athough still sluggish and sleepy, i feel G-R-E-A-T.
yesterday's presentation went well... feels great to be part of it. ive been lucky that the few new business pitches ive been part of, most left me in high spirits. happy with myself and how i did. :) teehee.
i really hope we get the account.
of course the last few days leading up to yesterday were less than sweet. i found myself angry and frustrated again. but hey, ganun talaga e. inthe end things still went well. that should be enough to get over all the hassles.
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ive been thinking... there are things that you cant force.. some things just dont go together. maybe we're like that.
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here it goes... im starting to feel the strain of this new set-up... but i know we can get over it and adjust. after all, if what we have is as strong and special as we say, then we'll be okay.
i guess i just miss you. especially since these are the times i would love to share with you.
Friday, February 23
Wednesday, February 21
night out with my cheering friends
sleepy... i really shouldnt stay up late on sunday nights coz it turns me into a walking vegetable the rest of the week! it doesnt help that i haven't been able to sleep earlier than 12mn since then. hahahaha.
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"...im out with my cheerleader friends."
got together with the boys ang girls of babble last night at grams diner, rockwell. i knew it was going to be a riot. hahaha. kat introduced her hubby lee to us and i think its safe to say we all fell in love with him... congratulations to you both. we're all looking forward to seeing how cute your kids will be! hahaha.
rundown of attendees: kat and lee, abel, jemil, tooper, tisha, patching, arjae (and friend), monica, lora (and brother), caleen and myself.
with mon, lora, and myself there (though we missed nikki, and karen... golden girls! haha) we were not a quiet table. haha. lora was her usual self... non-stop kwento. isama mo pa si caleen. and of course kat. hahaha.
i had so much fun. too bad kat and lee have to fly back to LA tomorrow night. :( im seriously considering adding a side trip to LA to visit her (and mel lau and some other relatives)... i wonder, may maiiwan pa kaya akong pera after the trip? hahahahaha!
(photos on my multiply photo page... will grab the others' photos when i get the chance)
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"...don't be an asshole."
in the spirit of the same honesty and openness that made you confess your soul to me a few days back, i hope some of the things i said will make you realize how this "arrangement" is sitting with me.
though i now know you're not the type to take bluntness easily. ill probably have to be more cheerful in being honest.
its slowly becoming more obvious i have to do something about this. so not into mind games. but i told you that already, didnt i?
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"...im out with my cheerleader friends."
got together with the boys ang girls of babble last night at grams diner, rockwell. i knew it was going to be a riot. hahaha. kat introduced her hubby lee to us and i think its safe to say we all fell in love with him... congratulations to you both. we're all looking forward to seeing how cute your kids will be! hahaha.
rundown of attendees: kat and lee, abel, jemil, tooper, tisha, patching, arjae (and friend), monica, lora (and brother), caleen and myself.
with mon, lora, and myself there (though we missed nikki, and karen... golden girls! haha) we were not a quiet table. haha. lora was her usual self... non-stop kwento. isama mo pa si caleen. and of course kat. hahaha.
i had so much fun. too bad kat and lee have to fly back to LA tomorrow night. :( im seriously considering adding a side trip to LA to visit her (and mel lau and some other relatives)... i wonder, may maiiwan pa kaya akong pera after the trip? hahahahaha!
(photos on my multiply photo page... will grab the others' photos when i get the chance)
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"...don't be an asshole."
in the spirit of the same honesty and openness that made you confess your soul to me a few days back, i hope some of the things i said will make you realize how this "arrangement" is sitting with me.
though i now know you're not the type to take bluntness easily. ill probably have to be more cheerful in being honest.
its slowly becoming more obvious i have to do something about this. so not into mind games. but i told you that already, didnt i?
