please dont say yuck

if this week will be a lot like my morning, then im up for a great week!

so far, ive been all smiles.. still elated by my friday night. ang babaw talaga ng kaligayahan ko minsan... yet another contradicting part of me: easy and hard to please. haha. such a girl.

hay! i should stop swooning over guys... haha. suddenly im a teenager again.. getting googoo eyes over boys. hahaha.

please dont say yuck. think of it this way... IM HAPPY. :)

bagaverde nights

its been a while since ive been out for a fun night... i think its safe to say that the last time i did, it didnt end up pleasant --- my fault mainly.

but last night i had a blast. watch madagascar (www.madagascar-themovie.com) and went to bagaberde with old, semi-old and new friends...

i missed you boo! he's a great guy... i love him already.. im happy for you. i hope im next! hahahahahaha.

the day wasn't as smooth as id wanted it to be... hard to stay normal when you're sleepy and emotional. but by the time i left the office (thanks pau for waiting in the rain with me), things started to pick up at a fantasmic pace!

so the movie was great (thanks to mel and cy for my ticket)... laughed every 3 seconds... and it felt good to laugh like that again... haha. felt like a kid again.. especially since we were sitting on the floor sa pinaka-front kasi full house... i felt relaxed and i could be myself... plain little me... no fronts, no pretending... just me, laughing enjoying the movie.

so far so good! then we headed to baga where MYMP and the Wiseguys were playing... it was great to see old friends perform again... i was smiling ear to ear. no, not just cause i still have a crush on Jam.. masaya lang talaga ako...

super deja vu ng highschool days.. these guys saw me grow up.. second year HS pa lang ako (my nognog tingting days), gig lang nila pwede ko puntahan for gimik.. little did my mom know the things id do at their gigs! hahaha. grad ball.. they set me up with their friend para sha date ko... i dont hink i even finished my ball.. eskapo kami agad from intercon to blue lizard for their gig... fun times.. i even did backstage work for them for their concert sa music museum years back.. haha. sorry jam.. nalimutan kong ang yakisoba walang sabaw... kinain mo pa rin naman e! hahaha. tense naman kasi ako...

im glad for nights like last night.. forgot about all my concerns.. just threw everything away and enjoyed myself.. it wasnt anything wild or anything.. steady lang.. but it was a break well welcomed. mashado ata ako natuwa... wrote something long about a simple night.. hehe. im just that happy about it.

my stupid mouth --- haha!

i've grown to be too honest.

you meet different kind of people in your life.
there are those who teach you things about yourself --- things about who you are right now.
there are those who teach you who you can be --- teach you things that make you better.
there are those who remind you of who you were --- and you get perspective of the changes, both good and bad.

i have no regrets meeting everyone i have met in my life so far. and i know i will meet more people. i am who i am today because of everyone i have met. in a way, i have gotten better each day.

most recently, i met people who have taught me the value of honesty and sincerity in a friendship. i am thankful for that lesson. you have nothing to lose if you are honest because it leaves very little to interpretation and misinterpretation. there is a lot of freedom to be felt when you can say:

'you hurt me, but its okay.'
'i really like you but you make me feel bad about myself... we're better off as friends.'
'please don't lie to me because i can tell.'

for someone who was used to keeping things to herself... this was a tough change to make. looking back, i feel good things happened the way they did. i got something more valuable than a romantic relationship out of it. indeed, it was why it was meant to happen that way.

i guess i forgot that not everyone can take honesty (at least not the brutal hard core kind). and with honesty must come wisdom to choose the right words. so i was honest and i hurt a good friend but i was not careful enough with the words. i guess i wasnt thinking --- oh, but i was!

i just wanted to say how i felt... that's all. i was put in a spot where i felt uncomfortable and i was confused by all the possibilities. but i know for sure no one had the intention to hurt me -- that, at the very least, was clear. there was no doubt in me that nothing changed with the friendship... and although i may have given the impression something has, nothing should change...

so the only thing i am guilty of is honesty --- too much honesty.

don't get me wrong.. i still have my secrets. there are major things in my life i want to tell friends that i am still gathering courage to actually do so. and there are things i feel but i choose not to show because it is best kept to myself for now.

but the honesty i have learned has strengthened at least 2 friendships that i have. many thanks. for now, it has maybe chipped another friendship. but i have faith that the years of friendship we have invested will be enough to fix it. maybe for now we are both wounded by each others words and misinterpreted intentions...

i'll always be here.

avenging girl-friends

thank God for avenging girl-friends!

