funny how earlier i was talking about what makes me happy these days, and now i find myself feeling the exact opposite.
things are about to get nasty. REALLY NASTY. and they say im a good AE.
what makes a good AE?
its not her juggling skills, nor her ability to keep a pleasant face... its her support groups. they are the ones making things happen for the so-called "great AE". without good support groups, she is nothing. if you go straight to the bone of the matter, the solutions dont come from the AE, they come from elsewhere... she is merely there to store knowledge from past experiences... to "parrot" options to whoever is concerned when push comes to shove... it doesnt take any special person to be a good AE. the truth is, a "good AE" is a myth... a ploy to motivate and encourage.
there is no "good AE".. only good support groups.
Friday, February 24
anong meron ang taong happy?
what makes me feel happy and accomplished these days?
- leaving the office on time
- being able to 'pagpag' (watch movie, have dinner with friends, go to the salon, shop a bit, walk around)
- although sometimes going straight home isnt as bad too!
- be home in time to catch my local tv shows (my bonding time with my mom)
my 'happy pills' have really changed. nakakatuwa.
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- leaving the office on time
- being able to 'pagpag' (watch movie, have dinner with friends, go to the salon, shop a bit, walk around)
- although sometimes going straight home isnt as bad too!
- be home in time to catch my local tv shows (my bonding time with my mom)
my 'happy pills' have really changed. nakakatuwa.
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Monday, February 20
"these are a few of my favorite sins..."
GLUTTONY
saturday was a gastronomic day. its not the quantity of food we ate, but more on the quality of food. too much good food for one day. had breakfast at UCC, ate Theobroma ice cream, and Prince of Jaipur lunch. Ordinary meals if you think about it, but they were just so yummy!!!! so damn yummy. by the end of the day, i was walking like a drunkard, bumping into mel going up the stairs, losing my balance every 5 steps. what a day. what a happy happy happy day.
SLOTH
sunday was a day spent in bed... literally. i got out of bed only for a few things: meals, to get munchies, go to the bathroom, and go to mass. otherwise, i was in bed watching TV. i DID walk to church though.. so i wasnt as tamad as i could be.
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when pasts come a-haunting.
1. THE EX.
two weeks ago, i got relieved to get a nasty text message from my ex saying he will never talk to me ever again. kasi daw ive changed, mabilis ko na daw sya pinalitan, and all that sappy dramatic almost telenovela script type crap. (ey, if you think im sappy, let me introduce you to my ex. haha.) i was relieved because i really had no urge to attend to his issues in life. as in i just wanted him to leave me alone. for the first time, i really really wanted to forget this person and not even be friends with him. whats tha point kasi. to him, as long as we're friends, may pag-asa pang magkabalikan... NOT!
anyway, saturday he texts me again. and i ignore to death. come night time, he calls (not ring in the hope i return his 'ring'.... CALLS until the voice recording says 'the subscriber choochoo...) anyway, he calls non-stop. and i continue to ignore. he send me this sappy message again and big mistake, i texted him to call again. so he did and i gave this big fat lie of being sick so he'd stop calling and i could get some sleep. which i did.. thank God.
the next morning, i pay for my response... he texts and texts and texts and texts and calls and calls and calls and calls... asking if im okay, why i got sick, i should take care of myself daw, get some rest, drink medicines, call in sick today, etc. kainis. so i deadma.
then he drops the bomb. texts me asking that i tell him outright if there's no chance of being to gether again... na he came here to manila hoping we could see each other and ask me back. HELLO!!!! one year na kami break no. so i gave my straightforward and honest response. i wont go into details of that anymore... but we texted a bit more just so i could somewhat steer him in the right direction of FINALLY getting over me.
hopefully this is the end of this. im tired of feeling the guilt i feel whenever he reminds me that I left him.. I broke up with him, I didnt give him another chance, I "gave up". enough is enough. hopefully he'll be able to move on na talaga.
2. THE FIRST CRUSH
my first crush was my neighbor... we never became anything more than friends... funny funny memories. my best friend's ex is his neighbor and cousin (i think). he was my escort when my friends FORCED me to join the village Santacruzan because their moms wouldnt allow them without me. (quick background: at that time yung mga boyfriend nila at yung crush ko, iisang barkada.. and we all lived on the same street.). he was my prom date. he was my first kiss (stop cringing! its true and i cant do anything to change it).
anyway, the story is.. i just find it funny he's 'around' again. haha. that's all im going to say for now. haha.
new photos at my multiply site!
saturday was a gastronomic day. its not the quantity of food we ate, but more on the quality of food. too much good food for one day. had breakfast at UCC, ate Theobroma ice cream, and Prince of Jaipur lunch. Ordinary meals if you think about it, but they were just so yummy!!!! so damn yummy. by the end of the day, i was walking like a drunkard, bumping into mel going up the stairs, losing my balance every 5 steps. what a day. what a happy happy happy day.
SLOTH
sunday was a day spent in bed... literally. i got out of bed only for a few things: meals, to get munchies, go to the bathroom, and go to mass. otherwise, i was in bed watching TV. i DID walk to church though.. so i wasnt as tamad as i could be.
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when pasts come a-haunting.
1. THE EX.
two weeks ago, i got relieved to get a nasty text message from my ex saying he will never talk to me ever again. kasi daw ive changed, mabilis ko na daw sya pinalitan, and all that sappy dramatic almost telenovela script type crap. (ey, if you think im sappy, let me introduce you to my ex. haha.) i was relieved because i really had no urge to attend to his issues in life. as in i just wanted him to leave me alone. for the first time, i really really wanted to forget this person and not even be friends with him. whats tha point kasi. to him, as long as we're friends, may pag-asa pang magkabalikan... NOT!
anyway, saturday he texts me again. and i ignore to death. come night time, he calls (not ring in the hope i return his 'ring'.... CALLS until the voice recording says 'the subscriber choochoo...) anyway, he calls non-stop. and i continue to ignore. he send me this sappy message again and big mistake, i texted him to call again. so he did and i gave this big fat lie of being sick so he'd stop calling and i could get some sleep. which i did.. thank God.
the next morning, i pay for my response... he texts and texts and texts and texts and calls and calls and calls and calls... asking if im okay, why i got sick, i should take care of myself daw, get some rest, drink medicines, call in sick today, etc. kainis. so i deadma.
then he drops the bomb. texts me asking that i tell him outright if there's no chance of being to gether again... na he came here to manila hoping we could see each other and ask me back. HELLO!!!! one year na kami break no. so i gave my straightforward and honest response. i wont go into details of that anymore... but we texted a bit more just so i could somewhat steer him in the right direction of FINALLY getting over me.
hopefully this is the end of this. im tired of feeling the guilt i feel whenever he reminds me that I left him.. I broke up with him, I didnt give him another chance, I "gave up". enough is enough. hopefully he'll be able to move on na talaga.
