blurrrrrrrrrr

ang daming nangyayari... dumadaan na lang ng parang hangin. masaya ba?

suddenly cold

yesterday morning, i was pleased to notice how cool it was... especially in the garden where its constantly breezy. but it never occured to me that if it was cold outdoors, then it would be MUCH colder indoors.

it doesnt help that im feeling slightly sicky... so double whammy.

ang lamig talaga. but i shouldnt complain... one, its definitely colder elsewhere.. i still live in a tropical country. and two, id rather it be cold with the AC working than sweaty and irritable when it was broken. :p i will count my blessings. haha.

attainable challenge?

Men See You As: An Attainable Challenge

You know how to make your man crave more of you But you also know when to show some interest back You're good at keeping your guy guessing And over time, you'll let him know how you really feel

Are You a Challenge?

* from kaye

thinking sleepy

right at this very moment, inaantok ako. as in i want to crawl back into bed and sleep. BUT! its a monday... and mondays set the mood for the entire week, so i have to manage to be as relaxed yet productive as i can. i cant have an entire week like this!

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despite my sleepy thoughts, my mind is still busy with my life options... maybe thats why im sleepy... nakakapagod mag-isip ng mga ganun ah. no joke. last night i was tearing up na when i fell asleep because of frustration.

dasal

give me a sign. i thought i was sure what i wanted. pero bakit parang dumadami yung mga interesting options that i can take? nalilito na tuloy ako.

sure there arent any opportunities that need my immediate decision, but i should move to make these opportunities come.

basta bottomline, its up to me... its really my decision to make. my decision on what route i want to take with my life. so i can start focusing my energies on it.

hay! what do i do? what do i really want to do?

i need a sign.

gulong ng palad

You are The Wheel of Fortune

Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success

The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

singit lang

quick break to copy paste somethings i wrote on my way home last night.

- there are things that make me happy these days... enought for me not to feel too sad about other things.

- nights like this, when my body is just too damn tired to move but my mind is too busy throwing thoughts around, will probably be the hardest for me. eto kasi yung times na i can throw random thoughts at you and i dont have to worry about not making sense. even better that in the end, they make sense already. hope you're doing well there. keep shining.

- just when i thought things could not get any more hectic, they just do. meetings that are piled up like crazy... its not even funny how they all seem to conflict with each other AND theyre all important. requirements and deadlines that just keep coming. pati mga tulog na bagay, ganda ng timing to be reborn. but we're all still standing... and smiling. that should be a good sign. ah, yes, the rush of being in advertising.

- with all of these things going on, i cant deal with this right now. i dont want to be cruel, but i just dont have the energy to sort through it and deal with it. im sorry. ill take my chances. if by the time that i can sort through it without being short-fused, would be a time that you wouldnt want to be there anymore, ill have to deal with it. i just cant do this right now. i should let the frustration, confusion and irritation die down.

i shouldnt be saying this...

just to get it out of my head...

it hasnt been long, but im nearing a point where i wish you'd just go and say something.

SAY SOMETHING!!!

super saturday

today was great.

630am - leave for offline
730 to 930am - offline
930 to 1230nn - hang out at salcedo weekend market
1230 to 130pm - head on home
130 to 300pm - las paellas, theobroma, ruins
300 to 9pm - hang out at home

okay, it wasnt that simple. pau scheduled to bring me my painting today... and that was the major event of the day. but it was worth the wait... and more. i absolutely love the painting. the more i look at it, the more i love it. haha. thanks pau. you're the best.

whats not to love about today?
love hanging out with arnie, ige, paolo and april at the salcedo market...
love taking pau around BF...
love theobroma ice cream...
love ruins...
love having strawberries and chocolate fondue...
love hanging out with mom and pau...
LOVE THE PAINTING...
LOVE THE PORTRAIT...

thankies to everyone for a great day!!! eeeeeeeeeeyaaaaaaahooooooo!

* more photos in my multiply

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get well soon...

giddy giggly doo

had a great time last night. it was refreshing to be doing something different on a weekday.

i cant help but smile today.

happy pill

i never really noticed until they pointed it out... ive been extra happy the past few days.

choices, choices...

i want to go out of town... i want to get in a car, and go anywhere. anywhere but stay here.

on the other hand, im supposed to be saving up for a major spend item this time next year (if all goes as planned)...

choices, choices...

short messages

1. something about you feels right... but im going to be smart and continue not to put too much attention to it.

2. go and be the best at everything you do. you are such an inspiration to me. i feel as though i can do things that i never even considered int he past. its as if your presence has enabled me on several levels. i will ever be proud of you.

3. im thankful, in a sense, that the last few weeks have allowed me to get used to the distance between us. at least saying 'see you soon' wont be as difficult anymore. ill have to admit i was jealous a s hell... as i always have been with a few uber close friends. but in retrospect, it was a good thing.

iWant iPhone

looks like if i want a new phone ill have to buy myself one... no Globe Loyalty Rewards this year... boo hoo!

it so happens i saw this....

now i want one... I WANT ONE. its really just a materialistic thing to want since i just got my iPod and i still have a phone.. hahaha. but i still want one.

