all in all i think it was a good week for me. its been tough, but i woke up today feeling proud that i've gone through it and i've proven to myself that i can. ive give this week more than my all and i dont think anyone can say that things didnt get done because ive slacked off - things didnt get done because its jut not humanly possible for me to do them all! :p
i had a catch up with S today and i told her there are two simple things i want to be able to accomplish when it come so work: one, to do a good job... and two, be good at my job. i really believe that people who get to do the things they love for a living are blessed and that not everyone will get to do that. for me, my job doesnt define me anymore and i dont live to work, BUT i still care enough about what i do that i want to be good at it.
i miss waking up knowing im great at what i do and thats what im working towards. :)
Saturday, July 31
Wednesday, July 28
day 3 - draw
i've realised today that my main problem with this week isn't that i don't know what im doing - its just the volume of work that i need to get through. all the stuff that i don't know (yet) i have someone around to help me with that and it's starting to frustrate me that i'm not able to spend more time on those things and learn from the more experienced people helping me with them. OI!
as you know, i've been staying back after office hours to "get ahead" for the next day. i dont mind investing my time this way if it starts to mean that i can spend more time learning new things BUT i don't intend to make a habit out of it. oh no. i've been there, i've done that. no sir.
today though, is a slightly different story. im staying back to get through just the things for today! OI! good thing is nothing is out of control and im not insanely behind on things - im keeping up fairly well considering everything that needs to be done versus just one me.
augh! i cant even finish writing this... too hungry. blech.
thats it. im going home! :p
as you know, i've been staying back after office hours to "get ahead" for the next day. i dont mind investing my time this way if it starts to mean that i can spend more time learning new things BUT i don't intend to make a habit out of it. oh no. i've been there, i've done that. no sir.
today though, is a slightly different story. im staying back to get through just the things for today! OI! good thing is nothing is out of control and im not insanely behind on things - im keeping up fairly well considering everything that needs to be done versus just one me.
augh! i cant even finish writing this... too hungry. blech.
thats it. im going home! :p
Tuesday, July 27
still standing
brutal 2 days so far... 3 more to go this week and ill be darned if i don't get through it in one piece! I WILL WIN OVER ALL THE WORKLOAD.
perseverance is the key. i may be nervous. i may be tired. i may be in a bit of a panic state. but i just have to keep moving and keep going. i call on dory's wise words - JUST KEEP SWIMMING.
i really really want to be able to learn as much as i can from all the great projects that have come in. its a shame that they've all flooded in almost at the same time, but i guess that adds to the lessons to be learned.
i feel like im in a boxing fight and so far, id like to think ive taken heavy blows but im still ahead at the end of each round. :p
on a side note (more like an extended rant) this morning was a fiasco though. trains were delayed because of some power outtake, i think. and i was collateral damage. i had a 10am meeting and i called for a cab (which are fairly reliable here) and 40 minutes later, NO CAB. B and i literally called 4x for a cab and NONE came. why? coz everyone who couldnt get on a train most likely were getting cabs to work or wherever they needed to go. long story short, i had to tram it to the city to my meeting and ended up there 30 minutes late. HOW EMBARRASSING. my client was uber nice and understanding though, but still.
anyway, enough of that, tomorrow is a new day... got to hold onto my "winning streak"!
sleep tight everyone. xx
perseverance is the key. i may be nervous. i may be tired. i may be in a bit of a panic state. but i just have to keep moving and keep going. i call on dory's wise words - JUST KEEP SWIMMING.
i really really want to be able to learn as much as i can from all the great projects that have come in. its a shame that they've all flooded in almost at the same time, but i guess that adds to the lessons to be learned.
i feel like im in a boxing fight and so far, id like to think ive taken heavy blows but im still ahead at the end of each round. :p
on a side note (more like an extended rant) this morning was a fiasco though. trains were delayed because of some power outtake, i think. and i was collateral damage. i had a 10am meeting and i called for a cab (which are fairly reliable here) and 40 minutes later, NO CAB. B and i literally called 4x for a cab and NONE came. why? coz everyone who couldnt get on a train most likely were getting cabs to work or wherever they needed to go. long story short, i had to tram it to the city to my meeting and ended up there 30 minutes late. HOW EMBARRASSING. my client was uber nice and understanding though, but still.
anyway, enough of that, tomorrow is a new day... got to hold onto my "winning streak"!