2. THE FIRST CRUSH
my first crush was my neighbor... we never became anything more than friends... funny funny memories. my best friend's ex is his neighbor and cousin (i think). he was my escort when my friends FORCED me to join the village Santacruzan because their moms wouldnt allow them without me. (quick background: at that time yung mga boyfriend nila at yung crush ko, iisang barkada.. and we all lived on the same street.). he was my prom date. he was my first kiss (stop cringing! its true and i cant do anything to change it).
anyway, the story is.. i just find it funny he's 'around' again. haha. that's all im going to say for now. haha.
new photos at my multiply site!
Thursday, February 16
My Johari's Window
Someone sent this to me over YM... its supposed to help me get to know myself better. Hmm....
Arena(known to self and others) caring, complex, friendly, loving, sentimental | Blind Spot(known only to others) able, cheerful, confident, dependable, energetic, extroverted, giving, helpful, independent, intelligent, kind, knowledgable, mature, organised, relaxed, responsive, self-assertive, sensible, silly, spontaneous, sympathetic, trustworthy, warm, witty |
Façade(known only to self) self-conscious | Unknown(known to nobody) accepting, adaptable, bold, brave, calm, clever, dignified, happy, idealistic, ingenious, introverted, logical, modest, nervous, observant, patient, powerful, proud, quiet, reflective, religious, searching, shy, tense, wise |
All Percentages
able (9%) accepting (0%) adaptable (0%) bold (0%) brave (0%) calm (0%) caring (27%) cheerful (27%) clever (0%) complex (27%) confident (27%) dependable (18%) dignified (0%) energetic (9%) extroverted (27%) friendly (27%) giving (18%) happy (0%) helpful (27%) idealistic (0%) independent (27%) ingenious (0%) intelligent (18%) introverted (0%) kind (18%) knowledgable (9%) logical (0%) loving (27%) mature (9%) modest (0%) nervous (0%) observant (0%) organised (18%) patient (0%) powerful (0%) proud (0%) quiet (0%) reflective (0%) relaxed (9%) religious (0%) responsive (18%) searching (0%) self-assertive (9%) self-conscious (0%) sensible (9%) sentimental (36%) shy (0%) silly (9%) spontaneous (18%) sympathetic (9%) tense (0%) trustworthy (36%) warm (9%) wise (0%) witty (18%)
Created by the Interactive Johari Window on 16.2.2006, using data from 11 respondents.
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Sunday, February 5
im still alive
magpaparamdam lang ako since now is the only time i have to sit and do something for myself since my fieldwork started last feb 1.
ive been to the ins and outs of guadalupe and maybunga area in pasig.. now im here in cebu. ive been around.. and by 'around' i mean sinuyod na namin lahat ng kalye sa area namin. mainit, nakakapagod at nakakaloka. nagtatawanan na lang kami para di kami maawa sa sarili namin. ang hirap pala nito! tomorrow i fly to davao... after that, i take the weekend off then its probably dagupan next. hehe.
im taking this time to TRY and reflect on some things.. i tried writing some thoughts on some stuff last thursday but i havent gotten around to finishing it.. ill post it here when im done.. and if i think its share-able.
anyhoo, nagaparamdam lang ako... buhay pa po ako. kahit na in a day average of 5 times ako in almost-car crashes. its funny. the first one is the funniest... from the airport, we took a cab and i sat in front (kasi ayaw ko katabi client ko sa likod)... dude! the driver was freaking snoring while driving! nabibitawan na nya manibela and minsan yung kambyo! promise minsan ang bilis namin tas biglang mag swerve kasi mabibitawan nya. tas ang baho pa ng breath nya. exag.. smells something like someones breath pag nalasing at nakasuka na. ew. ew. ew. so anyway, we made an emergency stop ar SM cebu to change cabs... kaloka.
ill try to be back real soon... ill write tons of stuff about my trip. hahaha.
i miss you guys. text nyo naman ako once in a while... hindi naman bawal... i encourage you actually... hahaha.
ive been to the ins and outs of guadalupe and maybunga area in pasig.. now im here in cebu. ive been around.. and by 'around' i mean sinuyod na namin lahat ng kalye sa area namin. mainit, nakakapagod at nakakaloka. nagtatawanan na lang kami para di kami maawa sa sarili namin. ang hirap pala nito! tomorrow i fly to davao... after that, i take the weekend off then its probably dagupan next. hehe.
im taking this time to TRY and reflect on some things.. i tried writing some thoughts on some stuff last thursday but i havent gotten around to finishing it.. ill post it here when im done.. and if i think its share-able.
anyhoo, nagaparamdam lang ako... buhay pa po ako. kahit na in a day average of 5 times ako in almost-car crashes. its funny. the first one is the funniest... from the airport, we took a cab and i sat in front (kasi ayaw ko katabi client ko sa likod)... dude! the driver was freaking snoring while driving! nabibitawan na nya manibela and minsan yung kambyo! promise minsan ang bilis namin tas biglang mag swerve kasi mabibitawan nya. tas ang baho pa ng breath nya. exag.. smells something like someones breath pag nalasing at nakasuka na. ew. ew. ew. so anyway, we made an emergency stop ar SM cebu to change cabs... kaloka.
ill try to be back real soon... ill write tons of stuff about my trip. hahaha.
i miss you guys. text nyo naman ako once in a while... hindi naman bawal... i encourage you actually... hahaha.
