when it comes to married men... hala! :P

2. ms. maricel soriano and entourage - the diamond star, multi-awarded actress, sought after endorser, and pinoy showbiz icon

my second star exposure for the year. boy... this one is for the books. i never thought showbiz was like this when you're up there! haha. medjo confidential pa yung details, but i can say this really convinced me na showbiz life is not as fun and comfortable as it seems... unless you're the diamond star! matapos ako gawing kerida, somehow i was made to feel na i was NOTHING... haha. everyone is nothing nga naman beside these BIG stars! but im enjoying the experience... masarap pag kuwentuhan after.. im sure ill write about it more when everything is done. :)

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OT: love is in the air here in the office... all the girls (married, single, attached and unattached) fussed a bit when this bouquet of flowers came for ainee... (talagang sabihin ko name ni ainee no?! hahahaha. this is MY blog.. i can say WHATEVER i want.. bwahahahaha.) and the mood has been better here since. haha. naka-park dito sa area namin yung flowers and amoy flowers na yung office... haha. cutie ainee tied the ribbon from the bouquet on her wrist pa.. haaaaaaaaaay.

sin city friday

lahat na ata ng bisyo (save for gambling and drugs), nagawa ko na yesterday.

my morning was very fruitful.. opened bids at 9am, and 2 pre-production meetings after. after yesterday and wednesday's production meetings, my calendar is officially full until october. ngaragan days are here again. weirdly enough im a bit excited kasi big things are going to happen and im happy i can be a part of it! wuhoo! charge everything to experience!

had lunch with my boss and client... yum yum masas! we ordered all my favorite food... haha. ako daw bahala e.. inihaw na tuna belly, bistek tagalog, sinigang na hipon, ginataang sitaw at kalabasa... ay gluttony. we ate passed 1pm na so carla and i got back to the office 3pm na halos. so at 3pm, my day started... needless to say, i wasnt able to do much. friday mode na. haha.

by 6pm, nag-aaya na ang girls of accounts to leave for our girls night out... i sort of forgot about it and hoped hindi na tuloy. chicken me. kasi naman, of all the places to go to... adonis pa! sus. umiiral manang-ness ko. so anyway, i went through with it anyway. just so i can say ive been to one. kasama pa si mamu elaine... our ultra hip and kwelang COO... so djahe na talaga to back out!

before the 'main event', we had lovely dinner at little asia.. as if my masas stuffing was not enough for late lunch, i had a feast at little asia... pumpkin and carrot soup (YUM!), salt n pepper something basta yung meat, chicken in lemon orange sause, some egplants cooked na masarap, PRAWN SALAD (at least i dont have to fly all the way to davao to eat the tiger lobster nito sa Ahfat)... basta dami food.. i wasnt even able to remember what everything was called. hahaha. stuffed tita angel talaga! (GLUTTONOUS COUNTS:2)

after that.. eto na talaga... we anxiously made our way to adonis, led by our brave mamu elaine... i could not believe i was going inside adonis. hahaha. there was a streamer outside pa that said: Adonis presents...Naughty Dick (Ang Lalakeng Pasaway). hahahaha. that could only spell trouble!

so i found myself inside... with 5 of my female officemates...and it was the weirdest experience ever! we were laughing most of the time.. haha.. needless to say i couldnt look at what was going on.. despite the fact na napunta ako sa kabisera nung table namin na right smack center facing the stage.. ako ata yung nahiya...highlights of the night:

1. the VO who introduces the 'next performer'... sounds like the person sa MRT telling you which station you're on.. haha. mumbled uffled and really just hard to decifer what he's saying! laugh trip.

2. BEST PERFORMER: Bamboo... akala ko the rolling of the hads was a signatre move.. i guess may bago nang addition... hard t expain but they do this turn on ther knees. and that backbend thing... the 'moves' are so hard to explain! but im sure we will all be mimicing their moves on monday.. hahaha. SIGNATURE 'rolling of the hands' MOVE - tallied 4... classic.

3. disturbing to notice they're all in 'nyerknyerk' nyorts.

4. guy humps floor... shows some ass cleavage... AND got tabled.... weird world we live in..!

5. THE 'BIG' EXPOSE - eto talaga hindi ko na kinaya. even elaine was a bit shocked.. so thats why they had a smoke machine... basta.. lets just say we all were speechless with the big surprise. im scarred for life.

SINS FOR THE DAY: gluttony (2), sloth (1/2 kasi i got 'some' work done naman), alcohol (1bottle), yosi (1 out of desperation and stress), boys (i dont want to count... hahaha).

oh, brother!

i had a good day yesterday... i haven't had a good day for quite a while now.

my day begins around lunchtime since nothing hardly even happened to me in the morning...

lunch at abs-cbn while waiting for the people we were meeting with. i had cream of potato and leek soup... and bbq porkchops (with yummy mashed-po)... then we had a long brainstorming meeting na tuhog tuhog with the different production groups of the kapamilya shows we will be with... 3 hours, 6 shows... not bad. i enjoyed that meeting.. nice to be exposed to other production people aside from those sa provinces... :) i know my work probably doubled from that meeting but im excited pa rin for now kasi the plans look good and things are falling into place well... for now. haha. im sure once im in deep enough into this.. ill start ranting about it na rin. haha.

after the meeting/s... had my comfort zone tratment at Foot Trip sa Loop at abs pa rin... i saw with my boss and my cliet.. pwede na rin.. dala na ng pangangailangan... and the whole time i was on this lovely couch potato lazy-boy... hay.. heavenly. (plus, it turns out nilibre na kami ng client ko.. 'para sa lahat ng sakit ng ulo na dala ko...'... some people never failt o surprise me.)