i was masungs again last night and i ranted a bit just to get it out of my head... (see post below).

surprised to hear from pat.. owing it was a work-related thing... and im thankful that though we dont see each other and mas madalas pa kami mag-usap sa YM now that she's in USA, we still love each other as much, if not more that we did back in college.

come to think of it, madami akong friends like that... hhmmm... lucky girl!

im not so bad a person after all! (insert evil laugh here)

so thank you to all my girl-friends.. old and new... dont want to get cheesy over this so ill just end with my thanks!

bayot queen

mel will probably get who this is on the onset... i just have to vent.. vent.. VENT!

why do some people indulge in making others so miserable? is it because malungkot ang buhay nila dapat lahat ng tao sa paligid nila malungkot din? di tama yun! everyone deserves to be happy! everyone is entitled to holidays, rest days, and Christmas breaks... care ko if it happens every year... each is special and hindi mo na pwede balikan yun! i dont know how these people get to sleep at night knowing they make so many people's lives harder than they should be... baka nga hindi nakaka tulog...

friendship ba ang tawag kapag ang maga tao sumasama sa iyo dahil takot sila sa iyo? di ba? pucha. nag-gagamitan na lang kayo nun.. where is the sincerity and honesty there? i cringe at this... to think i was sort of a part of it.. i was stupid to believe may amount of sincerity there... ok, fine, meron naman infairness.. pero most of it was and is all for show... too bad i genuinely cared for some if not most of them.

some people are soooo scheming to the point that a minute truth can and will be exploited and stretched to create a big hullabaloo... but you can't complain honey... may point na pinanggagalingan ang it is within the 'rights' to expect these things. nakaka-suka. nakaka-suka talaga... mahirap i-explain.. you have to experience it to understand... but i would not wish such an ill fate for you...

pero in fairness some people are soo smart (conniving even), that they skillfully manipulate other people to get what they want.. aba aba aba... hindi tama yan kapatid... may sarili akong isip... graduate ako ng ateneo... walang lamangan na ganyan... do not exploit your 'powers' to get what you want.. do not threaten me with your false claims to get what you want... that is simply unfair and evil. oportunista ka mashado...

most of all, DO NOT ACT AS IF YOU ARE THE MOST HOLY PERSON... tingin sa salamin po... nag-uumapaw sa inyong kaanyuan ang katotohanan... mag-mamalinis pa e! nanggagalaiti ako sa mga taong mahilig magmalinis... HOY... sa mata ni God... alam nya ang totoo! sha na bahala sa iyo!

hay nako.. i should be used to this by now. and although im not distraught by this and im not an emotional wreck, i cannot help but be the least bit affected by it parin simply because i strongly disagree with the injustice that it is. there is no way this can be rationalized.. kahit bali-baliktarin mo.. sha at sha lang ang may kaya to bring logic into it. convincing talaga! haha. pwede nang pamalit sa likes nila bro eli.. hahaha.

the saga continues. if i saved a peso for everytime people cause this unnecessary stress.... lets just say.. charities will be lucky.

yun lang. i just wanted to let it out... safe naman siguro no... im tired of talking about it: i say the same things, and i hear the same things as well... isusulat ko na lang... at least the bad vibes ends there. well, more of this to come.. expect it... and expect it to be less and less vague...

random things about me

saw this on some former teammate's blogs.. thought it might be fun to do... 50 random things about you.

sounds vain i know.. but its a good exercise.. haha. but its would take me forever to fill out the 50 items so instead ill try to put in a few random stuff about me in each post...

for todthay:

love to travel...

something attractive about packing your stuff and going to a place where no one knows you. masaya lang to let go and not worry about the usual stuff. great for people watching, too. although i cant stay away from home rin naman.. i know ill be going home. not the migrating type... just the get-away-from-it-all-and-go-home-to-mommy type. i often cry when i see the 'biyahe tayo' mtv on cable... frustrated kasi that i cant travel as much as id want to. ang baduy no... hey, its true.. haha.

secretly still want a showbiz life...

well, its not a secret anymore. haha. when i was a kid, i secretly prayed mom would enter me in the little ms philippines in eat bulaga. haha. i really think i was meant to be in showbiz... love the glamour and attention. but on the other hand, mahiyain naman ako... ayaw ko naman yung mga kahihiyang pinagdadaanan ng mga starlet sa tv... ew... nakakahiya. hahaha. im so pinoy noh?

so that's my installment for today... i guess marami nang may alam nyan about me... hehe. more to come...