*photos from apple.com

in fairness...

being the self-absorbed person that i am.. i just HAD to try this one with multiple photos. hahaha. i was surprised at the faces that came out consistently. hehehe. in fairness...

greetings

my favorite holiday greetings...

from peejay: Salamat sa mga araw ng tawanan, kuwentuhan, tambay at mga tila walang kuwentang mga oras na kasama kita. Ito ang mga moments na pinapanaginipan ko, nire-reminisce at pinagsesentihan. Maraming salamat talaga, ang saya saya ng buhay ko dahil sa'yo. Ma-achecheng Pasko at Maligo ang Gagong Taong Grasa!

from mel: My 12 gifts for you: 1. Happiness. Deep down inside. 2. Serenity. At every sunrise. 3. Success. In every facet of your life. 4. Family beside you. 5. Caring friends around you. 6. A love that never ends. 7. Good health within you. 8. Beautiful memories. 9. A bright today with so much to be thankful for. 10. A pathway leading to better tomorrows. 11. Dreams that manage to come true. 12. and A great appreciation for whatever you do. One day to go... Merry Christmas!

from mark: May your year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books, kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art - write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere this year, you surprise yourself! --- Neil Gaiman

from coach ivan: Happiness is somewhere between too little and too much. May you have just enough wealth to meet your needs, enough poverty to learn how to work hard. Enough blessings to know that God loves you, enough problems so you dont forget Him. Enough happiness to keep you sweet, enough trials to keep you strong. Enough hope to keep you happy, enough sorrow to keep you human. What you are is God's gift to you, but what you become is your gift to God. Happy New Year!

hope everyone has a rockin' 2007!

longest line...

i just got home from one of the longest days of my life...

last night, i was supposed to ride with mic to meet up with the rest of the gang at mike's house. when that didnt fall through as planned, i relieved myself of the inis by being thankful i get to sleep... especially since i was set to leave at 7am for comelec... to FINALLY register myself as a voter. (i had no idea its been 7 years since i turned 18.. hahaha. im a bad citizen... although i do pay my taxes. :p)

so i slept around midnight, only to wake up at around 430am... i was hungry... MAJOR hunger... if it was enough to wake me up, then that should be major hunger. long story short, good thing a friend was super nice enough to bring me food... so i ended up not sleeping na lang kasi i finished eating/chit chatting at 6am.

i got to comelec at around 730am... and to cut to the chase, i finished at 330pm... most of my time was spent standing in line seething with anger at the giddy students in front of me na pinasingit na ata half of their class (inaway ko rin sa inis eventually... that shut them up... hahaha.)

at least im done... ill never have to do that ever again.

in fairness, yung mga singit naman talaga ang may kasalanan ng delay... but the comelec people were all nice.. a little bit lacking in organization sa labas, but they were all really nice. patient pa. i kinda felt bad for thinking they were your typical na slow-working government workers... snaps to you guys!

tonight, i tend to my aching knees.. from all the standing today... again, thanks to a friend for the free consult! :p

there's a hole in the bucket

none of my plans fell through today...

1. was going to finally register... mahaba pila sa comelec
2. was going to have my teeth cleaned... no dentist
3. haircut before the new year... moved to some other day kasi sasabay na alng ako kay mic to get to mike's
4. go see mike after haircut... stayed home instead because mic got stuck somewhere
5. be firm today... ended up a texting fool

oh well, i have tomorrow to look forward to.

hopefully things will go as planned.

i drive myself crazy

its been "quiet" without mel.. i realize how much of my thoughts id habitually throw at her.. now that she's not as easy to reach, its obvious i really need a second brain to be able to sort through some of the things that bounce around in my head. of course blogging helps, but there are some things you cant just post online... and it gets tiring to be so vague all the time.

so here's a healthy helping of pseudo vague-ness...

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ive known you barely a week now... but i hope im getting the right vibe... its been surprising, a bit confusing and unfamiliar, but at the same time comfortable and easy. in any case, i can wait to see how this turns out. no typo there.. i said i CAN. :) and i think i will.

i guess im just amazed at how these past few days unfolded. hay. i dont want to jinx anything. i just need to unload some thoughts... express some things.

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it was nice bumping into you yesterday... haha. i cant believe i had a crush on you since highschool! and im surprised 7 years lang pala age gap natin. you seemed like such an adult back then. so talking to you last night surprisingly felt like i was talking to someone my age. and its funny you admitted you didnt know how to talk to me kasi i "grew up" so much since we last saw each other (duh, that was just last year!)... have i aged THAT much? come to think of it, the past 2 years HAVE been life changing for me.. so maybe i do have a different aura these days. haha. to think ive only been 25 for just 2 weeks!

as i was saying, it was great bumping into you... great to see you a bit flustered and confused. i never thought id have that effect on you in my entire life. hahaha. i rock! heehee... kaloka.

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YOU! you who manage to turn my world upside down with the most mundane things!!! i am almost forever in a state of confusion when it comes to you.... and thats all im going to say for now. what am i going to do about you??!?!?!?!?!

mel daldal's wedding

i got a surprising invitation from mel laurel months ago to go to her wedding... so last thursday we headed to tagaytay. i was with caroline, fewng, kris, jason and kenya.

the trip up was fairly normal... nagkakahiyaan pa yung dalawang bata... but as soon as we got to the chapel on the hill, things just got better.

it was a small gathering... i loved the intimacy of the chapel.. i dont think you can fit more than 60 people there. and the view was just amazing. makes me seriously reconsider my big wedding dream. haha.

most of my photos were either of mel and nino (their backs mostly during the ceremony... haha.) OR the famous kenya-jason loveteam. so here are some photos...

the drive back was off the scales! jason and kenya were hilarious. its true.. kids DO say the darnest things...

more photos on my multiply!!! :p