Tuesday, January 31
haunting past: a return of the comeback
my ex is in town and he's been harassing me to meet up with him. ayaw ko nga!
its been a few days since he first made his presence felt, and ive had time to think of exactly WHY i dont want to see him. no, im not 'affected' up to now. no, im not scared ill realize i still have feelings for him. its been almost a year since i got over him... and longer than that since we broke up.
here's what i think is the reason is: he reminds me of the 'me' i never want to be again (forever and ever and ever and ever and ever). sure he's a good person (in all fairness and equality), and i still get guilty for fleeting moments, but i still dont want to have anything more to do with him than occasional texts. ive said it more than once before... ive reduced that part of my life into a list of learnings. no more, no less. call me an ungrateful, cold-hearted bitch but thats the honest truth. no sense in carrying anything more than that.
now i feel like im hiding from a stalker. he texts me like its the only thing he does. and since saturday, ive refused to text him back. he says he'll wait for me at the lobby of our building or at the terminal where i get my shuttle to get home. he wont take 'no' for an answer!!! im getting impatient with this. suddenly i welcome my out of town work if only to rest from the feeling of being followed wherever i go.
its been a few days since he first made his presence felt, and ive had time to think of exactly WHY i dont want to see him. no, im not 'affected' up to now. no, im not scared ill realize i still have feelings for him. its been almost a year since i got over him... and longer than that since we broke up.
here's what i think is the reason is: he reminds me of the 'me' i never want to be again (forever and ever and ever and ever and ever). sure he's a good person (in all fairness and equality), and i still get guilty for fleeting moments, but i still dont want to have anything more to do with him than occasional texts. ive said it more than once before... ive reduced that part of my life into a list of learnings. no more, no less. call me an ungrateful, cold-hearted bitch but thats the honest truth. no sense in carrying anything more than that.
now i feel like im hiding from a stalker. he texts me like its the only thing he does. and since saturday, ive refused to text him back. he says he'll wait for me at the lobby of our building or at the terminal where i get my shuttle to get home. he wont take 'no' for an answer!!! im getting impatient with this. suddenly i welcome my out of town work if only to rest from the feeling of being followed wherever i go.
Friday, January 27
is that for real?!
there are just some things that catch you by surprise and you and up smiling like a geek the whole morning.
on our way to work, somewhere along buendia, i was looking around when something unusual caught my eye. at first i thought my eyes were playing tricks on me, but after a few seconds of staring, i knew it was for real. thank God i had my camera and i was able to steal some neat photos. see for yourself.....
commuting tabby?!?!?!?! maybe he's in town to promote the sequel to his movie or something. hahaha. cute no? it really looks like he's 'nakadungaw'! haaaay.
on our way to work, somewhere along buendia, i was looking around when something unusual caught my eye. at first i thought my eyes were playing tricks on me, but after a few seconds of staring, i knew it was for real. thank God i had my camera and i was able to steal some neat photos. see for yourself.....
commuting tabby?!?!?!?! maybe he's in town to promote the sequel to his movie or something. hahaha. cute no? it really looks like he's 'nakadungaw'! haaaay.
Wednesday, January 25
My Movie Star Double
I took the test on tickle.com:
Angel, your movie star double is Jennifer Lopez
A magnetic maven like you needs to be played by someone who knows how to get an audience's attention — and keep it. That's why Jennifer Lopez would be a great leading lady in the movie of your life. You've got a certain star quality that makes people applaud whatever you decide to put your energy into. Regardless of whether you match J Lo's glamorous look, her mega-diva glow will help translate your stunning charisma to the silver screen.Back in high school, were you the one in the spotlight — star of the school play, student council president, and popular girl around town? Well, with your charms, you should have been. There's just something about you that has people screaming for more. But that's a good thing since you probably thrive when you're being social, surrounded by people, or getting out and about.If some people perceive you as high maintenance, you can just tell them that you have high expectations. If you're willing to work so hard on yourself, why can't other people do the same? So get ready for the new cast in the movie of your life headed by none other than J Lo herself.
Angel, your movie star double is Jennifer Lopez
A magnetic maven like you needs to be played by someone who knows how to get an audience's attention — and keep it. That's why Jennifer Lopez would be a great leading lady in the movie of your life. You've got a certain star quality that makes people applaud whatever you decide to put your energy into. Regardless of whether you match J Lo's glamorous look, her mega-diva glow will help translate your stunning charisma to the silver screen.Back in high school, were you the one in the spotlight — star of the school play, student council president, and popular girl around town? Well, with your charms, you should have been. There's just something about you that has people screaming for more. But that's a good thing since you probably thrive when you're being social, surrounded by people, or getting out and about.If some people perceive you as high maintenance, you can just tell them that you have high expectations. If you're willing to work so hard on yourself, why can't other people do the same? So get ready for the new cast in the movie of your life headed by none other than J Lo herself.
Tuesday, January 24
'thank-you' post and other stuff
funny how things come not when you want them to, but when you will be able to use it the most.
what i mean is that sometimes when we feel bad or unsure of things, we look for reassurance from the people around us. and the truth of the matter is that we wont always get it. sometimes we hear what we want to hear when we 'fish' for it. other times, the reassurance doesnt come when you want it to... it comes when things are okay already.. or when things are getting better.
thats exactly what happened to me. and im happy i got them when i did. actions may speak louder than words but you can never go wrong with just saying it.
Pau and Mel: you guys made my day... my week even! you know how much i appreciate hearing these things from people who mean the world to me... and although mel's reassurance came when i least expected it (i wasnt even asking for it entirely!), i realize how much more valuable it is to me.
Mel: ikaw talaga, you know me too well... even better that i do ata! your timing is impeccable. i had no idea that card was going to be there.. thank you. although i was wondering why you were insisting on dropping by sa house.. usually naman you're not as insistent. haha. i still cry when i read it. you have no idea how much reading those words mean to me. most of them ive been wanting to hear lang just to be sure i have the right things in mind... ayaw ko naman maging presumptuous. you're right... we're not cheesy friends.. im least cheesy with you and pau. hahaha. tigas nyo e! hahaha. but seriously, id thank you for everything but i think i owe God more thanks for letting me keep you.
Pau: thanks for that text you sent a few weeks back. i needed that... obvious bang fishing ako? thanks because i can still hold on to you for strength so my emotions wont get the best of me. mahal na talaga kita, wala ka nang magagawa. bwahahaha. AT kahit na i-deny mo, what you said during lunch will probably keep me smiling throughout the week. you dont have to say it in the words mel did, but i get what you mean. thanks ah... means a lot to me. lalo na considering you're not the type to say those liberally. hahaha.
enough pagpapa-girl! im just REALLY happy right now.. you guys make me happy. :D walang drama ah. just being honest.