You might be a child of the 80's if...

found this on www.80scartoons.net and www.80snostalgia.com

just a few (ahem) things to remind us of our youger years... haha.

i cant relate to them all but the others really make me say: 'yeah! i remember that!'

please feel free to add to my list! send me your contributions and ill add them!

1. You wanted to be on Star Search. (Didn't we all?) --- or kung pinoy ka, little ms. philippines sa eat bulaga.. bwahahaha.
2. You can remember what Michael Jackson looked like before his nose fell off. Or even when he had those freaky eyes in "Thriller" at the end of the video.
3. You wore a banana clip or one of those slap on wrist bands at some point during your youth.
4. You loved Will Smith as early as 'Fresh Prince of Bel Air'
5. You had slouch socks, and collected st. michael's socks.
6. You can name at least half of the members of the elite "Brat Pack."
7. You can remember watching Full House and Saved by the Bell for endless hours.
8. You know the profound meaning of "Wax on, Wax off."
9. You could breakdance, or wished you could.
10. You ever wore fluorescent—neon if you will—clothing...
11. You have seen at least 10 episodes of Fraggle Rock.
12. You know that another name for a keyboard is a "Synthesizer."
13. You'll always hold a special place in your heart for "Back to the Future."
14. You know where to go if you "wanna go where everybody knows your name."
15. You own any cassettes or albums.
16. You know what "psych" means.
17. You fell victim to 80's fashion: big hair, crimped, combed over to the side, and you wore spandex pants.
18. You wanted to be a Goonie ("Goonies never say die.")
19. You knew "The Artist" when he was humbly called "Prince."
20. Trapper Keepers were the best school supply!
21. You wanted to communicate with Synergy, or you wanted green hair like that lead singer of the Misfits. See Jem.
22. You know who Max Headroom is.
23. You remember and/or own any of the Care Bear stuffed toys
24. You remember when ATARI was a state-of-the-art video gaming system.
25. You know what a Doozer is. See Fraggle Rock.
26. You were led to believe that in the year 2000 we'd all be living on the moon.
27. You inserted the word "like" into, like, every sentence.
28. "Poltergeist" totally freaked you out.
29. You carried your lunch to school in a Gremlins or an ET lunchbox.
30. You have ever pondered why Smurfette was the ONLY female smurf.
31. You wore biker shorts underneath a short skirt and felt stylish.
32. You have heard of "Garbage Pail Kids" (and perhaps still have a collection of them). Extra point You have seen the Garbage Pail Kids TV show. (Only one episode was aired.)
33. You ever had a Swatch Watch.
34. You actually thought "Dirty Dancing" was a REALLY good movie.
35. You actually spent countless hours trying to perfect the care-bear stare.
36. You had a crush on one of the Coreys (Haim or Feldman).
37. You had a crush on Bo Derek, Jason Priestly, Elijah Wood, and collected their pin ups from magazines.
38. You wanted to be The Hulk or Rainbow Brite for Halloween.
39. You believed that "By the power of Greyskull, you HAD the power!"
40. You thought that Transformers were more than meets the eye.
41. You know what a "Whammy" is. ("No Whammy, no whammy, stop!")
42. Partying "like it's 1999" seemed SO far away
43. You remember the days that hooking your computer into your TV wasn't an expensive option that required gadgets - it was the ONLY WAY to use your computer!
44. While in high school, you and all your friends discussed elaborate plans to get together again at the end of the century and play "1999" by Prince over and over again.
45. You remember when music that was labeled "alternative" really was.
46. Songs by Debbie Gibson still haunt you to this day.
47. 3 words: "Atari" "IntelliVision" and "Coleco". Sound familiar?
48. You can't remember a time when "going out for coffee" DIDN'T involve 49,000 selections to choose from.
49. You ever dressed to emulate a person you saw in either a Duran Duran, Madonna, or Cyndi Lauper video. (Or manilyn reynes, tina paner and timmy cruz.. hahaha.)
50. At one point during your teenage years, you walked with a noticeable tilt to one side due to the number of plastic rings on that arm.
51. "Celebration" by Kool & the Gang was one of the hot new songs when you first heard it at a school dance.
52. You ever owned one of those embarrassing crimping irons.
53. You used to hold in your head the thought that all those gold chains on Mr. T actually looked kinda cool and the thought that Mr. T made millions seemed rational to you at the time.
54. You've gotten this far on the list and aren't totally confused.
55. You read the "Hot Video Games Player's Secrets" guide for Mortal Kombat just so you could find the hidden screen, and play Pong again for old time's sake
56. You've recently horrified yourself by using any one of the following phrases:
"When I was younger"
"When I was your age"
"You know, back when..."
"Because I SAID so, that's why"
"What the HECK is this noise on the radio?"
"Just can't (fill in the blank) like I used to"
57. You're starting to believe that maybe 30 isn't so old after all, and it's those people over 40 you have to look out for.
58. Your hair, at some point in time in the 80's, became something which can only be described by the phrase "I was experimenting."
59. You've ever shopped at a Banana Republic or Benetton, but not in the last five years, okay?
60. You're starting to get that "why aren't you married yet" spiel, not just from parents, but now from friends that are married.
61. You had a crush on Jon Bon Jovi, or knew someone who did.
62. You thought eating Reese's Pieces would attract your own Alien.
63. You had a poster of Rob Lowe, Kirk Cameron, or Michael J. Fox on your wall.
64. This rings a bell: "and my name, is Charlie. They work for me."
65. You HAD to have your MTV
66. You remember when Madonna was just hitting the scene. And Ricky Martin was still part of The Menudos.
67. You remember the original version of Windows: Macintosh.
68. You actually know who Rick Springfield is
69. You remember when film critics raved that no movie could ever possibly get better special effects than those in the movie TRON.
70. You jammed to the Miami Vice theme and thought Jan Hammer was cool.
71. Guys: You remember when a guy piercing his ear was radical to the max, but did it anyhow.

