HK headache

hongkong weekend was good... wasnt as good as the last time i was there, but it had its highlights. im left with a pounding headache now... lack of sleep i assume... :p

corner teahouse: no HK trip will ever be complete without at least a meal here. i tried the milk tea this time and i loved it... no offense to Chowking, but their nai cha is nothing near the one in that tea house. this year, my dinner here was the best one i had... in fact, mc donald's was the next most decent meal i had.

muji: i passed out on buying stuff here last time i was in HK... this year, i bought some pero kulang pa rin! take me back to muji!

disney: aka "the happiest place on earth".. at least i can say ive been to one. space mountain was a blast... especially with anton shouting "ayoko naaaaa" beside me... cant wait to go to the better ones... the one in HK was small daw. but still i felt like i was going to cry... disney is disney! next time talaga aabutan ko na fireworks.

royce: my current indulgence... these are to die for... best tasting chocolates ive had so far. can wait to have my single piece tonight! im definitely being selfish about this... hahaha.

photos: not to be cheesy.. alright, i will. i dont think i would have as much fun moments in HK if not for the people i was with. awww...! even shenzhen was a bit bearable because of you guys... even if i was being a total bitch and brat. haha. bili tayo ng maraming platooooooooooo!

photos on my multiply account!

im so looking forward to our next trip... hahaha. travel whore.

up and down the hill

the past few weeks at work have really been a burden for me. and it seems my friday to sunday was a clear signal of it.

FRIDAY - enraged, not engaged
ive never felt more violent in my life before this day. i was really on a war freak mode... from that mark tan guy, to stupid talent agents, to nagging clients. i literally wanted to break someone's face. needless to say, i was looking forward to going home so my weekend can finally begin.

walking home from greenbelt 1 (i bought mrs fields as pasalubong for sam), i passed through segafredo and saw my college girl friends. long and politically correct story short, i stayed with them up to 11-ish. i have to be honest and say i felt bad the first few minutes since i really was looking forward to going home and hiding under my blanket. but the night turned out quite a blessing. i was half awake for most of it, but i went home resolved ill see these girls more often... im not saying ill be available each and everytime, but just more often. :p

SATURDAY - sick to the stomach
i dont want to go into the loser details. but my dearest friends would know how sorry this day was for me. for my other dearest friends who dont know the whole story yet, i probably havent seen you yet to ba able to tell you about it.

just some highlights:
1. when someone says someone is from a certain place, it may mean that he just lives there and he's actually from some other country. always ask.
2. i can say that based on first hand experience, Orkies (i dare not put the real nationality here so i dont end up offending anyone.. im not racist) are potentially obnoxious weirdos.
3. i feel so stupid for being tricked into a blind date... and offended for being set up with HIM. chances of me letting this happen again is close to none.
4. the silver lining was supposed to be meeting 'real' guys by the end of the day... BUT as my sorry fate has it for that day, i ended it feeling suddenly sick to my stomach, cold sweat, dizzy spell, and throwing up in my driveway (at 6pm)
5. pat saved my ass twice that day. thank you. i hope you get his number... ive asked for help from cha.

SUNDAY - invalid
spent today in bed. couldnt eat anything other than home made lugaw or rice swimming in sabaw.

random and ironic

Weird things have been happening… some funny, some not so…

Quick list:

1. New Zealand - I've totally forgotten that mom mentioned about a nephew of one of her kumare's being here for vacation. They were supposed to introduce me to him so he can have pinoy friends his age and in case he comes back he has people to take him around. So today, while i was in the middle of being shocked by the chaos that was unraveling before me, i got this really odd text message from my mom that equaled a punch line in one of those toilet humor pinoy comedy movies. Here’s her text: "Tere, kelan ba nandyan si angel, kasi aalis na si Cris sa sunday. pwede ba mag-meet sila, kasama tayo, then alis kahit merienda or tonight. Ikaw bahala. Meet lang naman. --- Angel, text from tita Cecille. Guy from New Zealand. Pwede ka tomorrow merienda kasi eviction night tom." there are sooo many things that make me laugh about that text. One, sasama pa talaga sila ni tita cecille... CHAPERONE?!?! Two, my mom has so much concern for missing the PBB teen edition eviction night, more than if she thinks ill be comfortable with this whole shenanigan. Three, the whole thing is funny... it just is.

So when my mom called, I wasn’t really listening to what she was saying… so I could go back to work, I just said yes to get it over and done with. So that’s that. Tomorrow, I will gain a new friend.