sleep tight everyone. xx
Monday, July 26
manic monday
i KNEW today was going to be crazy. what i didnt know was that it wasnt going to be crazy all day - thank God for that!
manic manic morning, but despite my frazzled state, i think it went well. a lot of stuff got done in the studio, which is great. i just need to be able to keep up with all the admin and project management stuff attached to it. which explains why im still at my desk at 8:01pm.
i seem to get heaps more done in a silent office. by no means do i intend to make a habit of this, but if it means staying afloat the next day, its a small sacrifice that im happy to make. let's think of it as an investment towards my sanity.
tomorrow is a new day and im a day closer to the weekend - YAY!
alright, time to head home and rest.
PS. adobo and sinigang were big hits at dinner last night. :D it was a culinary night with teaching C how to cook them and watching the grand finale of Master Chef.
manic manic morning, but despite my frazzled state, i think it went well. a lot of stuff got done in the studio, which is great. i just need to be able to keep up with all the admin and project management stuff attached to it. which explains why im still at my desk at 8:01pm.
i seem to get heaps more done in a silent office. by no means do i intend to make a habit of this, but if it means staying afloat the next day, its a small sacrifice that im happy to make. let's think of it as an investment towards my sanity.
tomorrow is a new day and im a day closer to the weekend - YAY!
alright, time to head home and rest.
PS. adobo and sinigang were big hits at dinner last night. :D it was a culinary night with teaching C how to cook them and watching the grand finale of Master Chef.
Sunday, July 25
cooking day
heading to C's to teach her how to cook sinigang and adobo. STOKED! nakaktaba talaga ng puso to see how much she likes pinoy food - such a sweetie. pinoy na pinoy kumain - madaming kanin, sauce lang ng adobo ulam na, tapos yung sinigang iniinom na from the bowl. classic.
yesterday's trip to victoria street in north richmond was a treat too. took my time going through the stuff in the stores there and it was worth it. now i know where to get some of the (familiar) ingredients for more meals from home. i was never happier to find tilapia and kangkong in my life!
on my way home, i was scrambling to be able to write all the food i can now cook. i never realized how much i miss filipino food - now i dont have to as much anymore.
so off i go to C's... i still have dishes to wash before i pack and head into the shower.
will take photos and post them as soon as i have a 15min gap from work. :p
happy eating everyone!!!
yesterday's trip to victoria street in north richmond was a treat too. took my time going through the stuff in the stores there and it was worth it. now i know where to get some of the (familiar) ingredients for more meals from home. i was never happier to find tilapia and kangkong in my life!
on my way home, i was scrambling to be able to write all the food i can now cook. i never realized how much i miss filipino food - now i dont have to as much anymore.
so off i go to C's... i still have dishes to wash before i pack and head into the shower.
will take photos and post them as soon as i have a 15min gap from work. :p
happy eating everyone!!!
9 months later
i can't believe its been 9 months since my last post! actually, i can. i've just been 'busy' with everything else thats been going on with me. in hind sight i should have written every time i felt good, bad, sad, happy, helpless, empowered, confused, etc.
well, no one said i can't start writing now!
9 months ago, i had to face jp's 40th day alone - the first of many jp-related occasions to come. a week ago, i had to face his birthday - i wasn't alone this time. looking back at october 2009, things aren't as crippling-ly painful anymore. its still painful, take my word for it.. and i still do get very very angry about things, but its good that i've learned ways to deal with it.
so all i really just wanted to say is i should start writing again more often. if only to unload. i dont even know if people still read this page or not - doesn't matter, i just need to be able to unload my thoughts so i don't get bogged down by them.
PS its funny that if i was pregnant back then, id be getting ready to pop any day now... 9 months!
well, no one said i can't start writing now!
9 months ago, i had to face jp's 40th day alone - the first of many jp-related occasions to come. a week ago, i had to face his birthday - i wasn't alone this time. looking back at october 2009, things aren't as crippling-ly painful anymore. its still painful, take my word for it.. and i still do get very very angry about things, but its good that i've learned ways to deal with it.
so all i really just wanted to say is i should start writing again more often. if only to unload. i dont even know if people still read this page or not - doesn't matter, i just need to be able to unload my thoughts so i don't get bogged down by them.
PS its funny that if i was pregnant back then, id be getting ready to pop any day now... 9 months!
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