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enough pagpapa-girl! im just REALLY happy right now.. you guys make me happy. :D walang drama ah. just being honest.
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UPDATE ON MY DIET: ate CPK salad for lunch... my favorite! but i took out the tortilla strips.. at least as much as i could. yung iba di ko na talaga matanggal.. i put less than half of the dressing that came with it. i wasnt able to finish everything but at least i still have something to eat when i get hungry later. so far so good! thank GOd i have 'bantays' like pau and mel. kung hindi mega-cheater! haha. low EQ...
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I posted this comment on one of my previous entries. the one about me being busy this feb.. i think it deserves to be part of an entry and not just a comment...
ay nako... by the look of things... i might have *jinxed* this... o well... my turn will come.OR maybe its a sign that its time to move on...
Monday, January 23
i crash you
im on a crash diet.
its my cousin's "wedding" this sunday and i had to change what im going to wear last minute. the "bride" is wearing something short, so diyahe naman to be in a long gown competition. i fitted all the dresses (yes, i have dresses) i have at home, and they fit (thank God ive been losing weight!). yun nga lang.. i look pregnant... i hope its ony because its right about 'that time of the month' and not coz im getting round-bellied.
anyway... im on a diet because of that. no carbo. here's my baon for today:
1. extra big serving of salad with tuna and my favorite vinegairette (spell check please)
2. 2pcs tikoy.. this one i BEGGED mom to give me... kawawa naman ako.
3. 1 can of vienna sausage.. OPEN IN CASE OF EMERGENCY HUNGER.
i hope i last the week. hahahaha. i hope i lose the tummy.. its a long shot, i know.. but im going for it anyway. :p
IF i look decent enough in the photos, MAYBE ill post some here. hahaha. otherwise, ill just post head shots... hehehehe.
its my cousin's "wedding" this sunday and i had to change what im going to wear last minute. the "bride" is wearing something short, so diyahe naman to be in a long gown competition. i fitted all the dresses (yes, i have dresses) i have at home, and they fit (thank God ive been losing weight!). yun nga lang.. i look pregnant... i hope its ony because its right about 'that time of the month' and not coz im getting round-bellied.
anyway... im on a diet because of that. no carbo. here's my baon for today:
1. extra big serving of salad with tuna and my favorite vinegairette (spell check please)
2. 2pcs tikoy.. this one i BEGGED mom to give me... kawawa naman ako.
3. 1 can of vienna sausage.. OPEN IN CASE OF EMERGENCY HUNGER.
i hope i last the week. hahahaha. i hope i lose the tummy.. its a long shot, i know.. but im going for it anyway. :p
IF i look decent enough in the photos, MAYBE ill post some here. hahaha. otherwise, ill just post head shots... hehehehe.
Friday, January 20
calm before the storm
im excited about work... not something i often feel, but i am at this particular point. im given the opportunity to learn new things again and be exposed to a new market. please dont think im geeky, but its exciting. para maiba naman.
im going to be really busy come feb. actually parang march na ata next free time ko. hahaha. plans can still change, but so far it looks like ill be up and about a lot. :) ill be REALLY busy.
as of now excited nako.. ewan ko na lang when im up to my neck with work if ill still be in high spirits... chances are may bahid na ng kasungitan ang mood ko. :p work stress is good stress... as opposed to unnecessary stress that ive been giving myself.
i think id better go shop my heart out now while i still can... hahaha. who's willing to keep me company?!
im going to be really busy come feb. actually parang march na ata next free time ko. hahaha. plans can still change, but so far it looks like ill be up and about a lot. :) ill be REALLY busy.
as of now excited nako.. ewan ko na lang when im up to my neck with work if ill still be in high spirits... chances are may bahid na ng kasungitan ang mood ko. :p work stress is good stress... as opposed to unnecessary stress that ive been giving myself.
i think id better go shop my heart out now while i still can... hahaha. who's willing to keep me company?!
Thursday, January 19
parallel life?
ive been deleting emails from my sent items... leaving only those related to work... but before i delete them, of course i end up reading most of them first!
funny how my life is all too similar to mel's... in so many ways we are so different yet so alike. id list them down but most are tip-top secret.. :p haha! minsan mauuna lang ako to go through something and then not too soon after, si mel naman.. or the other way around. i guess i should be thankful kasi i get great advice from mel since she's "been there" herself. :p
yun lang... funny thoguht for the day. :)
funny how my life is all too similar to mel's... in so many ways we are so different yet so alike. id list them down but most are tip-top secret.. :p haha! minsan mauuna lang ako to go through something and then not too soon after, si mel naman.. or the other way around. i guess i should be thankful kasi i get great advice from mel since she's "been there" herself. :p
yun lang... funny thoguht for the day. :)
Thursday, January 12
coincidence?
kris gave me something to reflect on everyday... something to read and reflect on. im feeling fuzzy at the coincidence... ive been meaning to buy one!
i dont mean to sound preach-ey, but there IS some truth in what they say na 'pag wala ka nang makapitan, you can always hold on to Him. this just might be one of the lessons i can get out of this 'episode' in my life. im sure a lot of people will be happy for me. im sure mom would. :) i hope i can keep it up... its a resolution REALLY worth keeping. :)
this little miracle made my day. thanks Kris.
i dont mean to sound preach-ey, but there IS some truth in what they say na 'pag wala ka nang makapitan, you can always hold on to Him. this just might be one of the lessons i can get out of this 'episode' in my life. im sure a lot of people will be happy for me. im sure mom would. :) i hope i can keep it up... its a resolution REALLY worth keeping. :)
this little miracle made my day. thanks Kris.