2. Contact lens – im due for an eye check up soon. My vision is blurry from all the computer work I've been doing so I've been wearing my glasses. I got a message from my client that was so out of this world; I had to read it over several times to be sure. Something about she noticed I was wearing glasses and that they (she and her husband who happens to be the mktg head) had extra contact lenses at home because their grade kept going up… she was thinking they could be of use to me. WHAT THE… where did that come from? Gosh. Possibly THE weirdest message I’ve gotten in my life.

3. Ad agency caller – for some (also) unknown reason, I’ve been getting calls from people who say that they were referred to call me by the company I service about things that I have no knowledge of. Funniest one I’ve had was from this girl (totally regret not writing down her company name) asking for the details of the marketing head of my client because they wanted to offer their services to them. I was thinking that they might be a promo agency or something like that so I asked to be sure. GOLLY. I was so not prepared for the answer I got. Apparently, she’s from a creative agency… exactly like the office I work for. It was so ironic that I couldn’t help but tell her that unless I wanted to lose my job, I don’t think I should give her any of the information she’s asking for because we’re the creative agency servicing the account. Out of this world!

4. Standard chartered – im on the hunt for this guy named MARK TAN… he’s an agent from standard chartered. If ever you get a call from him… please get his contact information for me. Im willing to pay for the info.

This guy dooped me into sending my ID to him to prove that he was able to contact me for the delivery of my gold card that is with him (he claimed that he’s from the releasing department). Since the card was ready and available, I agreed to have it delivered and intended to cancel it as soon as I got it. Shocking area. I got another message a few days age from standard chartered that ‘my application was denied’. RAGE. Never in my life would I apply for another card simply because im happy with the one I have right now and I already have an emergency one. Im still pretty enraged by this so I wont go through writing down the reasons why im angry. But I SWEAR ill write every damn executive in standard chartered and I WILL get his ass fired.

5. GraBe – some coincidences are freaky but I can’t help but smile about them either. With all the crap happening, these things are well appreciated. Some people have perfect timing. Its like they KNOW when they’re being talked about or thought of. Vagueness.

shower me with some luck

I may have lost physical weight, but everything else about me seems so heavy these days. I don't know if it's because i get too affected with things, or things are really extra tough right now, or maybe both.

Im alone here in our area coz everyone is on lunch break and things are quiet... but the things i have to do keep breaking that silence... my mind is buzzing with all the things I have to do, preparations i have to make, and all that crap.

Im dumbstruck and totally caught off guard by the way things are turning out. Its like the world is conspiring against me.. Well, not "ME personally", but "me at work". I get the weirdest problems... like those that shouldn’t even be problems. Argh. Hate it. Alas, i have no choice but to keep moving (heavy head, heart and all), just to get things done and in the hopes that ill suddenly realize that all my problems have been fixed. Things are so shitty right now that i dont even have it in me to cry out of frustration as i most often would do just to release some tension. Im numb... tired, bitchy and numb. Not even the thought of the upcoming trip has any effect on me.

Is God telling me to stay? Or is He reminding me of how much i want and should go? With the amount of things im supposed to do, i dont think ill be able to make time to even make things happen for myself. Im a prisoner of my work... and i cant do anything about it. (Well, of course there's always something i can do about it, but those things aren’t always the right things to do.)

Good thing, there are still moments where i can be in a brighter mood. Small things. Maybe small reminders that things are bad but there are still other things that are still good going on with me. So if the cliché that says, "good things happen to good people" are true, does this mean im a little good? Fartness. I think to highly of myself!

here comes the rain

its raining. i havent seen the sun yet. haha. i welcome the cooler climate in contrast to the scorching heat we've been having for some time now. on the other hand, its such a hassle to move around with everything wet.. ill have to keep some of my shoes for dry-er days. :)

rainy season still reminds me of going back to school... up to now, i still feel like tomorrow its the first day of school again in spcp. im not happy about it. hahaha. nako, bata pa pala ako, angsty na. hahaha.

crash course update

my weekend was great. stark contrast to the lugmok week that was. :)

saturday was a day of pampering and errands... orf course pampering meant spending, but it was worth it.
1. drove sam to his tutor. i dont drive as slow anymore.. but then that might be because i was under pressure kasi sam woke up late.
2. had my once a month 'usual' appointment at CANS BF
3. paid my credit card. feels grat na malaki nang nabawas ko. almost there.
4. mini-grocery and vitamins shopping. haha.
5. early dinner at cibo... LOOOOVE the ensalada di mare.
6. 4 hour spa getaway! indian ayurvedic chuva... just what i needed. and thai foot massage... which i barely noticed since mel and i were chatting away. hahaha.

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i never got to finish this post. work came like this mean tsunami... literally came out of know where. a lot has happened since my pampered weekend and thought are speedracing in my head along with the things i have to do for work.

