i have to write this down, or else im going to flip out. my fingers are cold.. well, so are my feet come to think of it. my heart is pounding to say the least. it feels like its beating its way out of my chest cavity. tomorrow lunch is SO DAMN FAR AWAY!
i hope things go well... that this anxiety is a sign of better things to come. please say a prayer or two for me.
i still cannot get over how moved i am by lora and larry's story. no matter how i try to put it into words, its really hard to explain how they have touched me. i dont know if its because ive grown more and more jaded and their relationship has reminded me that great things can and still do happen. in any case, it was a powerful event to witness.
everything was perfect in all its simplicity. balai taal looked so serene and cozy, larry looked excited but calm, and lora.. my goodness, lora... what can i say. she was stunning. i will have to admit that some brides dont look like themselves on their wedding day. they're beautiful, yes. but its like its some other person. lora was radiant... but you can still clearly see her quirky-ness shining through the beautiful bride that she was that day. :) naks. everything just felt familiar, cozy and sincere. there. that's the word i was looking for. SINCERE. i think every single guest really felt the essence of their relationship. and that's a rare thing to take away from attending a wedding.
anyway, im starting to sound looney. hahaha. to lora and larry, may you continue to inspire more people the way you have inspired me. :) im glad you guys have your happy ever after.
oh, and its was really great to see the girls again. kahit na for a time nagpaka-auti tayo sa table natin chatting away.. hahaha. we should get together more often.. and talk about C and her infamous glasses and neon socks again. hehehehehe.
got my all weather autosampler from lily last night and its soooooo pretty! :D
i cant wait to take it out for a spin. wuhooooo!!!
* borrowed photo from eBay
yay. my low EQ made me decide to get the autosampler through the US lomo site... deadma na difference in cost. i want to get it na now. hahaha. we're talking of a few hundred pesos difference lang naman. pwede na rin if it means ill get it the same time lily does. i might die of envy if lils gets hers first. :p
can't wait for lily to tell me it's here na. weeeeeeeeeeeeee!
konting tiis na lang...
i was researching on my demekin and stumbled on this super cute all-weather camera... and fell in love. im really not a photography (or even lomography) fan, but this little girl has been popping in and out of my head since. now i think i wont get a super sampler anymore. i think i want this one instead. (photo from www.lomography/autosampler/about/)
the hunt is on for the best deal. buti na lang talaga i will likely end up back in hongkong in the next few months. ni-research ko talaga, and apparently they manufacture it in shenzen and they have a sales office in kowloon!!! either that or i get it on ebay. :p
hmmm... i wonder if i can still say im "not a fan". hahahaha.
the last of my paul arden quotes... for now. i guess his point was really simple...
SIMPLY CHANGE YOUR LIFE
The world is what you think of it.
So think of it differently and your life will change.
--- Paul Arden
... the hardest to learn was the least complicated.
Talent helps, but it won’t take you as far as ambition.
Everybody wants to be good, but not many are as prepared to make the sacrifices it takes to be great.
Most people are looking for a solution, a way to become good. There is no instant solution, the only way to learn is through experience and mistakes.
--- Paul Arden
Im down to my last few quotes from "whatever you think, think the opposite".
NO ONE BUT NO.1
It is fashionable for so-called thinking people to try to lose their ego.
Well, they should think a bit harder. Presumably we were given egos for a reason.
Great people have great egos; maybe that’s what makes them great.
So let us put it to good use rather than try to deny it.
--- Paul Arden
people with severe control issues, or OCD are going to have a hard time with this one. haha. though my control issues aren't severe, i still find immense comfort knowing that i know what im getting myself into and im prepared for it --- plan B, C and D ready. generally speaking of course.
DO IT THEN FIX IT AS YOU GO
Too many people spend too much time trying to perfect something before they actually do it.
Instead of waiting for perfection, run with what you’ve got, and fix it as you go.
--- Paul Arden
THE CASE FOR BEING RECKLESS
When we were young we jump into the pool whether we can swim or not.
We have no fear. Either we swim or we drown.
Before we turn thirty, important things happen to us which shape the rest of our lives.
The first is:
We become aware of ourselves and our own thinking. We reach the age of reason.
The second is:
In a new-found maturity we begin to think in a more adult way.
We become grown up.
Recklessness and risk are not compatible with age.
Risk becomes something which must be carefully considered.
--- Paul Arden
food for thought for the day... seems appropriate since mel said something about wrong decisions and regret...
DECISIONS DECISIONS DECISIONS.
When you look back there will be things you will regret.
You made the wrong decision.
Wrong.
You made the right decision.
Life is about right decisions. Whatever decision you make is the only one you could make. Otherwise you would make a different one.
Everything we do, we choose. So what is there to regret?
You are the person you choose to be.
--- Paul Arden (whatever you think think the opposite)
I WISH
I wish means: wouldn’t it be nice if…
If you always make the right decision, the safe decision, the one most people make, you will be the same as everyone else.
Always wishing life was different.
I WANT
I want means: if I want it enough I will get it.
Getting what you want means making the decisions you need to make to get what you want. Not the decisions those around you think you should make.
Making the safe decision is dull, predictable and leads to nowhere new.
The unsafe decision causes you to think and respond in a way you hadn’t thought of. And that thought would lead to other thoughts which would help you achieve what you want.
Start taking bad decisions and it will take you to a place where only others dream of being.