Tuesday, February 20
ouchie
my head hurts. its ironic my head hurts because of the sheets on pain relievers. somehow i dont find it funny and im not relieved at all.
everything was whacked today.
was supposed to have a 9-12nn meeting at alabang where 3 groups of suppliers were to present. that stupid girl (who had no remorse whatsoever for the immense delay she caused) came in at freaking 1030am... pushing everything else to end by 130pm.
my 2pm internal meeting got "moved" to 5pm, but instantly moved again to 330pm... ended past 5pm i think.
so technically my day began at 5pm. these things happen, i know. and ive adjusted to it several times before. but the clincher is... because i had this bright idea to ask about sheets, i find myself sitting here at my desk (STILL) magically producing sheets for tomorrow out of nothing.
now i have to be honest. im a bit lost with this project. so that makes it a bit harder to be the one to construct the sheets. PLUS, it seems my boss is already resigned to the fact that whatever i prepare will surely be changed based on what the bosses want (whats new). so (without thinking) i told her earlier:
- di ko na kakaririn kasi babarilin din naman... EEEEENK! wrong thing to say.
- bakit di nalans sabihin ng mga boss ano gusto nila para di na sayang effort ko kung alam naman pala nyang babarilin... EEEEEENK! wrong again.
i cant help but wonder why i have to exert effort to think of how the latag should go if i know my boss is SO open to it being shot down... parang i get the feeling di man lang nya ipaglalaban. i will end up presenting my hard work, and take all the blows. what the point? please, someone remind me what im missing.
anyway, i should really go back to my sheets... and my endless transcriptions.
oh by the way... im doing this... yet i wont be part of the actual group presenting come d-day. wow. that's very uplifting.
MENTAL NOTE: keep in mind that this will only make me better... do it for the exercise.
everything was whacked today.
was supposed to have a 9-12nn meeting at alabang where 3 groups of suppliers were to present. that stupid girl (who had no remorse whatsoever for the immense delay she caused) came in at freaking 1030am... pushing everything else to end by 130pm.
my 2pm internal meeting got "moved" to 5pm, but instantly moved again to 330pm... ended past 5pm i think.
so technically my day began at 5pm. these things happen, i know. and ive adjusted to it several times before. but the clincher is... because i had this bright idea to ask about sheets, i find myself sitting here at my desk (STILL) magically producing sheets for tomorrow out of nothing.
now i have to be honest. im a bit lost with this project. so that makes it a bit harder to be the one to construct the sheets. PLUS, it seems my boss is already resigned to the fact that whatever i prepare will surely be changed based on what the bosses want (whats new). so (without thinking) i told her earlier:
- di ko na kakaririn kasi babarilin din naman... EEEEENK! wrong thing to say.
- bakit di nalans sabihin ng mga boss ano gusto nila para di na sayang effort ko kung alam naman pala nyang babarilin... EEEEEENK! wrong again.
i cant help but wonder why i have to exert effort to think of how the latag should go if i know my boss is SO open to it being shot down... parang i get the feeling di man lang nya ipaglalaban. i will end up presenting my hard work, and take all the blows. what the point? please, someone remind me what im missing.
anyway, i should really go back to my sheets... and my endless transcriptions.
oh by the way... im doing this... yet i wont be part of the actual group presenting come d-day. wow. that's very uplifting.
MENTAL NOTE: keep in mind that this will only make me better... do it for the exercise.
Monday, February 19
what's up with that?!
something is really screwed up with the world these days. and im flattered. haha. this is funny... in a good way. i got a really odd text message tonight. and i dont want to say anything about it yet.. but saturday should be VERY interesting.
im giving myself the chance to do something i dont normally do (because i find it really uncomfortable and complicated). but im giving myself this chance because i owe it to myself.
hay. haha. im still smiling.
thank God for giving me another reason to smile.
im giving myself the chance to do something i dont normally do (because i find it really uncomfortable and complicated). but im giving myself this chance because i owe it to myself.
hay. haha. im still smiling.
thank God for giving me another reason to smile.
Saturday, February 17
wala lang
im here at my mom's house.. sitting on her comfy couch. papa keeps popping in and out of the house with visa forms... miah is channel surfing... im going to take a while to enjoy this silence. right at this very moment, my life is calm. feels good to soak up in calm-ness for a change.
ill probably go to sleep in a while. looking forward to ama's lumpia tomorrow...
happy new year everyone!
ill probably go to sleep in a while. looking forward to ama's lumpia tomorrow...
happy new year everyone!
Thursday, February 15
A-cute valentine
i knew this year's valentine's day was going to be just another day... haha!
830am-330pm whole day meeting. talk about overwhelmed with info.
