funny how earlier i was talking about what makes me happy these days, and now i find myself feeling the exact opposite.
things are about to get nasty. REALLY NASTY. and they say im a good AE.
what makes a good AE?
its not her juggling skills, nor her ability to keep a pleasant face... its her support groups. they are the ones making things happen for the so-called "great AE". without good support groups, she is nothing. if you go straight to the bone of the matter, the solutions dont come from the AE, they come from elsewhere... she is merely there to store knowledge from past experiences... to "parrot" options to whoever is concerned when push comes to shove... it doesnt take any special person to be a good AE. the truth is, a "good AE" is a myth... a ploy to motivate and encourage.
there is no "good AE".. only good support groups.
Friday, February 24
anong meron ang taong happy?
what makes me feel happy and accomplished these days?
- leaving the office on time
- being able to 'pagpag' (watch movie, have dinner with friends, go to the salon, shop a bit, walk around)
- although sometimes going straight home isnt as bad too!
- be home in time to catch my local tv shows (my bonding time with my mom)
my 'happy pills' have really changed. nakakatuwa.
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- leaving the office on time
- being able to 'pagpag' (watch movie, have dinner with friends, go to the salon, shop a bit, walk around)
- although sometimes going straight home isnt as bad too!
- be home in time to catch my local tv shows (my bonding time with my mom)
my 'happy pills' have really changed. nakakatuwa.
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Monday, February 20
"these are a few of my favorite sins..."
GLUTTONY
saturday was a gastronomic day. its not the quantity of food we ate, but more on the quality of food. too much good food for one day. had breakfast at UCC, ate Theobroma ice cream, and Prince of Jaipur lunch. Ordinary meals if you think about it, but they were just so yummy!!!! so damn yummy. by the end of the day, i was walking like a drunkard, bumping into mel going up the stairs, losing my balance every 5 steps. what a day. what a happy happy happy day.
SLOTH
sunday was a day spent in bed... literally. i got out of bed only for a few things: meals, to get munchies, go to the bathroom, and go to mass. otherwise, i was in bed watching TV. i DID walk to church though.. so i wasnt as tamad as i could be.
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when pasts come a-haunting.
1. THE EX.
two weeks ago, i got relieved to get a nasty text message from my ex saying he will never talk to me ever again. kasi daw ive changed, mabilis ko na daw sya pinalitan, and all that sappy dramatic almost telenovela script type crap. (ey, if you think im sappy, let me introduce you to my ex. haha.) i was relieved because i really had no urge to attend to his issues in life. as in i just wanted him to leave me alone. for the first time, i really really wanted to forget this person and not even be friends with him. whats tha point kasi. to him, as long as we're friends, may pag-asa pang magkabalikan... NOT!
anyway, saturday he texts me again. and i ignore to death. come night time, he calls (not ring in the hope i return his 'ring'.... CALLS until the voice recording says 'the subscriber choochoo...) anyway, he calls non-stop. and i continue to ignore. he send me this sappy message again and big mistake, i texted him to call again. so he did and i gave this big fat lie of being sick so he'd stop calling and i could get some sleep. which i did.. thank God.
the next morning, i pay for my response... he texts and texts and texts and texts and calls and calls and calls and calls... asking if im okay, why i got sick, i should take care of myself daw, get some rest, drink medicines, call in sick today, etc. kainis. so i deadma.
then he drops the bomb. texts me asking that i tell him outright if there's no chance of being to gether again... na he came here to manila hoping we could see each other and ask me back. HELLO!!!! one year na kami break no. so i gave my straightforward and honest response. i wont go into details of that anymore... but we texted a bit more just so i could somewhat steer him in the right direction of FINALLY getting over me.
hopefully this is the end of this. im tired of feeling the guilt i feel whenever he reminds me that I left him.. I broke up with him, I didnt give him another chance, I "gave up". enough is enough. hopefully he'll be able to move on na talaga.