1. i need new clothes. ive always thought clothes are an investment... lalo na for a single girl like me. so i try not to be scrooge-ey about it all the time. so now that ive lost weight (snaps for me!), i was surprised to realize that 90% of my pants dont fit me anymore. panic buying last monday in Glorietta... got pissed coz i was expecting shoppig to be fun now since i assumed most clothes would fit me but when i was store hoppiong, i STILL couldnt find something that fit. haaaaaay. na-bugnot tuloy ako to the max ever. so slowly but sutrely, i will re-build my wardrobe. :p perfect excuse to shop: gain or lose weight!

2. enough with the delaying tactics. ive had this one item on my to-do list for over a year but i admit, i keep putting it off for some other day... any day than now. enough is enough. sabi nga nila: time to take the bull by its horns. i cant complain as often as i do and not do anything naman about it --- because i CAN do something about it. im nervous and excited. haha. wala pa nga e!

3. my favorite time of the day is when i know im going home. i used to be out of the house a lot... if i had it my way, id be home just to sleep. but ive learned to love being home. its become my refuge of sorts... :) looking forward to going home again later!

4. NMFEO. im reminded that some things just arent meant to be. ill admit that saddens me, but thats something beyond my control. ill still have EMs, but at least my more lucid moments have better perspective of things. ang lungkot. id like to allow myself to hope pa rin, but that only sets myself up for disappointment. i deserve better thatn to dig my own grave. haha. so.... who's next?!

5. PRESSURE! what i hate most about my job is that people seem to over expect things from AEs. excuse me. tao rin kami. we can only do so much at a time. hay. talk about feeling taken for granted. i didnt even have time to get off my seat and cry a bit for feeling bad! i couldnt waste that time..! imagine... hahaha. i think i remember at least 2 entries here where ive been ranting about the disadvantages of my job. haha. thats really not a great sign. but i do what i have to do. work is work. maiyak man ako out of frustration, as long as i keep my fingers typing, my head thinking ang my feet moving, things will eventually get done.

just some of the things i was able to take note of on my phone... ive been so busy at work that i usually get think of all the things i want to write here when im on my way home already. haha.

lugmok

its been over a week since i got back to work.. and its only now that ive really been able to write anything. the amount of things that have poured in for everyone at the office is crazy. i guess my timing for vacation was perfect afterall. more about work later... so what has changed for me since i got back?

aside from being "rested", i think i can honestly say i can think clearly now in contrast to the bleak mind i had prior to me hiatus.im a bit more sure now of where i should take my life and when to make them. for now, a lot of preparations are underway... calls here and there... getting in touch with old friends... you know, stuff. of course there are still moments where i feel confused and maybe a bit scared, but those moments dont last longer than a day.

on this particualr personal concern, i feel like im okay. i feel like ive hurdled the worst... well, at least i hope i have. it actually came as a surprise. initially i was still 'nakikiramdam' if thing have or havent changed the way i hoped they would. in the short time that ive been observing, i was slowly getting the feeling that they have changed (almost) exactly the way i wanted them to... wasnt sure i was happy about it... felt a bit strange more than anything. but i wasnt concluding anything just yet. who knows if ive only managed to supress things and eventually the shocking and almost sad truth might reveal itself. so i take it one day at a time. so far, ive had more good days than bad. good job! ive decided not to have much concsious thinking about it... i tend to over-analyze and be melodramatic when i think too much.

the past few days (maybe weeks), ive been finding it hard to fall asleep... id usually end up sleeping 2am or later than that... if not, id fall asleep but wake up every hour. so, this week has been bad. id be ultra mega groggy here at work and by some reason be wide awake as soon as i get home. bad, bad, bad. i dont think it would look right for someone who just came from a 2-week break to be sleepy everyday at work on her second week back. everyone has their own theories on why im turning into an insomniac: lack of nutrition because "i havent been eating healthy", my TV addiction, i keep thinking about 'someone', etc etc etc. whaever it is, im going to need to be energetic by next week.

vins and sam are back at the house. i just love taking care of those two.. such sweet kids... most of the time. haha. looking forward to more 'sleepovers' with them this summer. :p

now about work... where do i begin? haha. its really a bad combination for me to have SOOOOOO much stuff to do, and to lack sleep. the new things to do come as fast as when i accomplish my existing list. PLUS! despite having an OJT around to help, i cant pass on much to her... not with all the confidential and critical items on my list.

which reminds me... you know how some people are consistently 'malas' with some things? like some people seem to always lose or break things, some seem to attract the same kind of guys... i, on the other hand, seem to be 'malas' with contracts these days... one problem after another!!!! why me?! i hope this is just a coincidence or at most a temporary thing. goodness gracious.

time to take a break... i know i dont deserve a break given all the urgent things on my list, but im just too damn sleepy right now.