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my head hurts. its ironic my head hurts because of the sheets on pain relievers. somehow i dont find it funny and im not relieved at all.

everything was whacked today.

was supposed to have a 9-12nn meeting at alabang where 3 groups of suppliers were to present. that stupid girl (who had no remorse whatsoever for the immense delay she caused) came in at freaking 1030am... pushing everything else to end by 130pm.

my 2pm internal meeting got "moved" to 5pm, but instantly moved again to 330pm... ended past 5pm i think.

so technically my day began at 5pm. these things happen, i know. and ive adjusted to it several times before. but the clincher is... because i had this bright idea to ask about sheets, i find myself sitting here at my desk (STILL) magically producing sheets for tomorrow out of nothing.

now i have to be honest. im a bit lost with this project. so that makes it a bit harder to be the one to construct the sheets. PLUS, it seems my boss is already resigned to the fact that whatever i prepare will surely be changed based on what the bosses want (whats new). so (without thinking) i told her earlier:

- di ko na kakaririn kasi babarilin din naman... EEEEENK! wrong thing to say.
- bakit di nalans sabihin ng mga boss ano gusto nila para di na sayang effort ko kung alam naman pala nyang babarilin... EEEEEENK! wrong again.

i cant help but wonder why i have to exert effort to think of how the latag should go if i know my boss is SO open to it being shot down... parang i get the feeling di man lang nya ipaglalaban. i will end up presenting my hard work, and take all the blows. what the point? please, someone remind me what im missing.

anyway, i should really go back to my sheets... and my endless transcriptions.

oh by the way... im doing this... yet i wont be part of the actual group presenting come d-day. wow. that's very uplifting.

MENTAL NOTE: keep in mind that this will only make me better... do it for the exercise.