72. You never questioned why the A-Team were always imprisoned in places that had sufficient tools to build an armoured tank.
73. Dungeons & Dragons was your favourite cartoon.
74. You have ever danced (or even worse cried) to Kylie & Jason.
75. Cerise pink, electric blue and banana yellow have ever featured in your wardrobe or make-up collection.
76. You ever did the top toggle of your coat up around your neck without having your arms in the sleeves, and knew you looked like a super-hero.
77. Parachuting Action man was your favourite toy.
78. You wanted to be either Nancy Drew or the Hardy Boys. (And collected all those choose-your-own-adventure books)
79. You know the Wakefield twins, and wanted to be a part of the 'Unicorn Club'.

80. Not only did you wear luminous clothing, but they were mismatched fingerless gloves and towelling socks.
81. You remember when Betamax was at the cutting edge of technology.

82. You own at least 5 colors of the Benetton Classics t-shirts!

confused body temperature and psychic appointments

mainit sa office pero nanlalamig ang lola mo. haha. how highschool of me to get cold hands and feet (literal no exag)... haha. ano ba angel... simple decisions you cant make! actually i think ive made them.. im just too chicken to stand up for them.. TANCHICKEN!!!! (that's what they used to call me back in highschool... i love chicken!) now it takes on a whole new meaning.. haha. and hay! coincidence.. i was born year of the rooster. labo. that had nothing to do with my confused body temperature!

MENTAL NOTE: think... think... think... decide... stick with it!

anyway..... im waiting for that psychic dude to get here for my reading... im excited to know what he has to say... hehe. last time, robert das said the following:

1. i have lesbian tendencies (yeah, whatever! one and a half is enough in my family. thank you very much).

2. i should stay away from deep water. swim if i must but 'wag na daw ako pumunta sa malalim. good luck! i like the beach and i like the sea... no card-reading man will tell me i can't!!!! not even if mel ties me to a friggin coconut tree!!!

3. he said marami daw magkaka-gusto sa akin na matandang may asawa. Lord! kawawa naman nanay ko! haha. i can hear her now saying: "mabait naman ako.. bakit hindi pinayagang makapag asawa ng maayos mga anak ko.. maganda naman kayo.. weird nga lang ng konti.. pero mababait and worth loving." hahaha. habang kaming manangs-to-be ay deadmang kumakain mg fried chicken. hahaha. (yes, its happened before). hindi bale ma.. pwedeng pwede namang magka-apo na walang asawa e... :p

i think those are the only things i remember now.. but i remember him saying to a bunch of us AEs na mabubuntis kami this year.. all of us?! hahaha. funny guy. i guess pati sa mga ganyan may 'compatibility' factor... :p

i hope this marvin guy is a better one for me... wala lang.. someone to talk to about your life na impartial totally. not overly serious about it, but it tickles my curiosity... !

so expect my next post to be about it.. hihi.. yes, more talk about me!!!

naipon na lang

a lot has happened since my last post --- both personally and work-wise.

ive been tossed around doing stuff that i havent had the joy of posting anything. ayan naipon tuloy. ill probably keep adding to this until ive exhausted everything.... LONG POST!