--- Paul Arden
when i bought his books at page one in HK, i didnt realize what gems they were. so i was really pleased at how they tickle my brain when i read through them... my next few entries will probably be quotes from his books.
TRAPPED
It’s not because you’re making the wrong decisions, it’s because you are making the right ones.
We try to make sensible decisions based on the facts in front of us.
The problem with making sensible decisions is that so is everyone else.
---- Paul Arden (Whatever you Think, Think the Opposite)
i have a long list of things to do before i leave. as much as possible, i really dont want to leave much work behind coz ill tend to think about it when im on vacay. :p BUT! ive been meaning to write a few things for some time now and i dont want to forget. haha.
1. binondo food tour - lily, cha and i went on the binondo food tour weeks and weeks ago (yes, ive been puuting this off for THAT long.. lumang balita na talaga.) it was fun... and masarap to say the least. ivan was a great guide. he really knew a lot about the place and all the interesting tidbits about it. he asked us though not to blog about the actual food places we went to, but im going to say this much.. come with a really empty stomach. the food was worth the hunger and by the last food stop, di na namin kaya kumain. hahahaha. maybe next time ill go back with my mom... at least i have an idea where i can take her. yum!
2. cubao - long weekend for bataan day, but lily and i literally didnt make any attempt to make plans to go out of town. el cheapos kami to raise our pocket money for the trip. hahaha. but i had a short list of things i needed for HK anyway. number one of which is walking shoes, aka comfy flats. so anyway, lily and i went to cubao and anonas for some really cheap shopping. :p
cant wait... 4 days left.
over the weekend i realized our HK trip is just around the corner. 14 days from today to be exact. its going to be the longest out of the country trip so far and im stoked!
what can i say? iba kami ni lily mangarir ng trip. i got a bit carried away with bohol.. what with my excel file of facts prior to the trip and my detailed account of the trip when we got back --- complete with time approximations of the countryside tour. hahaha. this time, lily seems to be on the OC side. i was surprised i got a text message from her on our itinerary. haha. well, assignment of what areas to go to on what day pa lang naman. but then she mentioned something about writing down the routes per day already. hehehe. susulitin talaga namin yung 6 days... hahahaha. YAY.
i think ill be work braindead ont he 14th and 15th... assuming that my business trip doesnt fall through. if it does... haha. goodluck na lang to me.
Marty Barasco: Love is not a feeling, Mr. Burns. It's an ability.
Dan Burns: Instead of telling our young people to plan ahead, we should tell them to plan to be surprised.
Dan Burns: There's rightness in our wrongness.
Dan Burns: What don't I understand, Cara? Please, help me out. What is it? Is it frustrating that you can't be with this person? That there's something keeping you apart? That there's something about this person that you can connect with? And whenever you're near this person, you don't know what to say, and you say everything that's in your mind and in your heart, and you know that if you could just be together, that this person would help you become the best possible version of yourself?
i dont know what i was thinking when i expected this to be a comedy. hahahaha. si i ended up tearing up a couple of times. hahaha. sigh...
i remember having this insanely malas day last year when i attempted to watch a movie alone for the first time and i found out when i was at the mall already that i left my wallet at the office. alone at the mall, no wallet, no atm, and no credit card. it was raining pa. malas.
well, ive had the same string of misfortune this past week.
1. ash wednesday - long story short, i fell down the stairs of the building and sprained my right ankle. im still cane-ridden. pero minsan pasaway i dont use it and opt to limp around na lang... bad girl.
2. yesterday's incident 1 - pilay na nga right foot ko, my left sandal broke pa here at the office. how the heck was i supposed to move around??? buti na lang sheila had slippers here sa office.
3. yesterday's incident 2 - i was fuming mad at this person and was having a less than fabulous afternoon (post sandal malfunction) and it was my first time to commute going home since i sprained my ankle. so as i was walking to valero to catch the shuttle there (in sheila's slippers), i sms-ed the dispatcher to let him know im on my way and if he could wait for me. his reply literally brought me to tears: "walang sasakyan dito". fart. as in bad trip talaga. i thought id have to stand in line sa SM for a long time since thats the only place else na may shuttle pauwi. hay. buti na lang mahaba lang daw pila and i caught the last van on my way home.
AY GRABE TALAGA. pag kinan*toot* ka nga naman ng malas! if things come in three's.. i hope my list ends there. tama na please. quota na ako.
is someone trying to tell me to slow down? hmmmm....
Girls, we should really learn a thing or two (or more) from this... OUCH!
* If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.
* Stop making excuses for a man and his behaviour.
* Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.
* Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.
* Slower is better.
* Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.
* If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no, you can't "be friends".
* A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.
* Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.
* Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.
* The only person you can control in a relationship is you.
* Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?
* Always have your own set of friends separate from his.
* Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you.
* If something bothers you, speak up.
* Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.
* You cannot change a man's behaviour. Change comes from within.
* Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are... even if he has more education or in a better job.
* Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.
* Never let a man define who you are.
* Never borrow someone else's man. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.
* A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.
* All men are NOT dogs.
* You should not be the one doing all the bending... compromise is two way street.
* You need time to heal between relationships...
* There is nothing cute about baggage... deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
* You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary... not supplementary.
* Dating is fun... even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.
* Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him – he takes it for granted.
* Never move into his mother's house.
* Never co-sign for a man.
* Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.
* Keep him in your radar but get to know others.