Wednesday, January 11
tipping point
"The only constant thing in this world is CHANGE."
that week off did me much good. i got to spend time with my mom (spent 90% of it at the mall), sort of been able to make plans for when i move my stuff to my 'own space', and gotten rest (aka time to think and sort things out for myself). i was surprised and a bit disoriented when work started again because after a not-so-long break from work and issues attached to work, things felt different in the office and with the people in it. its almost like i fell asleep for a week, and everyone's lives moved and mine didnt... so when i came back, 'behind' na ako. really far from what i expected.
i spent some time trying to figure out why things feel wrong. at first i was convinced everyone else around me changed --- that there's something that they're simply not telling me. wala naman atang nakakapansin.. ako lang. now, im starting to think that the things around me didnt change... I did. i dont know if this hunch is true or not. but it feels weird in a funny way. it feels 'in-between'. im not talking about outside change ah.. i know a lot of people have been commenting on how i've been fixing myself lately... its not that. :)
nonetheless, i welcome the change. regardless where its coming from.
ikaw, what do you think... do you think i've changed?
that week off did me much good. i got to spend time with my mom (spent 90% of it at the mall), sort of been able to make plans for when i move my stuff to my 'own space', and gotten rest (aka time to think and sort things out for myself). i was surprised and a bit disoriented when work started again because after a not-so-long break from work and issues attached to work, things felt different in the office and with the people in it. its almost like i fell asleep for a week, and everyone's lives moved and mine didnt... so when i came back, 'behind' na ako. really far from what i expected.
i spent some time trying to figure out why things feel wrong. at first i was convinced everyone else around me changed --- that there's something that they're simply not telling me. wala naman atang nakakapansin.. ako lang. now, im starting to think that the things around me didnt change... I did. i dont know if this hunch is true or not. but it feels weird in a funny way. it feels 'in-between'. im not talking about outside change ah.. i know a lot of people have been commenting on how i've been fixing myself lately... its not that. :)
nonetheless, i welcome the change. regardless where its coming from.
ikaw, what do you think... do you think i've changed?
Monday, January 9
whirlwind weekend (take 2)
things are going well for me so far. things have been 'normal'. haha. but it seems now that things are 'okay', wala naman ako masabi! haha. does that prove im a whiner? geeez.
where my weekend went
spent saturday at home, in bed. 'nuf said. Oh! i watched Stepmom with my mom at home... cry-ola afternoons kami. pagdating talaga sa iyakan, my mom is SO reliable. :p
tried to catch the anticipated mass that night, but missed it... so we dropped by the blessed sacrament instead.. i used to go everyweek... its been so long since my last visit. years maybe. im amazed at how easy it was for me to pray that night. it felt good actually. i got to thank Him for a good 2005 (inspite of the loopiti-loops). haha. basta, that visit was a good one. :)
sunday started with mass. naks! its was a pretty religious weekend pala! haha. enjoyed walking with my sister and my parents. we ate 'fine dining' sa garden for lunch and dinner... nakakatuwa... fine dining ang setting pero mga nakapantulog ang suot. haha. went 'shopping' for grocery and 3 pairs of shoes (i should ban myself from Step Rite!).. then played Uno Attack! with miah and mommy... hehe.
ang bilis ng weekend... you wait a whole week for it to get here, then its passes by before you even get to enjoy it. but this weekend was good. :) yay!
where my weekend went
spent saturday at home, in bed. 'nuf said. Oh! i watched Stepmom with my mom at home... cry-ola afternoons kami. pagdating talaga sa iyakan, my mom is SO reliable. :p
tried to catch the anticipated mass that night, but missed it... so we dropped by the blessed sacrament instead.. i used to go everyweek... its been so long since my last visit. years maybe. im amazed at how easy it was for me to pray that night. it felt good actually. i got to thank Him for a good 2005 (inspite of the loopiti-loops). haha. basta, that visit was a good one. :)
sunday started with mass. naks! its was a pretty religious weekend pala! haha. enjoyed walking with my sister and my parents. we ate 'fine dining' sa garden for lunch and dinner... nakakatuwa... fine dining ang setting pero mga nakapantulog ang suot. haha. went 'shopping' for grocery and 3 pairs of shoes (i should ban myself from Step Rite!).. then played Uno Attack! with miah and mommy... hehe.
ang bilis ng weekend... you wait a whole week for it to get here, then its passes by before you even get to enjoy it. but this weekend was good. :) yay!
Tuesday, January 3
papa's 61st and other stuff
HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA!
my dad turns 61 today. lately i havent been getting along with him.. too many frustrations... but that wont stop me from wishing he has a special day today.
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im amused and a little amazed at my diversion tactics that im starting to observe. haha. things i consciously or unconsiously do when there's something bothering me.
TACTIC 1: Vagueness
actually mel was the one who pointed this out to me. when im undecided it i want to say something, and dont know how to say it, i become irritatingly vague. haha. come to think of it, i probably do this in the hope that the other person will 'get' what i want to say and be the one to initiate the discussion. hah! what a coward i am. OR i do this just to get rid of the itching feeling of wanting to say something, so i 'say something' without actually saying what i want to say!
TACTIC 2: Be Extra Talkative
ooooh... this is a good one. i pretend im okay and happy and all rainbows to cover up for whatever anxieties you have. i use this one if i dont want to give in to the nagging or sinking feeling that eventually triggers bad mood swings. i 'trick' myself into forgetting about it... one word: repression.
TACTIC 3: Be Quiet
i do this when i want to be unnoticed.. to just disappear... loner moments. para hindi na ako matanong, i just keep quiet so i dont risk saying anything that will force me to talk about it. usually people leave me alone naman when im quiet. :)
TACTIC 4: Be a B*tch
Much like staying quiet, but more on being masungit so people will leave me alone. Usually i do this pag naiinis na ako kasi hindi mawala-wala 'concerns' ko... haha. i get short tempered and i get b*tchy.
nakakatuwa na napapansin ko na my 'coping strategies'. wala na ba talaga ako magawa sa buhay ko at pati sarili ko sina-psycho analyze ko na?! hehe.
im working on acquiring a new tactic: LET GO. this will probably be the simplest, most logical but hardest since i have the tendency to get 'passionate' and 'caught up' with my concerns. :p more things to work on for 2006.
my dad turns 61 today. lately i havent been getting along with him.. too many frustrations... but that wont stop me from wishing he has a special day today.
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im amused and a little amazed at my diversion tactics that im starting to observe. haha. things i consciously or unconsiously do when there's something bothering me.