MCEA
i spent the whole week last week working on the MCEA entry.

thanks you to ena, carla, mayet and elaine for all the help... 4000 words is a struggle if you've been used to working on your brevity... nightmare.

friday was bad... wanted to do a lot of stuff before leaving for vietnam: buy shoes and jeans (i have 3 pairs of jeans.. thats it), go to the parlor.. etc.

worked on that entry until late friday night (i think 930 na kami natapos ni carla), needless to say i wasnt even able to do ANYTHING on my list (plus i got my period pa)! so i was in a really bad mood that night... stuff going on personally and stuff going on at work are thigns you dont want happening at the same time.. at least i dont think im built that way...

VIETNAM
so i got home and proctrastinated kasi i really wasnt in the mood to leave anymore. eventually i started to pack my stuff around midnight and finished around 130am. woke up at 4 (we were supposed to meet at kaye's house at 4!) and got to the airport ok.

vietnam was a blast! mainit lang talaga sobra. bargaining for stuff was really fun. haha. ive never felt more kuripot in my life! its liberating!

city tour
as always, city tour muna.. i figured this is the fastest way to see the city and strategize where to go. nothing fantastic... i guess i was too busy hating the heat.

first impressions of ho chi minh city:
they weren't kidding when they said there are more motorcycles and bicycles than there are cars! super konti lang ng traffic lights and crossing the street is fun... kasi you get to dodge the motorists and not be too afraid of how injured you will get. hahaha.

it was hard trying to understand their english kasi they lose some letters... like sixty is sikty... five is faaaay.. but you get used to it a bit.

the city is cleaner than i imagined... cleaner that i expected. :) people are nice... very asian... but there are still people who try to take advantage: rue those cyclo drivers... shame on them for charging VD100,000 (Php330) for a 5-minute ride, when we agreed on $1 (VD15,000)! well i hope it fed their families well.

shopping at ben thahn market
a lot of cheap bags and shoes here... the girls here at the office hoarded all the shoes and bags they can... nakakatuwa. we will probably end up wearing the same shoes here. haha.

this market is much like our divisoria.. it has everything (well, almost). but its very organized... all bags and textiles in one section, dry goods in another, metal stuffs in another, retail clothes in a separate are, food an others in their own sections. cool!

we were all millionaires when we got there ($100 = VD1,583,000).. now we're all looking forward to payday! hahaha. ironic. good thing i computed for the exchange rate ng vietnam dong to peso.. so deciding if its expensive or not became faster. plus, i had a great shopping partner... thanks pau!

fanny's ice cream
good food wasnt easy to find.. but we got good ice cream at fanny's. its near our hotel and its not too expensive (approx. VD39,000... Php130.00). they had really nice presentations on their menu.. although sa sobrang init, hindi mo rin ma-appreciate ng matagal kasi natutunaw. :p

cu chi tunnel
this was really a one of a kind experience. i expect all of us will write about this in our blogs... kakaiba talaga.

these tunnels are amazing. im tamad to explain the history of it all, but in a nutshell, its where the vietcongs lived to hide from the americans (3 levels, complete with kitchen, hospitals and stuff)... the tour included showing the 'boody' traps they made, the REALLY small entrances to the tunenls, and stuffs. so anyway, the main attraction was getting to go inside part of the actual tunnels!

let's just put it this way. now i know what i feels like to be buried. the tunnels were really small... if you start to panic it can get really hard to breathe. you kinda have to know what you're getting into to get yourself mentally prepared for it... its dark, they've installed red lights inside but that dont help much once someone's ass covers it. haha. its kinda hard to breathe.. but maybe that was just cause i was breathing too hard... and its kinda hot.. but that was probably because a bunch of us was inside.

but it was some experience! to imagine people LIVING there... i have no idea how they did it.

if you're going to ho chi minh, you HAVE to go see these tunnels!!!!

more shopping around ho chi minh
you can really just walk around and buy stuff off the stores around the district... just make sure you try to get it at half the price. as long as the store doesnt have a sign that says 'fixed price' you can give bargaining a shot. good thing dala ko havaianas ko. i dont think i would have survived with anything else! mainit kasi so dusa sa feet to be in rubber shoes all the time... for me, at least...

so that's been most of the kwento from vietnam.. i had fun even if i was super bad trip the night before we left. feel free to check out my yahoo photos for pictures of the trip!

