HARD LABOR
this week went by so fast, im still in shock. im happy though that i can cross out a bunch of my projects in my to-do list.. but waking up this morning and realizing how much pain im in, wasnt a good way to wake up. haha.
monday, i went to pick up my parents at the airport... im so happy theyre home! although i wont actually get to spend time with them for the next days, knowing they're home leaves a warm feeling.
tuesday, up by 5am to get ready for pick-up at 6am. whole day shoot which ended around 9pm. home by 1030-ish, slept at 2am-ish. (ill post about the shoots some other time...)
wednesday, half asleep for most of it. started with an 830am instant print shoot to which i was late because of damn sucat traffic. i was thinking i could go home after the afternoon print shoot but ended up leaving the office at 9pm... had to release a whole bunch of files pa pala AFTER yet another instant client presentation (snaps to my creatives for the instant boards!).
thursday, running low on energy from the beating my body took the days before. spent the day at the office. my boss got rushed to the hospital though... i hope she and the baby will be okay.
friday, up at 4am (no exag) for 5am pick up. location shoot was tough because it was hot, and we were moving around so much. but i still had fun. finished late. couldnt go to karla's despedida party anymore because i was literally drained. i was out cold almost as soon as my head hit the bed. hahaha.
today, i head to pasig to keep shoti company while the rest of the family is in HK. wawa naman sevi... dont worry, ninang will bring you to disney when you're a little bigger. :p
BORA REGRETS
i havent had much time, energy and focus to do some serious life thinking... and im in search of a good retreat i can go to, so i can have thinking time. miah mentioned there was one this weekend in boracay for a really reasonable cost. i had to decline because i wasnt sure i agreed with the organizing group's views on some points in religion. i didnt want to go and confuse or frustrate myself. and a very minor reason is i wouldnt want to be in boracay and be stuck in a session hall for 3 days... thats torture!
on my way home last night, i gave her a call to ask her about her final plans on it. it turns out, theyre staying at boracay tropics and the sessions are only in the morning and in the evening!!! sayang!!!!!!! i could have gotten a retreat AND a vacation... IN BORACAY. o well... nasa huli ang pagsisisi.
i really didnt want to write about this, but this morning i realize it might be a good thing to do.
late late last year, i met someone and although the manner by which we met was less than ideal for me, i found myself being open to things. and the next two months was spent talking non-stop and visits before and after work (before his, which was after mine... then after his, which was before mine. hahaha.) things we're going well, actually. we talked about a whole range of things.. from mundane to serious topics and never did i feel uncomfortable with it.
long story short, all that time, i kept telling myself to keep im mind he was just being friendly. but i still cant blame myself if at a time i did think something was there. i mean, i dont think i was being assuming given we just met and yet he can have dinner with me and my mom, and stuff. after a few months (and by few, i mean 2), suddenly wala na. hahaha. just like that. no nothing. weird. if i was confused by the "game" before meeting him, i was REALLY confused.
does it really have to be a game? im sure there's a simpler way of going about this whole relationships thing. i was thinking maybe the game just evolved because people got hurt by other people and the game became a defense mechanism, or a test to weed out possible 'hurt-ers'. if that's the case, then its ironic that even more people are hurt by the game.
personally, i dont get the point of the game. haha. i dont know how to play it. and im not sure if i want to learn to.
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