di ko maintindihan...
bakit ginagawang malaking problema and isang bagay na hindi naman talaga problema.
bakit pilit ginagawang mahirap ang buhay, hindi naman kailangan.
bakit sa lahat ng oras na mangyari ang mga "problema", NGAYON PA?!!??!?!!
WHATS UP??? please release me, let me go...
departing from my very angry thursday, i spent the night at tricia's place to get some "stuff" done. hay. im back to being "dotted" again.. well, at least for the next 5 days or so.
today's concern is about finding a place in hcm. gosh. i really hope i find the perfect place that suits most of my qualifications!!! if im going to be alone there for quite a while, then i might as well find a place that will keep me happy. haha. baka cause pa ng lungkot ko yung tirahan ko. hahahaha.
so, if anyone knows of affordable ($500-$600) apartments in district 1, please let me know. i swear, pupuntahan ko every single vacancy if it means finding the perfect one.
okay. i feel much better today compared to last week's state of panic. haha. slowly but surely im getting work done and getting things ready for when i leave. i suppose i have enough time. if not, i will have to make do with the time i have.
got to go on my physical check-up this morning. timing was good coz i finished fast. although, im still in shock after being (wo)manhandled by the doctor. hahaha.
a new countdown begins. since i really dont have a ticket just yet, im counting down until the 26th of july.
im quite sure my patience isnt running short over a particular client because im leaving. i have been feeling this growing sense of frustration, disappointment and disgust at how some people (no matter how nice they are) manage to take advantage of gasso. and we let them. malapit na ako dumating dun sa 'tama na, sobra na. to hell with you.'
its not a matter of amount of money but more of principle of it. we are in business afterall to make money... heck, we work our asses off and manage to smile at the end of a really sucky week because we all need to make money for ourselves. ano ba naman yung ibigay what is due... fairly proportionate for the quality and amount of work, effort, thought and passion was put into it.
hindi naman sa ATM ko didiretcho yung pera, but i care enough for gasso to feel slighted by this. hay nako. minsan nakakasuka na talaga. i think im most happy im leaving at times like this.
since pat has made an informal announcement already, i might as well make my official statement.
june 17, i have my resignation from GASSO after 5 colorful years. to say the decision to leave was easy is true. not because i harbor any ill feelings towards the company, but because the opportunity feels right. i could go on about all my fondest memories here at GASSO but that might just make me senti. for now it will be safe to say that i have had a LOT of firsts here. next time na yung senti post. maybe on my last day (which incidentally is GASSO's anniversary).
so where am i moving to? vietnam to work for Cowan Design, still as a senior account manager but handling south / southeast asia. starting around end of july i will be living in ho chi minh (aka saigon). yun lang. plain and simple but its the biggest decision ive made so far, and im proud of myself. :D
i have a growing list of things to do before i leave. hahaha. more updates to come for sure!!!
thak you to everyone who prayed for me... :) this would not have been possible if not for your support. i ask you please keep me in your prayers.
i have to write this down, or else im going to flip out. my fingers are cold.. well, so are my feet come to think of it. my heart is pounding to say the least. it feels like its beating its way out of my chest cavity. tomorrow lunch is SO DAMN FAR AWAY!
i hope things go well... that this anxiety is a sign of better things to come. please say a prayer or two for me.
i still cannot get over how moved i am by lora and larry's story. no matter how i try to put it into words, its really hard to explain how they have touched me. i dont know if its because ive grown more and more jaded and their relationship has reminded me that great things can and still do happen. in any case, it was a powerful event to witness.
everything was perfect in all its simplicity. balai taal looked so serene and cozy, larry looked excited but calm, and lora.. my goodness, lora... what can i say. she was stunning. i will have to admit that some brides dont look like themselves on their wedding day. they're beautiful, yes. but its like its some other person. lora was radiant... but you can still clearly see her quirky-ness shining through the beautiful bride that she was that day. :) naks. everything just felt familiar, cozy and sincere. there. that's the word i was looking for. SINCERE. i think every single guest really felt the essence of their relationship. and that's a rare thing to take away from attending a wedding.
anyway, im starting to sound looney. hahaha. to lora and larry, may you continue to inspire more people the way you have inspired me. :) im glad you guys have your happy ever after.
oh, and its was really great to see the girls again. kahit na for a time nagpaka-auti tayo sa table natin chatting away.. hahaha. we should get together more often.. and talk about C and her infamous glasses and neon socks again. hehehehehe.
i cant wait to take it out for a spin. wuhooooo!!!