TACTIC 1: Vagueness
actually mel was the one who pointed this out to me. when im undecided it i want to say something, and dont know how to say it, i become irritatingly vague. haha. come to think of it, i probably do this in the hope that the other person will 'get' what i want to say and be the one to initiate the discussion. hah! what a coward i am. OR i do this just to get rid of the itching feeling of wanting to say something, so i 'say something' without actually saying what i want to say!
TACTIC 2: Be Extra Talkative
ooooh... this is a good one. i pretend im okay and happy and all rainbows to cover up for whatever anxieties you have. i use this one if i dont want to give in to the nagging or sinking feeling that eventually triggers bad mood swings. i 'trick' myself into forgetting about it... one word: repression.
TACTIC 3: Be Quiet
i do this when i want to be unnoticed.. to just disappear... loner moments. para hindi na ako matanong, i just keep quiet so i dont risk saying anything that will force me to talk about it. usually people leave me alone naman when im quiet. :)
TACTIC 4: Be a B*tch
Much like staying quiet, but more on being masungit so people will leave me alone. Usually i do this pag naiinis na ako kasi hindi mawala-wala 'concerns' ko... haha. i get short tempered and i get b*tchy.
nakakatuwa na napapansin ko na my 'coping strategies'. wala na ba talaga ako magawa sa buhay ko at pati sarili ko sina-psycho analyze ko na?! hehe.
im working on acquiring a new tactic: LET GO. this will probably be the simplest, most logical but hardest since i have the tendency to get 'passionate' and 'caught up' with my concerns. :p more things to work on for 2006.
Sunday, January 1
2005 year-end survey
got this off mickeroo's blog... i was supposed to write about where my year went.. re-count the major things that happened to me per month... but i dont have my calendar with me right now and this is so much more fun to answer... !
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done?
major road trip for the long weekend with pedi and ainee. :) again, again, again!!!!
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i dont remember making any resolutions last year... if i did, i guess i didnt keep them. this year, im still undecided if im making any.... and which ones to make, if ever. hahaha. crammer.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
hmm... well, my officemate did, and a good college friend. :)
4. Did anyone close to you die?
im not particularly close to him, but he's really important to someone really close to me.
5. What countries did you visit?
vietnam! i still dream of the cu chi tunnels! hehe. fanny's ice cream!
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
material? more money i guess...
emotional, psychological, and spiritual? id like to be more independent and 'detached'.
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory?
shux, for someone with short term memory, this is an unfair question. it would have to be dec. 12... my bday. by far, the happiest day i can remember. aaaw!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
professionally... i got promoted this year. 2 years into the job. not bad, huh? im a year late though. i promised mel id work on getting promoted within my first year. haha.
personally... i became a more responsible member of my family. feels good not to be treated as such a little girl anymore... i think ive earned a bit of their respect. :p
9. What was your biggest failure?
it would definitely have to be giving in too much to my emotions. its been a REALLY emotional year. i let them take over too often... something to work on, definitely.
10. Did you suffer an illness or injury?
chronic temporary insanity? haha. neurotic spells.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
that would probably be my Zara skull shirt. i bought a lot of stuff this year... people close to me would know. :p but that shirt tops the list. its the most 'expensive' thing i bought... considering its a t-shirt. but i still love it! :)
12. Where did most of your money go?
my credit card... coz i bought so many stuff.. ill lump them together as credit card expense! hehe. clothes, shoes, make-up, accessories, salon and other kikay stuff, spa... and the list goes on. dont get me wrong.. i DO have savings. :)
13. What did you get really, really excited about?
excited about getting 'my own space' here at home. with the new house, im moving into my parent's room... well, im sharing it with my dad since i cant kick him out, but at least i get to fix it up and have more room for my stuff. i know eventually ill get my own room... hay. woes of a big family.
14. What song will always remind you of 2005?
yikes, im not a music person... :p
15. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
shux, mixed... happy na sad. happy in general, but sad still because of what happened to my sister last Christmas.
ii. thinner or fatter?
tough call... thinner i hope.
iii. richer or poorer?
qualified richer. in general, i can spend more now. love it.
16. What do you wish you'd done more of?
pray and go to mass. with all honesty, i wish id done more of this... not to say i didnt do any this year... just not enough.
17. What do you wish you'd done less of?
WHINING ANG COMPLAINING! less praning-ness and neuro-neuro.
18. How will you be spending Christmas?
i dont remember it being Christmas.. but i spent it with my family... lets just keep it at that.
19. Did you fall in love in 2005?
ha! i STAYED in love. OH! hahaha. (dont laugh mel... smile and keep quiet na lang)
20. How many one-night stands?
none! wuhoo!!!!
21. What was your favorite TV program/s?
it would have to be CSI (vegas) and Queer Eye pa rin.
22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
thankfully, no. i dont hate anyone new this year.
23. What was the best book you read?
Harry Potter. Thats the only thing i can remember at this point.
24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
haha. none particulary.. still a bit of a sad thing when it comes to music. haha. but im working on it!
OH! shux.. wrong answer.. im supposed to say... outerhope... please get a copy of their first album entited 'strangely paired'... available at all mag:net branches.
25. What do you want to get?
materially? oh, a lot of things... a computer at home would probably be at the top of my list.
BUT.. id LOVE to do some major travelling next year.. as in personal naman.. not for work.. and with the friends i love to bits. doesnt matter if its domestic or international. :p
26. What was your favorite film of this year?
shux. i cant think of it right now... :p though i idnt watch too many movies this year... :p i guess nothing struck me that much.
27. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i turned 24. :) the work day was fairly regular... my accounts team surprised me with lunch at aristocrat. then i really didnt have anything else planned.. maybe a quiet nigt with whoever of my friends were available... apparently si pau lang ang pwede ma-kidnap right before his grading. BUT! mush to my delight... and happiness, i got surprised to have most of my friends in masas... oh, im sure you read about it in a previous post... :p thanks again, mel. best birthday so far.
28. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
the truth? i wouldve wanted to have shared my year not only with friends but with a 'special friend' too... how pa-girl, i know.
29. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
experimental, and bravely mainstream (?) haha. does that make sense?
30. What kept you sane?
my great friends of all shapes and sizes... and gender. hehehe.
31. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
john prats. im a sucker for a good dancer.. can i help it? too bad he's short... and younger.
and jericho rosales. baduy n kung baduy, but i still think he's cute.
32. What political issue stirred you the most?
the FPJ/Susan Roces season..
33. Who do you miss?
close friends who, for one reason or another, i dont see as often as i used to. *tear*
34. Who was the best new person you met?
haha. for lack of anyone else to mention, it would have to be that mystery guy i blogged about a few months ago. he probably isnt ALL THAT, but yung timing of when i met him lang and the effect he had on me (and ainee?) is fun to think of. haha.
35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005
always save some for yourself... thats not being selfish.
1. What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done?
major road trip for the long weekend with pedi and ainee. :) again, again, again!!!!
2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i dont remember making any resolutions last year... if i did, i guess i didnt keep them. this year, im still undecided if im making any.... and which ones to make, if ever. hahaha. crammer.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
hmm... well, my officemate did, and a good college friend. :)
4. Did anyone close to you die?
im not particularly close to him, but he's really important to someone really close to me.
5. What countries did you visit?
vietnam! i still dream of the cu chi tunnels! hehe. fanny's ice cream!
6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
material? more money i guess...
emotional, psychological, and spiritual? id like to be more independent and 'detached'.
7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory?
shux, for someone with short term memory, this is an unfair question. it would have to be dec. 12... my bday. by far, the happiest day i can remember. aaaw!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
professionally... i got promoted this year. 2 years into the job. not bad, huh? im a year late though. i promised mel id work on getting promoted within my first year. haha.
personally... i became a more responsible member of my family. feels good not to be treated as such a little girl anymore... i think ive earned a bit of their respect. :p
9. What was your biggest failure?
it would definitely have to be giving in too much to my emotions. its been a REALLY emotional year. i let them take over too often... something to work on, definitely.
10. Did you suffer an illness or injury?
chronic temporary insanity? haha. neurotic spells.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
that would probably be my Zara skull shirt. i bought a lot of stuff this year... people close to me would know. :p but that shirt tops the list. its the most 'expensive' thing i bought... considering its a t-shirt. but i still love it! :)
12. Where did most of your money go?
my credit card... coz i bought so many stuff.. ill lump them together as credit card expense! hehe. clothes, shoes, make-up, accessories, salon and other kikay stuff, spa... and the list goes on. dont get me wrong.. i DO have savings. :)
13. What did you get really, really excited about?
excited about getting 'my own space' here at home. with the new house, im moving into my parent's room... well, im sharing it with my dad since i cant kick him out, but at least i get to fix it up and have more room for my stuff. i know eventually ill get my own room... hay. woes of a big family.
14. What song will always remind you of 2005?
yikes, im not a music person... :p
15. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder?
shux, mixed... happy na sad. happy in general, but sad still because of what happened to my sister last Christmas.
ii. thinner or fatter?
tough call... thinner i hope.
iii. richer or poorer?
qualified richer. in general, i can spend more now. love it.
16. What do you wish you'd done more of?
pray and go to mass. with all honesty, i wish id done more of this... not to say i didnt do any this year... just not enough.
17. What do you wish you'd done less of?
WHINING ANG COMPLAINING! less praning-ness and neuro-neuro.
18. How will you be spending Christmas?
i dont remember it being Christmas.. but i spent it with my family... lets just keep it at that.
19. Did you fall in love in 2005?
ha! i STAYED in love. OH! hahaha. (dont laugh mel... smile and keep quiet na lang)
20. How many one-night stands?
none! wuhoo!!!!
21. What was your favorite TV program/s?
it would have to be CSI (vegas) and Queer Eye pa rin.
22. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
thankfully, no. i dont hate anyone new this year.
23. What was the best book you read?
Harry Potter. Thats the only thing i can remember at this point.
24. What was your greatest musical discovery?
haha. none particulary.. still a bit of a sad thing when it comes to music. haha. but im working on it!
OH! shux.. wrong answer.. im supposed to say... outerhope... please get a copy of their first album entited 'strangely paired'... available at all mag:net branches.
25. What do you want to get?
materially? oh, a lot of things... a computer at home would probably be at the top of my list.
BUT.. id LOVE to do some major travelling next year.. as in personal naman.. not for work.. and with the friends i love to bits. doesnt matter if its domestic or international. :p
26. What was your favorite film of this year?
shux. i cant think of it right now... :p though i idnt watch too many movies this year... :p i guess nothing struck me that much.
27. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i turned 24. :) the work day was fairly regular... my accounts team surprised me with lunch at aristocrat. then i really didnt have anything else planned.. maybe a quiet nigt with whoever of my friends were available... apparently si pau lang ang pwede ma-kidnap right before his grading. BUT! mush to my delight... and happiness, i got surprised to have most of my friends in masas... oh, im sure you read about it in a previous post... :p thanks again, mel. best birthday so far.
28. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
the truth? i wouldve wanted to have shared my year not only with friends but with a 'special friend' too... how pa-girl, i know.
29. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
experimental, and bravely mainstream (?) haha. does that make sense?
30. What kept you sane?
my great friends of all shapes and sizes... and gender. hehehe.
31. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
john prats. im a sucker for a good dancer.. can i help it? too bad he's short... and younger.
and jericho rosales. baduy n kung baduy, but i still think he's cute.
32. What political issue stirred you the most?
the FPJ/Susan Roces season..
33. Who do you miss?
close friends who, for one reason or another, i dont see as often as i used to. *tear*
34. Who was the best new person you met?
haha. for lack of anyone else to mention, it would have to be that mystery guy i blogged about a few months ago. he probably isnt ALL THAT, but yung timing of when i met him lang and the effect he had on me (and ainee?) is fun to think of. haha.
35. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005
always save some for yourself... thats not being selfish.