WARNING: conversation with an intoxicated woman

i love my girl-friends... mixed nuts talaga kami.. someday ill write about them more so you'll wonder how the heck we all got along...

PAT: this is so you will remember how drunk you are right now. :) love you!!!!

patUSA: u blackmailed paolo
gel_28: i did?! how?!
patUSA: blog for tenmplate
patUSA: what does mcea mean
gel_28: hindi ah.. he just made it. i guess naawa na sa sorry-ass blog ko... i was busy with mce yesterday so binigay ko na password ko..
patUSA: ahhh
gel_28: marketing communications excellence awards (i think)
patUSA: binigay mo password mo
patUSA: lagot ka
patUSA: this will sound so juicy to lovine next week
gel_28: haha. wala naman ako tinatago dun e...
gel_28: what will sound juicy?!
gel_28: MCEA?! weird ng taste nya ha..
patUSA: ha???
patUSA: shit im so drunk as hee
patUSA: hell
gel_28: so your status says...
patUSA: tanina
patUSA: isang litreo ng chardoneeay
patUSA: oh fuck
patUSA: well then
patUSA: tell paulo im willing to share my blog
patUSA: if he will make me atemplate
patUSA: otherwise., i would have to resort to depsartare maeasures
gel_28: dude.. you're missing letters in your sentences...
patUSA: am i?
patUSA: fuck
gel_28: you are...
patUSA: but im serious with the threat
patUSA: ,ovine will know about this by tongiht
gel_28: know about what nga...
patUSA: you anf paui
gel_28: there is no me and pau darling.. lasing ka lang.
patUSA: lol
patUSA: ok fine well u better ask pau what he did with ur blogger if u dont wanna die
patUSA: shet im so dunk i cant believe im threatening you
gel_28: he'll teach me... but when ubos na the stuff we ahve to do...
patUSA: fuck that lol
patUSA: ok im ginna lie fown now
gel_28: you should read this again when you're sober...
gel_28: tatawa ka.
patUSA: ok fine
gel_28: pati sa YM salitang lasheng ka...
patUSA: save it sa archive om
gel_28: its in your recent history!!!
patUSA: yahaha
patUSA: albaoo
gel_28: GET SOBER. SLEEP NA.
patUSA: its fuckin 7pm
patUSA: i cant go to sleep
patUSA: lemme call lovine
patUSA: lol
patUSA: ay kaya lang hes at work pa
gel_28: kaloka ka...
gel_28: our kind should stay away from technology and boys when drunk, emotional, hungry or really sleepy.
patUSA: haha
patUSA: shet gagaguhin ko si lovine
gel_28: ha?
patUSA: haha wala
patUSA: tatawagan ko lang
patUSA: go do your work
patUSA: matutulog muna ko
gel_28: GUDNYT!!!
patUSA: ill wake up at 10 and then go to some club or something

make over!

thank you paulo for my personalized template!!!!!

LOVE IT!

made my day. after 4 days of working on the MCEA entry.. this was definitely a pleasant surprise. :)

my blog is so pretty!!! hahaha. and it's not pa-girl!

weird weather. weird people!

its been two days in a row na that i step out of my house fresh and happy and within 10 minutes im sweating from the heat and irritated at the feeling. not a nice way to start your day!

what's up with the weather!!!! in paranaque its hot as ever, in pasig it rains.

ainee said she had a gut feeling people are going to be weird coz of the weird weather. TRUE. people are weird in general but i think we've all gotten weird-er.

can't really go into details, but people aren't themselves!

people id know to be happy and problem-free (or just handle problems real well) are suddenly moody, deadma and blah! now i dont know tuloy if its something i said or did, or its something they're going through. hmm...

kay paulo to..

VIRGIN BEACH. PURE SHORES. (title c/o ainee)

on a happier note, i finally went to the beach. i really havent been out for the summer so i was really stoked to go and we were celebrating ainee's bday too. we headed south to san juan,batangas. really nice place. soaked up on sun (for my ever so yellow self) ate junk food and swam (drank sea water). everything was a blast- except for my last few minutes in the water. i was getting some alone time and enjoying it, looking at the morning horizon and dog swimming to stay afloat. i decided to take a last swim. so i swam farther from the shore, as i paddled away, i felt this familiar sting. a jellyfish ruined my alone time. half of my left fore arm was tingling. trying not panic, i swam back, and peed on my self. dont ask me how, but i did. the sting wasnt that bad, but it was pretty nasty for a small creature.