330pm-430pm instant crisis-control meeting
430pm-600pm made my way home... burning with fever again
the rest of the evening was spent at the ER of Asian Hospital.
mom was with me nung una.. but left after she found out na i needed to get a CBC test... her reason? she wanted to watch tita cory on deal or no deal. hahahahaha. cute ni mommy.
so anyway, i was happy the girl who got my blood was really good. as in wala ako naramdaman! not even the needle touching my arm! hmmm... dugo ko talaga kaya yun? haha.
so it turns out i have acute bronchitis. i guess i should count my blessings its just bronchitis. didnt feel too blessed when i bought my prescriptions though...
zithromax (antibiotic) - 1 tab a day for 3 days Php280/tab
toclase (for my dry cough) - 1 tbsp, 4x a day Php200+ isang bote
nafarin-a - 2x a day Php4.75/tab
my total bill: Php1,071.75
ouch.
i could have put that in my savings account na lang...
so that was my valentine's day.. :) i feel better today. at least i havent had fever since last night.
thanks to dj and mr manny for the single stem roses. thanks. :)
830am-330pm whole day meeting. talk about overwhelmed with info.
330pm-430pm instant crisis-control meeting
430pm-600pm made my way home... burning with fever again
the rest of the evening was spent at the ER of Asian Hospital.
mom was with me nung una.. but left after she found out na i needed to get a CBC test... her reason? she wanted to watch tita cory on deal or no deal. hahahahaha. cute ni mommy.
so anyway, i was happy the girl who got my blood was really good. as in wala ako naramdaman! not even the needle touching my arm! hmmm... dugo ko talaga kaya yun? haha.
so it turns out i have acute bronchitis. i guess i should count my blessings its just bronchitis. didnt feel too blessed when i bought my prescriptions though...
zithromax (antibiotic) - 1 tab a day for 3 days Php280/tab
toclase (for my dry cough) - 1 tbsp, 4x a day Php200+ isang bote
nafarin-a - 2x a day Php4.75/tab
my total bill: Php1,071.75
ouch.
i could have put that in my savings account na lang...
so that was my valentine's day.. :) i feel better today. at least i havent had fever since last night.
thanks to dj and mr manny for the single stem roses. thanks. :)
Monday, February 12
awake and sick
i still dont know exactly what the better thing to do is, but at least i have a fresh perspective on things. im awake now. i know this is not a dream... its not my dream. wake up and smell the real world!
in a way im thankful certain things happened. at least di na lulutang-lutang utak ko sa ulap.. my feet are back on the ground. hahaha. eh, kasalanan ko rin naman pala e!
so from now on, whatever you say and do, i cant help but probably be skeptical. thats the way things are now. you'll have to prove me wrong.
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im sick. fell asleep feeling great after walking outside (alone ah). but woke up feeling like something got stuck up my nasal passage (gross). then it progressed to a bad headache... then i got girly cramps... then they all kinda bugged me at the same time. until i finally broke out with a fever. so now, im crampy, runny (nose), achy, and getting hotter.
blech. this isnt the time to get sick. really.
i hope i wake up feeling better tomorrow.. its going to be a really crucial week.. and the week after too. so... I CANT BE SICK!!!
in a way im thankful certain things happened. at least di na lulutang-lutang utak ko sa ulap.. my feet are back on the ground. hahaha. eh, kasalanan ko rin naman pala e!
so from now on, whatever you say and do, i cant help but probably be skeptical. thats the way things are now. you'll have to prove me wrong.
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im sick. fell asleep feeling great after walking outside (alone ah). but woke up feeling like something got stuck up my nasal passage (gross). then it progressed to a bad headache... then i got girly cramps... then they all kinda bugged me at the same time. until i finally broke out with a fever. so now, im crampy, runny (nose), achy, and getting hotter.
blech. this isnt the time to get sick. really.
i hope i wake up feeling better tomorrow.. its going to be a really crucial week.. and the week after too. so... I CANT BE SICK!!!
Friday, February 9
still...
still sleepy.
i worked until past 10pm last night. got all the small yet needed and oh-so icky to do stuff out of the way. okay, fine. i didnt touch my copy analysis list. but i got a lot of things done and organized. i have a desk again. but i digress, i got home and fell asleep. woke up late and got to work late. but im still sleepy. makes it worse im starting to regret why i didnt sleep that night/morning. argh.
still thinking.
i still dont know what the better thing to do is. i dont think there's a right thing to do at this point. so i search for the better thing instead. some things im sure of, but some im still thinking of. maybe thats why im still sleepy. i havent stopped thinking.