Saturday, December 31
pyro-olympics
we went to watch the pyro olypics at roxas last night and it was some experience. traffic was crazy going there.. we literally just stopped in the middle of macapagal, parked, got out of the car and set up our stools my the damuhan. of course this was because a hundred other cars in front f us did the same thing.
anyway, i really wasnt expecting to get great pictures of the fireworks since malayo kami naka upo and my camera isnt that high-tech... plus, i was only going to figure out which setting would be cool to use one the display actually started.. opportunity to play around with my camera lang. but i did get some cool shots... thanks to my shaky hand. :p
(still fixing the photos.. to follow...)
syempre hindi mawawala ang kodakan with the family! :)
anyway, i really wasnt expecting to get great pictures of the fireworks since malayo kami naka upo and my camera isnt that high-tech... plus, i was only going to figure out which setting would be cool to use one the display actually started.. opportunity to play around with my camera lang. but i did get some cool shots... thanks to my shaky hand. :p
(still fixing the photos.. to follow...)
syempre hindi mawawala ang kodakan with the family! :)
Sunday, December 25
two-faced dutch boy
every year on Christmas Eve, my family and i hear mass a few streets away and have noche buena either in our house or a cousin's house (depending on whose turn it is to host). after eating and opening gifts, we head home and open our gifts to each other along with our other office gifts. this year, i expected it to be exactly the same. boy, was i wrong.
my sister, ria, left for work before midnight to make her 1am shift at RCBC tower. a little passed midnight mom got a call from her saying someone bumped our car from behind. mom gave her instructions on what to do and hung up. a few minutes later, she got another call from her and this time, mom was not prepared to hear what my sister had to say. apparently, the asshole who drove into our car banged her head on the hood and tried to run her over when she fell on the ground. luckily some guards from GT tower were there.
my brother, my brother in law, and 2 of my cousins rushed to makati (from BF paranaque) to come to her rescue... my tito, who was in san lo was the first to get there.
so the drama begins. a little background on my family (mommy's side)... no one messes with the girls of our family and gets away with it. (side kwento: when the twins went on their prom, the whole clan was at the coffee shop 'chaperoning'...)
so this dutch guy was in for some bad shit for what he did. good thing no one punched him coz it turns out, the guy had shriveled left limbs... im sorry for sounding so politically incorrect but this guy really pissed everyone off tonight.
when they reached precint 6, the guy denies everything! the nerve! and he even unfolds this whole drama as he enters the precint in his small thingie that moves him around (closest description i have is a mini golf cart). so he denies everything, says everyone is ganging up on him, calls the dutch ambassador, refuses to give his name, and refuses to move! by this time even the pinoy police are getting pissed at his arrogance.
long story short, i just got home and as we speak they are getting my sister's statement, that guy's statement, and a guard witnesses' statement. we're pressing charges of course... assault and physical injury... just so he gets detained until he can post bail on tuesday.
im soooooo pissed right now at the nerve of the guy to deny and lie! i would LOVE to at least get to punch him or kick him where it hurts. he does all this on Christmas day no less!!!
actually, everyone is angry right now. but im glad my sister is okay. last time she texted me, she said she was still shaking and really pissed at that liar.
im going to wait until she gets home. and i hope that guy gets what he deserves.
my sister, ria, left for work before midnight to make her 1am shift at RCBC tower. a little passed midnight mom got a call from her saying someone bumped our car from behind. mom gave her instructions on what to do and hung up. a few minutes later, she got another call from her and this time, mom was not prepared to hear what my sister had to say. apparently, the asshole who drove into our car banged her head on the hood and tried to run her over when she fell on the ground. luckily some guards from GT tower were there.
my brother, my brother in law, and 2 of my cousins rushed to makati (from BF paranaque) to come to her rescue... my tito, who was in san lo was the first to get there.
so the drama begins. a little background on my family (mommy's side)... no one messes with the girls of our family and gets away with it. (side kwento: when the twins went on their prom, the whole clan was at the coffee shop 'chaperoning'...)
so this dutch guy was in for some bad shit for what he did. good thing no one punched him coz it turns out, the guy had shriveled left limbs... im sorry for sounding so politically incorrect but this guy really pissed everyone off tonight.
when they reached precint 6, the guy denies everything! the nerve! and he even unfolds this whole drama as he enters the precint in his small thingie that moves him around (closest description i have is a mini golf cart). so he denies everything, says everyone is ganging up on him, calls the dutch ambassador, refuses to give his name, and refuses to move! by this time even the pinoy police are getting pissed at his arrogance.
long story short, i just got home and as we speak they are getting my sister's statement, that guy's statement, and a guard witnesses' statement. we're pressing charges of course... assault and physical injury... just so he gets detained until he can post bail on tuesday.
im soooooo pissed right now at the nerve of the guy to deny and lie! i would LOVE to at least get to punch him or kick him where it hurts. he does all this on Christmas day no less!!!
actually, everyone is angry right now. but im glad my sister is okay. last time she texted me, she said she was still shaking and really pissed at that liar.
im going to wait until she gets home. and i hope that guy gets what he deserves.
Wednesday, December 21
estupor borracho
last night was a blast. had so much fun at the christmas party... well, a little too much fun according to my mom. :p ay nako, i dont think ill ever hear the end of it!
every year during corplan or christmas party, someone always gets drunk... this year was my year.
julette, kaye and i made our grand and uber late entrance as el cheap-o badings... and we were the official GROs of the night. basta walang sumasayaw, kami tinatawag.. sayaw naman kami! haha. it was fun. anyway, im sure ill hear all the stories up to next year about how drunk i got, but id rather remember how much fun i had dancing (still drunk). haha.
many thanks to everyone who, in one way or another, took care of me... anton, paulo, rap, mang noli, mister manny bede, kaye, apple, anna, julette.... and everyone else.. i really wont be able to remember everyone given my drunken state.
got nominated for celebrity look alike and the the loveteam award. and pau came as a dick head.. how appropriate... the juding and the nota!
photos at my multiply site. kampai!
every year during corplan or christmas party, someone always gets drunk... this year was my year.
julette, kaye and i made our grand and uber late entrance as el cheap-o badings... and we were the official GROs of the night. basta walang sumasayaw, kami tinatawag.. sayaw naman kami! haha. it was fun. anyway, im sure ill hear all the stories up to next year about how drunk i got, but id rather remember how much fun i had dancing (still drunk). haha.
many thanks to everyone who, in one way or another, took care of me... anton, paulo, rap, mang noli, mister manny bede, kaye, apple, anna, julette.... and everyone else.. i really wont be able to remember everyone given my drunken state.
got nominated for celebrity look alike and the the loveteam award. and pau came as a dick head.. how appropriate... the juding and the nota!
photos at my multiply site. kampai!
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