major recap

MAJOR RECAP!!! havent been able to write since SOOOOOO many things have been happening. (im still a bit overwhelmed.. hahaha)

most are good and happy things... but i must warn you the last item just oozes with anger.. i cant help it. f***ing asshole.

feb 22 - advil pitch
happy this went well... and even happier we got the account! whoopeeeee!

feb 24 - pearl
i remember pearl was supposed to come home fo her dad's 60th but i got caught up with stuff going on. so hearing her voice on the phone got me a bit disoriented. haha. i thought she was callign long distance from denmark... then i realized she was calling from her house across the street! so like i used to do years and years ago, i got out of bed and went straight to her house. hahahaha.

happy pearl is home, but sad that tito bo had to pass away today. i guess it should be seen as a blessing that he didnt have to suffer long. tito was the first of papa's barkada to pass away. although my only memories of him were of when i was around 9 and we'd go to hundred islands with them, i will miss him. via con dios tito bo!

feb to mar 10
spent days with pearl.. to make up for the 2 years of not seeing her. the last time she was here, we barely got to spend time together. so we were pretty much inseparable for 2 weeks. just like old times.

ATC with pearl's college friends... johnny, joey, katkat, migs, marie, ermel, and baby hagia
central and havana ktv with the d. tuazon boys...
la luz!!!!

feeling a bid sad she has to leave so soon! but ill see her again and i know we'll have as much fun again. :) i still have tonight to stay up and take thousands of photos with her. hahaha.

feb 28
gave myself the chance to try something new. and it went surprisingly well.. kahit na napigtas sandal ko as i was about to sit down. hahaha! thank God ms J and i have the same shoe size. great conversation... great to be exposed to a different group of people... and i wasnt conscious at all about being jologs or less intelligent! hahaha. will have to beg off poker night tonight... maybe next week. :)

mar 1
things have generally been great for me. but now comes the anger part.

you asshole. its sufficient to say im STILL mad at you. more because napahiya ako and my pride is badly bruised. this is EXACTLY why i dislike opening up to people who show intentions other than being just friends. because it makes me vulnerable. and i was stupid enough to give you a chance... to trust you... and give you the benefit of the doubt. even if my closest friends told me more than once that you were bad news... you're a player...

this is why my pride is hurt real bad. because I let this happen. and you took advantage. what were you thinking?! how can you go to your weekly religious meetings and spend the rest of the week taking advantage of people. HYPOCRITE!!! argh! im still really angry.

you insensitive asshole. how can you have dinner with my family and do what you do? the nerve talaga. i pray you dont get karma for the things you do. because if you do, i will not think twice about laughing. i hope you never meet the girl who will break your heart like you've broken so many girls' hearts.

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i move on.

one of the many things i realize from all of this, the world keeps on turning... regardless if im happy, sad, angry, or lonely... the world will not stop for me. i may feel like sh*t, but i just have to keep going... to keep swimming... :D