* borrowed photo from eBay
yay. my low EQ made me decide to get the autosampler through the US lomo site... deadma na difference in cost. i want to get it na now. hahaha. we're talking of a few hundred pesos difference lang naman. pwede na rin if it means ill get it the same time lily does. i might die of envy if lils gets hers first. :p
can't wait for lily to tell me it's here na. weeeeeeeeeeeeee!
konting tiis na lang...
the hunt is on for the best deal. buti na lang talaga i will likely end up back in hongkong in the next few months. ni-research ko talaga, and apparently they manufacture it in shenzen and they have a sales office in kowloon!!! either that or i get it on ebay. :p
hmmm... i wonder if i can still say im "not a fan". hahahaha.
the last of my paul arden quotes... for now. i guess his point was really simple...
SIMPLY CHANGE YOUR LIFE
The world is what you think of it.
So think of it differently and your life will change.
--- Paul Arden
... the hardest to learn was the least complicated.
Talent helps, but it won’t take you as far as ambition.
Everybody wants to be good, but not many are as prepared to make the sacrifices it takes to be great.
Most people are looking for a solution, a way to become good. There is no instant solution, the only way to learn is through experience and mistakes.
--- Paul Arden
Im down to my last few quotes from "whatever you think, think the opposite".
NO ONE BUT NO.1
It is fashionable for so-called thinking people to try to lose their ego.
Well, they should think a bit harder. Presumably we were given egos for a reason.
Great people have great egos; maybe that’s what makes them great.
So let us put it to good use rather than try to deny it.
--- Paul Arden
people with severe control issues, or OCD are going to have a hard time with this one. haha. though my control issues aren't severe, i still find immense comfort knowing that i know what im getting myself into and im prepared for it --- plan B, C and D ready. generally speaking of course.
DO IT THEN FIX IT AS YOU GO
Too many people spend too much time trying to perfect something before they actually do it.
Instead of waiting for perfection, run with what you’ve got, and fix it as you go.
--- Paul Arden
THE CASE FOR BEING RECKLESS
When we were young we jump into the pool whether we can swim or not.
We have no fear. Either we swim or we drown.
Before we turn thirty, important things happen to us which shape the rest of our lives.
The first is:
We become aware of ourselves and our own thinking. We reach the age of reason.
The second is:
In a new-found maturity we begin to think in a more adult way.
We become grown up.
Recklessness and risk are not compatible with age.
Risk becomes something which must be carefully considered.
--- Paul Arden
food for thought for the day... seems appropriate since mel said something about wrong decisions and regret...
DECISIONS DECISIONS DECISIONS.
When you look back there will be things you will regret.
You made the wrong decision.
Wrong.
You made the right decision.
Life is about right decisions. Whatever decision you make is the only one you could make. Otherwise you would make a different one.
Everything we do, we choose. So what is there to regret?
You are the person you choose to be.
--- Paul Arden (whatever you think think the opposite)
I WISH
I wish means: wouldn’t it be nice if…
If you always make the right decision, the safe decision, the one most people make, you will be the same as everyone else.
Always wishing life was different.
I WANT
I want means: if I want it enough I will get it.
Getting what you want means making the decisions you need to make to get what you want. Not the decisions those around you think you should make.
Making the safe decision is dull, predictable and leads to nowhere new.
The unsafe decision causes you to think and respond in a way you hadn’t thought of. And that thought would lead to other thoughts which would help you achieve what you want.
Start taking bad decisions and it will take you to a place where only others dream of being.
--- Paul Arden