but the highlight of my day was i got to see the house they're using for Pinoy Big Brother.. ASTIG! they built it specifically for the show.. at hindi po sya set.. bahay sya talaga... cameras and microphones all over the ceilings.. glass windows (one-way) along all walls... and rooms that allow you to see the whole house as if it were an aquarium in Ocean Park. ASTIG talaga. i was so sold on the show i want it to start na. curious lang ako how pinoys will fare in a show like that. amazing whoever was able to put all that together... thought of everything actually. i cant stop raving about it. i hope the show itself will not be a let down... baka over-hyped.

haha. that made my day. simple lang but for some reason i was really happy yesterday... i even bought 3 tops at Tango (sale kasi)... i should really keep myself from spending... hahaha.

face your boggart

i dont expect anyone to comment on this. i just really need to let some thoughts out... talking to myself doesnt seem to be as effective anymore.. maybe if i write it down i can process things better.

one of my greatest fears is to find out i have turned into a monster. to be the person i said i would never be.
so hear i am, faced with just that. during the day i pretend im all sunshine and rainbows (although thats true for most of the time now than before), at night i lash out at people. i get mad at the smallest things. and i know when im mad i say hurtful things. im a heart girl.. emotions overrule my logic. if i keep my mouth shut about my anger, i get even more angry.. i just need to let it out... let the anger out.

im itching to get away. to be able to rest a while from thinking about things. gusto ko lumayo. baka in an unfamiliar place, ill be able to find the order that will let me fix this. at least i know i was right about one thing.. ako yung problema. at least i can start fromt here.

grabe, ive never been this angry before. thing is sometimes i realize i dont know exactly what or who im angry at. maybe im mad at myself. or i just got used to being 'mad'... and now im not sure if im mad or not talaga... ah ewan. this calls for a long vacation. kaso my dilema is that pagod na ako pag-isipan but there is need to think about it to be able to address it.

1. learn to forgive.... and forget. i want to write down all the things that bother and hurt me.. maybe this way pwede ko nang isa-isahing i-process at isa-isa ring itapon. this is going to be one long list. im undecided yet if im going to share this list with anyone or not.. right now i feel that being myself tends to repel people than keep them close.. maybe i need to keep a healthy level or pretention... which i think everyone does naman...

2. be more in control of emotions. this seems to be a deeper issue than others will see... thinking about it, this might have a lot to do with my childhood... i guess im really the only one who can help myself. i dont think this is somethign one fixes overnight.. i may take the rest of my life for this but i give myself credit for admitting it.

3. leave negativity. or al least overcome it. come to think of it, ainee was right in saying its easier to be sad.. or inthis case,. easier to be negative... this is going to be hard as well seeing im so used to being so angry its almost become instinctive.

maybe i can go on a retreat or something. but i hope i will not be alone in this.. seeing i have to overcome myself, i will need someone to guide me through it. someone i dont know and someone who does not know anyone involved in this. i need someone who can listen to me. someone na i can pour out all my anger to... para lang masabi ko na at mailabas ko. ive kept things inside and it grew to this... so now, all that coems out is anger.

they think i dont pray... they keep reminding me to pray. but i do... i pray a lot. they dont know that when im really angry i pray so i wont be as angry anymore. they dont know that it may seem as though i blame them and the world, i pray because i end up blaming myself.

gusto ko na matapos to. i feel like im self destructing (if there's such a thing)... and people around me have heard enough of it. so im left to 'talk to myself'... i just need to be heard and bounce of this anger... face the mirror girl.

weekends

i love weekends.. not only because i dont have to drag my ass to work, but simply because i get to do stuff for myself.

saturdays are usually spent with my nephews... hay. lurve them to bits!

si justin kahit nakaka-inis nakaktuwa to see him grow up.. i know na why ako yung favorite pagtripan nung bata ako.. iba talaga mangatuwiran. hahaha. he thiks like an adult na hindi. basta. i guess he gets it from listening to adult-talk all the time.. :p

si sam... ubod ng lambing. i can hug him for 10 minutes and he wont complain. plus he's super smart... asks the right questions... although away talaga when its time to eat. haha.

vins. hay this kid is such a handful! grabe. bundle of energy. plus may sarili nang isip. of the brothers, so far he has the longest attention span.. as early as last year, when he was 2, you can literally leave him watching his choice of dvd and know when the movie is done lalapit na lang sayo. haha. smart kids...

my ever so cuti pie sevi... he's turning 1 in september... im so excited for him to get a little older.. old enough na makaka-usap mo na ng konti... although i dont get to spend much time with him kasi i usually see my nephews sa mall... hay... what a ninang i am...

sundays naman the past few weekends have been spent at market market and adidas sports kamp watching my sister's soccer game...

yesterday, my sister, being the matapang person that she is, flipped and hit her head on the court (indoor futsal)... i got so worried kasi malakas tama nung ulo nya... buti na lang wala si mommy or else i can imagine sigaw nya.... hihihi. but toughie naman si ria... she just saw stars and after a while up and running again... they won... yahoo... next weekend again.. MENTAL NOTE: do not sit on teh opponent's side... soccer moms are the most ruthful sports moms... hihihi.

so needless to say, when im at market market i spend... in small amounts each time, but almost always, i buy something... i should stop.. really.. hahaha. but on the other hand, im still building my wardrobe... hahaha. excuses excuses.

i know it's just monday, but im already looking forward to this weekend....