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good luck! ill see you soon. :)
i worked until past 10pm last night. got all the small yet needed and oh-so icky to do stuff out of the way. okay, fine. i didnt touch my copy analysis list. but i got a lot of things done and organized. i have a desk again. but i digress, i got home and fell asleep. woke up late and got to work late. but im still sleepy. makes it worse im starting to regret why i didnt sleep that night/morning. argh.
still thinking.
i still dont know what the better thing to do is. i dont think there's a right thing to do at this point. so i search for the better thing instead. some things im sure of, but some im still thinking of. maybe thats why im still sleepy. i havent stopped thinking.
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good luck! ill see you soon. :)
Thursday, February 8
lack of sleep = incoherence
i find it hard not to say im a bit disappointed.
how can i not be?
how can you confess your soul to me the way you did?
well, maybe not how... but WHY?
can't you just please express your intentions?
i hate being kept in the dark.
i hope you're not playing mind games. i hate mind games.
lack of sleep. mind on full 'analyzing' gear.
i just want to understand and know im still in control of the situation.
i told you, pet peeve ko yun... i HAVE to stay in control of things... to have a hand in keeping options open.
thats the AE in me... i cant help it.
how can i not be?
how can you confess your soul to me the way you did?
well, maybe not how... but WHY?
can't you just please express your intentions?
i hate being kept in the dark.
i hope you're not playing mind games. i hate mind games.
lack of sleep. mind on full 'analyzing' gear.
i just want to understand and know im still in control of the situation.
i told you, pet peeve ko yun... i HAVE to stay in control of things... to have a hand in keeping options open.
thats the AE in me... i cant help it.
Monday, February 5
days of passion
was a bit frustrated today. guess thats comes with realizing that what you're doing isnt exactly what you're most passionate about.
so talking about passions.. my passions in life... a list comes to mind. to share a few things:
dancing. i know im not skilled enough to be a professional, but i think i would be most happy if i would be given the opportunity to pusue this... and succeed. wishful thinking.
theater. lea salonga breaks my heart. i absolutely envy her. her talent is just ... WOW. the control she has over her voice... the emotions she can inject into her performances, ay grabe. i gave up theater in highschool... i left it there. but i had fun. the performer in me had a great time.
i know ive talked previously about the rush of performing... of seeing people smile and enjoy your performance.. of just being able to have a potent form of expression! i miss that kind of release... god, i really need an outlet. haha.
on a lighter note... i still love john prats. totally unrelated to passion, but i just have to put this in. i dont know what it is about him, but i cras him talaga. hahahahahaha. kadiri... di na naka-move on. i mean i find a bunch of other stars cute/hot or whatever, but i cant seem to get over him. haha.
also, im seriously thinking of studying... secret muna kung ano aaralin ko. basta its totally unrelated to what im doing.. well, sort of related. haha. its been a funidea ive had in my head for a while. im sure i might have mentioned it in passing to some people... im not sure. baka pabiro. so ill look into that. it would have been better if i got the idea when i was a bit younger.. just to start early. but no regrets. no harm in trying. not even sure if im any good at it or hilig ko lang talaga. if not, i have myself to make use of it! hahaha!
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im babbling again.. at least i get to unload my thoughts. or else id go gaga. :p
so talking about passions.. my passions in life... a list comes to mind. to share a few things:
dancing. i know im not skilled enough to be a professional, but i think i would be most happy if i would be given the opportunity to pusue this... and succeed. wishful thinking.
theater. lea salonga breaks my heart. i absolutely envy her. her talent is just ... WOW. the control she has over her voice... the emotions she can inject into her performances, ay grabe. i gave up theater in highschool... i left it there. but i had fun. the performer in me had a great time.
i know ive talked previously about the rush of performing... of seeing people smile and enjoy your performance.. of just being able to have a potent form of expression! i miss that kind of release... god, i really need an outlet. haha.
on a lighter note... i still love john prats. totally unrelated to passion, but i just have to put this in. i dont know what it is about him, but i cras him talaga. hahahahahaha. kadiri... di na naka-move on. i mean i find a bunch of other stars cute/hot or whatever, but i cant seem to get over him. haha.
also, im seriously thinking of studying... secret muna kung ano aaralin ko. basta its totally unrelated to what im doing.. well, sort of related. haha. its been a funidea ive had in my head for a while. im sure i might have mentioned it in passing to some people... im not sure. baka pabiro. so ill look into that. it would have been better if i got the idea when i was a bit younger.. just to start early. but no regrets. no harm in trying. not even sure if im any good at it or hilig ko lang talaga. if not, i have myself to make use of it! hahaha!