2. THE FIRST CRUSH
my first crush was my neighbor... we never became anything more than friends... funny funny memories. my best friend's ex is his neighbor and cousin (i think). he was my escort when my friends FORCED me to join the village Santacruzan because their moms wouldnt allow them without me. (quick background: at that time yung mga boyfriend nila at yung crush ko, iisang barkada.. and we all lived on the same street.). he was my prom date. he was my first kiss (stop cringing! its true and i cant do anything to change it).
anyway, the story is.. i just find it funny he's 'around' again. haha. that's all im going to say for now. haha.
new photos at my multiply site!
saturday was a gastronomic day. its not the quantity of food we ate, but more on the quality of food. too much good food for one day. had breakfast at UCC, ate Theobroma ice cream, and Prince of Jaipur lunch. Ordinary meals if you think about it, but they were just so yummy!!!! so damn yummy. by the end of the day, i was walking like a drunkard, bumping into mel going up the stairs, losing my balance every 5 steps. what a day. what a happy happy happy day.
SLOTH
sunday was a day spent in bed... literally. i got out of bed only for a few things: meals, to get munchies, go to the bathroom, and go to mass. otherwise, i was in bed watching TV. i DID walk to church though.. so i wasnt as tamad as i could be.
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when pasts come a-haunting.
1. THE EX.
two weeks ago, i got relieved to get a nasty text message from my ex saying he will never talk to me ever again. kasi daw ive changed, mabilis ko na daw sya pinalitan, and all that sappy dramatic almost telenovela script type crap. (ey, if you think im sappy, let me introduce you to my ex. haha.) i was relieved because i really had no urge to attend to his issues in life. as in i just wanted him to leave me alone. for the first time, i really really wanted to forget this person and not even be friends with him. whats tha point kasi. to him, as long as we're friends, may pag-asa pang magkabalikan... NOT!
anyway, saturday he texts me again. and i ignore to death. come night time, he calls (not ring in the hope i return his 'ring'.... CALLS until the voice recording says 'the subscriber choochoo...) anyway, he calls non-stop. and i continue to ignore. he send me this sappy message again and big mistake, i texted him to call again. so he did and i gave this big fat lie of being sick so he'd stop calling and i could get some sleep. which i did.. thank God.
the next morning, i pay for my response... he texts and texts and texts and texts and calls and calls and calls and calls... asking if im okay, why i got sick, i should take care of myself daw, get some rest, drink medicines, call in sick today, etc. kainis. so i deadma.
then he drops the bomb. texts me asking that i tell him outright if there's no chance of being to gether again... na he came here to manila hoping we could see each other and ask me back. HELLO!!!! one year na kami break no. so i gave my straightforward and honest response. i wont go into details of that anymore... but we texted a bit more just so i could somewhat steer him in the right direction of FINALLY getting over me.
hopefully this is the end of this. im tired of feeling the guilt i feel whenever he reminds me that I left him.. I broke up with him, I didnt give him another chance, I "gave up". enough is enough. hopefully he'll be able to move on na talaga.
2. THE FIRST CRUSH
my first crush was my neighbor... we never became anything more than friends... funny funny memories. my best friend's ex is his neighbor and cousin (i think). he was my escort when my friends FORCED me to join the village Santacruzan because their moms wouldnt allow them without me. (quick background: at that time yung mga boyfriend nila at yung crush ko, iisang barkada.. and we all lived on the same street.). he was my prom date. he was my first kiss (stop cringing! its true and i cant do anything to change it).
anyway, the story is.. i just find it funny he's 'around' again. haha. that's all im going to say for now. haha.
new photos at my multiply site!
Thursday, February 16
My Johari's Window
Someone sent this to me over YM... its supposed to help me get to know myself better. Hmm....
