vins' bright idea

i have no idea what gave him the bright idea to stick his pokemon on himself... but it sure entertained us for quite a while. hahahaha. crazy boy... and look, nauto pa pati ninang nya! hahahaha.

back in the day

looking back at old photos sure has made me feel stupid. i remember thinking i was fat back in college... if i could go back in time, it slap myself. haha. i wasnt fat. i was flat, but not fat. even with the ass and hips.

sigh.

weird dreams

i couldnt remember everthing, but here are some elements from dreams i had last week:

1. i had measles (again)
To dream that you have measles, signifies much worry and anxiety in your life that will interfere with your job or schooling.
To see others with measles in your dream, denotes that the troubling situation and condition of others will give you much worry.

2. i was given several injections
To dream that you are being injected for health reasons, suggests your need for healing behavior/ideas/attitudes. You need to develop yourself on a mental and spiritual level.

To see a syringe in your dream, signifies that you need to inject more enthusiasm, fun, or determination into your life. Consider also the contents of the syringe and how it would effect you.

From a Freudian perspective, the needle and its contents represents the penis and intercourse.

3. spiders
To see a spider in your dream, indicates that you are feeling like an outsider in some situation. Or that you may want to keep your distance and stay away from an alluring and tempting situation. The spider is also symbolic of feminine power. Alternatively, a spider may refer to a powerful force protecting you against your self-destructive behavior. If you kill a spider, it symbolizes misfortune and general bad luck.

I think im watching too much grey's anatomy.. but it calms me. so im not stopping. until i finish the season. hahaha. then i can move on to heroes.

(interpretations care of dreammoods.com)

bakit ang bigat?

i used to find such joy in just being here. sure, it was mostly because of the friends i made, but the general feeling of sitting at the table never felt this "heavy".

feeling old at 25

i feel old today. not only do i feel old, i LOOK old too.

we were looking at mac make-up here at the office, when i happened to look at my face in this mirror... and i was alarmed to see wrinkles under my eyes. sadness. not only to i have dark circles there, i have wrinkles too!

makes me think of this line in one of our old stresstabs commercials... mukha pa ba akong 25?!

it will have to wait...

i set my eyes out for a vacation in july. but it seems it will have to wait... for several reasons.

its still early to know for sure, but right now it seems that ill have to wait for another opportunity to go. maybe there's a very pleasant surprise at the end of this all.

what a week: hard labor and bora regrets

HARD LABOR

this week went by so fast, im still in shock. im happy though that i can cross out a bunch of my projects in my to-do list.. but waking up this morning and realizing how much pain im in, wasnt a good way to wake up. haha.

monday, i went to pick up my parents at the airport... im so happy theyre home! although i wont actually get to spend time with them for the next days, knowing they're home leaves a warm feeling.

tuesday, up by 5am to get ready for pick-up at 6am. whole day shoot which ended around 9pm. home by 1030-ish, slept at 2am-ish. (ill post about the shoots some other time...)

wednesday, half asleep for most of it. started with an 830am instant print shoot to which i was late because of damn sucat traffic. i was thinking i could go home after the afternoon print shoot but ended up leaving the office at 9pm... had to release a whole bunch of files pa pala AFTER yet another instant client presentation (snaps to my creatives for the instant boards!).

thursday, running low on energy from the beating my body took the days before. spent the day at the office. my boss got rushed to the hospital though... i hope she and the baby will be okay.

friday, up at 4am (no exag) for 5am pick up. location shoot was tough because it was hot, and we were moving around so much. but i still had fun. finished late. couldnt go to karla's despedida party anymore because i was literally drained. i was out cold almost as soon as my head hit the bed. hahaha.

today, i head to pasig to keep shoti company while the rest of the family is in HK. wawa naman sevi... dont worry, ninang will bring you to disney when you're a little bigger. :p

BORA REGRETS

i havent had much time, energy and focus to do some serious life thinking... and im in search of a good retreat i can go to, so i can have thinking time. miah mentioned there was one this weekend in boracay for a really reasonable cost. i had to decline because i wasnt sure i agreed with the organizing group's views on some points in religion. i didnt want to go and confuse or frustrate myself. and a very minor reason is i wouldnt want to be in boracay and be stuck in a session hall for 3 days... thats torture!

on my way home last night, i gave her a call to ask her about her final plans on it. it turns out, theyre staying at boracay tropics and the sessions are only in the morning and in the evening!!! sayang!!!!!!! i could have gotten a retreat AND a vacation... IN BORACAY. o well... nasa huli ang pagsisisi.

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i really didnt want to write about this, but this morning i realize it might be a good thing to do.

late late last year, i met someone and although the manner by which we met was less than ideal for me, i found myself being open to things. and the next two months was spent talking non-stop and visits before and after work (before his, which was after mine... then after his, which was before mine. hahaha.) things we're going well, actually. we talked about a whole range of things.. from mundane to serious topics and never did i feel uncomfortable with it.

long story short, all that time, i kept telling myself to keep im mind he was just being friendly. but i still cant blame myself if at a time i did think something was there. i mean, i dont think i was being assuming given we just met and yet he can have dinner with me and my mom, and stuff. after a few months (and by few, i mean 2), suddenly wala na. hahaha. just like that. no nothing. weird. if i was confused by the "game" before meeting him, i was REALLY confused.

does it really have to be a game? im sure there's a simpler way of going about this whole relationships thing. i was thinking maybe the game just evolved because people got hurt by other people and the game became a defense mechanism, or a test to weed out possible 'hurt-ers'. if that's the case, then its ironic that even more people are hurt by the game.

personally, i dont get the point of the game. haha. i dont know how to play it. and im not sure if i want to learn to.

what a week ahead...

woke up this morning and realized how fast this week is going to be.

Monday - i have the whole morning to do my stuff because i have a 3pm all the way down south. then its time to pick up my parents at the airport!

Tuesday - whole day shoot. enchanted kingdom, here i come!

Wednesday - shoot again... but only in the afternoon.

Thursday - afternoon contract signing

Friday - whole day shoot (again)

then its weekend again!!!! weeeee!!!

i really, really, REALLY hope it doest rain this week... especially on my shoot days.