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im babbling again.. at least i get to unload my thoughts. or else id go gaga. :p
Saturday, February 3
drip
Kapanahunan na naman
Ng paglalambingan
At kasama kitang mamasyal
Sa kung saan
Kabilugan ng buwan
At ang hangin ay may kalamigan
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Pagmamahalan lang naman
Ang mararanasan
Sa sariling mundo tayo lang
Ang may alam
Kabilugan ng buwan
At ang hangin ay may kalamigan
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Halina’t pakinggan
Ang awit na dala ng pag-ibig
Masaya ang mundo pag kapiling
Kitang ganito
Huwag kang hihiwalay at ang
Puso ko ay maligaya
Lapit na, oh lapit pa
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Sa buong magdamag
Sa buong magdamag
its been lovely and cold the past few days.. lovely if you're not freezing your ass off at the office. haha. but ive been taking leisurely walks at night... so far, last night was the most enjoyable. cool breeze, full moon, no stray dogs, tummy full of ineng's bbq... great, great, GREAT!
perfect way to end a not-so-perfect week.
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change of plans... wasnt your fault you were late. i didnt mind.
funny movie.. but the popcorn shower was more funny... i didnt tell you but i thought that would happen too. hahaha!
i still bet you opened that pack of spoons you were supposed to return. haha!
really enjoyed walking with you. mas relaxed. at least we got to spend more time togather without people here sa house snooping around. :p
sabi mo you havent seen me in a while... sinabi mo pa! ewan ko ba naman sayo bakit di ka nagpapakita. hahaha!
Ng paglalambingan
At kasama kitang mamasyal
Sa kung saan
Kabilugan ng buwan
At ang hangin ay may kalamigan
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Pagmamahalan lang naman
Ang mararanasan
Sa sariling mundo tayo lang
Ang may alam
Kabilugan ng buwan
At ang hangin ay may kalamigan
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Halina’t pakinggan
Ang awit na dala ng pag-ibig
Masaya ang mundo pag kapiling
Kitang ganito
Huwag kang hihiwalay at ang
Puso ko ay maligaya
Lapit na, oh lapit pa
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Sa buong magdamag
Sa buong magdamag
its been lovely and cold the past few days.. lovely if you're not freezing your ass off at the office. haha. but ive been taking leisurely walks at night... so far, last night was the most enjoyable. cool breeze, full moon, no stray dogs, tummy full of ineng's bbq... great, great, GREAT!
perfect way to end a not-so-perfect week.
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change of plans... wasnt your fault you were late. i didnt mind.
funny movie.. but the popcorn shower was more funny... i didnt tell you but i thought that would happen too. hahaha!
i still bet you opened that pack of spoons you were supposed to return. haha!
really enjoyed walking with you. mas relaxed. at least we got to spend more time togather without people here sa house snooping around. :p
sabi mo you havent seen me in a while... sinabi mo pa! ewan ko ba naman sayo bakit di ka nagpapakita. hahaha!
Thursday, February 1
trip
pau isnt the only one who gets to go on a trip.. thanks to lily, i think i may get a chance to breathe non-manila air for a day. im hoping its going to be just a day trip... so i get to sleep and be catatonic the next day. haha.
im sure im going to be looking up a lot and its definitely going to be a colorful day. looking forward to it already... im making sure my memory stick is empty and ready. weeee!
thanks lils... love you! sana matuloy for sure! (and sana we get to ride one... that would really make my day.)
im sure im going to be looking up a lot and its definitely going to be a colorful day. looking forward to it already... im making sure my memory stick is empty and ready. weeee!
thanks lils... love you! sana matuloy for sure! (and sana we get to ride one... that would really make my day.)
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