Arena(known to self and others) caring, complex, friendly, loving, sentimental | Blind Spot(known only to others) able, cheerful, confident, dependable, energetic, extroverted, giving, helpful, independent, intelligent, kind, knowledgable, mature, organised, relaxed, responsive, self-assertive, sensible, silly, spontaneous, sympathetic, trustworthy, warm, witty |
Façade(known only to self) self-conscious | Unknown(known to nobody) accepting, adaptable, bold, brave, calm, clever, dignified, happy, idealistic, ingenious, introverted, logical, modest, nervous, observant, patient, powerful, proud, quiet, reflective, religious, searching, shy, tense, wise |
All Percentages
able (9%) accepting (0%) adaptable (0%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (0%) caring (27%) cheerful (27%) clever (0%) complex (27%) confident (27%) dependable (18%) dignified (0%) energetic (9%) extroverted (27%) friendly (27%) giving (18%) happy (0%) helpful (27%) idealistic (0%) independent (27%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (18%) introverted (0%) kind (18%) knowledgable (9%) logical (0%) loving (27%) mature (9%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (18%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (9%) religious (0%) responsive (18%) searching (0%) self-assertive (9%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (9%) sentimental (36%) shy (0%) silly (9%) spontaneous (18%) sympathetic (9%) tense (0%) trustworthy (36%) warm (9%) wise (0%) witty (18%)
Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 16.2.2006, using data from 11 respondents.
You can make your own Johari Window, or view Angel Tanchoco's full data.
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Sunday, February 5
im still alive
magpaparamdam lang ako since now is the only time i have to sit and do something for myself since my fieldwork started last feb 1.
ive been to the ins and outs of guadalupe and maybunga area in pasig.. now im here in cebu. ive been around.. and by 'around' i mean sinuyod na namin lahat ng kalye sa area namin. mainit, nakakapagod at nakakaloka. nagtatawanan na lang kami para di kami maawa sa sarili namin. ang hirap pala nito! tomorrow i fly to davao... after that, i take the weekend off then its probably dagupan next. hehe.
im taking this time to TRY and reflect on some things.. i tried writing some thoughts on some stuff last thursday but i havent gotten around to finishing it.. ill post it here when im done.. and if i think its share-able.
anyhoo, nagaparamdam lang ako... buhay pa po ako. kahit na in a day average of 5 times ako in almost-car crashes. its funny. the first one is the funniest... from the airport, we took a cab and i sat in front (kasi ayaw ko katabi client ko sa likod)... dude! the driver was freaking snoring while driving! nabibitawan na nya manibela and minsan yung kambyo! promise minsan ang bilis namin tas biglang mag swerve kasi mabibitawan nya. tas ang baho pa ng breath nya. exag.. smells something like someones breath pag nalasing at nakasuka na. ew. ew. ew. so anyway, we made an emergency stop ar SM cebu to change cabs... kaloka.
ill try to be back real soon... ill write tons of stuff about my trip. hahaha.
i miss you guys. text nyo naman ako once in a while... hindi naman bawal... i encourage you actually... hahaha.
ive been to the ins and outs of guadalupe and maybunga area in pasig.. now im here in cebu. ive been around.. and by 'around' i mean sinuyod na namin lahat ng kalye sa area namin. mainit, nakakapagod at nakakaloka. nagtatawanan na lang kami para di kami maawa sa sarili namin. ang hirap pala nito! tomorrow i fly to davao... after that, i take the weekend off then its probably dagupan next. hehe.
im taking this time to TRY and reflect on some things.. i tried writing some thoughts on some stuff last thursday but i havent gotten around to finishing it.. ill post it here when im done.. and if i think its share-able.
anyhoo, nagaparamdam lang ako... buhay pa po ako. kahit na in a day average of 5 times ako in almost-car crashes. its funny. the first one is the funniest... from the airport, we took a cab and i sat in front (kasi ayaw ko katabi client ko sa likod)... dude! the driver was freaking snoring while driving! nabibitawan na nya manibela and minsan yung kambyo! promise minsan ang bilis namin tas biglang mag swerve kasi mabibitawan nya. tas ang baho pa ng breath nya. exag.. smells something like someones breath pag nalasing at nakasuka na. ew. ew. ew. so anyway, we made an emergency stop ar SM cebu to change cabs... kaloka.
ill try to be back real soon... ill write tons of stuff about my trip. hahaha.
i miss you guys. text nyo naman ako once in a while... hindi naman bawal... i encourage you actually... hahaha.
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