here are some pictures (from angel, and some i took using her camera)

brain mush

im too tired to write anything here today.

i spent the day working on the stupid MCEA entry... its too time consuming!!!! imagine, one whole day just to dig up info and somewhat organize it?! heck?!

anyway, it ate my day. that's pretty much what i did today. worst is, i have to write it tomorrow... ah basta, im going ukay ukay tomorrow over lunch.

im hungry again...

mommy's day

it is friggin hot today. promise. my only consolation is that i spent 70% of it in sta. elena (thank you tita ganda for having us over!)

spent the day with my nephews (minus my sevi...). we went to the fun farm... see, what i loved about that place is that its soooo cool. i feel like singing od mc donald spontaneously.. haha. they have al kinds of animals: pot bellied pigs, cows (one with a 6-day old calf), ducks (a pair humping on the side), cats (in big cages... which was a weird sight), peafowls (like the ones in Mushroom Burger in tagaytay), chickens, turtles, rabbits (too many to count), horses... well, you get the picture. Id love to be Farmer Tinky for a day!

some of the stuff we did there:

1. tried to catch fish - i didnt catch any... neither did tita rina and tita miah... hmmm. is that symbolic of anything else in our lives? hahaha. the 'old maids' were the topic of the day again!

2. saved 8 new born wabbits... as in bloody and all. the thing is rabbits are fertile and horny 365 days a year... as soon as they give birth, they can go and get pregnant again.. so it really wasnt big news when vins discovered the pink bunnies kinda wiggling their way out of the 'burrow'.

3. the boys went 'harvesting' - actually the goods were picked na for them but placed on the plants lang again... i dont think corn grows out of the ground... :p

4. SWIMMMING! haha. as if im not dark enough! haha. but miah and i had to babysit vins in the kiddie pool... ergo my scraped knees from kneeling. buti na lang walang gwapo dun kanina. major kahiya.

id post pictures, but they're too big.. ill have to resize them first... but to those who know my yahoo photos, they're there.

oh yah... HAPPY MOMMY'S DAY MOMMY! Thanks for you know what... ;P

to be continued...

i was trying to get some early zzzzz's last night when my sister stopped flipping through cable to watch the story of erica enders on the disney channel. her younger (and bratty) sister, charlotte said something that was beautiful...

its when you really want to win that you lose. (charlotte enders)

why am i always hungry?!

BREAKFAST: Jollibee Longganisa Meal with regular dalandan juice
LUNCH: Golden Crusted Chicken, Ham & Cheese Crepewith Angel Hair Pomodoro, 1 small slice of 4-cheese pizza, a few bites of the Mud Pie and water, all at The Old Spaghetti House.
DINNER: BLT Wrap from Fruit Magic @ Fitness First, The Fort. (note i did not work out today. i went to the gym to buy dinner and then, i went home.)

i had 3 square meals today... WHY AM I HUNGRY AGAIN?!

paano naman ako papayat nito...

to a day of blogging and other random things

good mood today. best in a loooooong time. haha. ive been having episodes again --- to the torture of those around me. (mel should be beatified!)

today, i was hyper, laughing at everything, i was smiling 99.9% of the time (the .1% was spent resting my smiling muscles!), i was a bundle of energy --- big contrast from my moods the past weeks.

HAPPINESS SCALE: 8!

i think im starting not to care... i mean not to care excessively.
i dont care so much if im fatter than i was in college... i still think im pretty when i smile.
i dont care so much if im not every guy's ideal girl... if he can't see why im so great maybe he aint so great too! (hmm... i think i'll need a longer entry to discuss this... permutations to set...WATCH OUT FOR THAT.)
i dont care so much if im not a gazillionaire.. who needs all that money anyway?!

NEW STRESS RELIEVER: Blogging

its the perfect therapy for the intensely OC person. it is a challenge i enjoy immensely... haha.

HAKA-HAKA at KURO-KURO of the moment:

1. learn new things... an important thing to keep getting smarter... no one is smart enough. not even einstein. (doubt einstein could do a decent cartwheel even if he had the higherst IQ ever... and i can!!! HAH!)

2. read books... next best think to a good conversation. i think i talk to myself and agrue with myself when i read... not a very psychologically stable thing to do, but it just happens naturally. (so im naturally abnormal?!)

3. try almost everything at least once... had to qualify with an 'almost' since there are things that might leave you dead if you try kahit once... it pays to get passed your comfort zone every so often... at least your world gets bigger each time!

when you're not doing what you're supposed to do

tried to career this blog today, but i got tamad.

tried to get essential work done, but i got tamad.

tried to fix my desk, but i got tamad.

i didnt get tamad to read through some of the old stuff i wrote!!!! kaloka. the levels of pa-girlness are almost intolerable!

here's an example:

January 31st, 2005
smiling never felt better
Hay. I could stare at his face for hours... Too bad he doesnt know... Too bad im conscious about it... haha. I really like looking at him.. looking at our picture together... im such a sentimental fool... but right now i like what i feel... next time ko na problemahin if he feels the same way or not... right now... SMILING NEVER FELT BETTER.

di ba pa-girl!!! natatawa na lang ako.

but i remember why i wrote that and i still agree... smiling DID feel good that day. hihihi. PA-GIRL!

basta im a certified hopeless-romantic-sentimental-schmuck. :D

ms congeniality is a fluke

MUST REMEMBER: in everything i do, it is utterly impossible to satisfy everyone.

hay. with my occupation, disappointment is a daily thing. you just can't please everyone! and i guess all AEs go through it (doesnt make it fair), but everything almost always seems to be your fault. but you learn to get over it... you get passed the self blaming phase and all you are left with is: angst. hardcore angst. haha.

i think ive learned to deal with it... carla was dead right when she told me: alam mo angel, hindi lahat ng bagay kaya mo i-control. yung mga bagay na wala sa control mo, let it go.

wisdom from someone who has been in advertising accounts for 13 years.

its true: and stress nakaka-tanda. (not to mention nakaka-eyebags, nakaka-pimples, nakaka-old maid, nakaka-taba...)

quickie day

i woke up today and the next thing i know, its time to sleep again. WHERE DID MY DAY GO?!

spent half my day brainstorming and talking about cologne personalities... it was a mindful.. tried so hard not to project myself on to the brand assigned to me... haha. (a little bit of this, a little bit of that... neither this nor that...)

got back to the office to have enough time to sit for the really short staff meeting (VIETNAM HERE I COME!!!!! yay.), check my email and reply to one, YM a little about this on the side thing im part of, then i had to run off to yet another meeting. by the time that finished, i only had enough time to get to the gym in time for HIP HOP GRIND (clap, clap, clap) --- i love tuesdays!

so, my day was really short but im happy... no neurotic episodes today... :) ladies and gentlemen, i can still be a normal person!

tomorrow will be a long day, i know.. no meetings lined up. must get a lot of backlog stuff done. i think nakakahalata na boss ko i havent been as productive. hihihi. but im sure ill find time to write again... comissioned julette to help me spruce this up.. and will probably beg kaye to tutor as well. (micker is too busy to even reply to any of my texts and YM messages.... HEMPH!)

no profound and pretentious thoughts for today --- just an ordinary day. haven't had those for quite a while now.

that's what i should be happy about today: there are days that aren't fantabulously great, but they're not bad either...

what papa thinks

papa has told me over and over again that i have so much drive and determination to prove myself that im almost always in a hurry. in a hurry to get things done and get to where im headed -- mom says its because im the youngest of six kids. who knows why.. i have more important questions to bounce around in my head.

i ask myself... why am i in a hurry in the first place? what's next after ive accomplished everything on my list?

i don't know. and i think my 'impatience' is also because it crushes me to go through stuff the hard way... i hate going through a hard time --- what a brat.

yeah yeah, i know that's what makes experience valuable but you can't blame me for wanting the easier way out. we all probably take that route at some point in life if we had a choice.

NEED TO DO: harness energy and use it to get the right stuff done.

i spend so much of this energy fussing and fussing over the less important stuff. sure, they're important to me, but that's not always a good thing. time to redirect energies!

let the madness begin

im unpredictable.

people around me will probably agree im a crazy girl. im moody and emotional with a flair for the melodramatic. sometimes i think ive pictured my life to be a book... a cheesy teenage romance novel book. so what? im a girl... and all girls are entitled to their own fairytales.

so here it is. my attempt to define myself... PA-PROFOUND ha...

but that's who i am. to say im the complete and total opposite of myself will be the closest thing to the truth.

im a sweet bitch.
im aloof, apathetic and overly concerned.
im lazy, guttonous, and health conscious.
im a sort-of-almost-mature kid.
im nightmare anyone can dream of.
im conservative and profane.
im big and small (depends what bodpart you're looking at, really).
who give's a shit how may times i contradict myself... I'M FUCKING ME--- deal with it buster.