im sneaking a 2-day leave this week --- friday and monday. yay!
my to-do list while on work break:
1. fix my body clock... ive been having a hard time sleeping at night and an even harder time waking up in the morning. hopefully by tuesday, i can manage to wake up my usual 630am again.
2. go to the dentist
3. clean op my closet... time to make space for more shopping. hahahaha!
4. watch Heroes... i cant wait!!!
Thursday, July 12
Monday, July 9
red dot on white paper or white paper with a red dot?
people will choose to see things in a way that suits them best or in ways that are second nature to them. thats how people are built. thats how im built. so if people choose to see my flaws... my quirks... my bad habits, i cant blame them. because i do have flaws, quirks and bad habits and i should not have to apologize for them.
i choose to see the better things in this. i choose to see the people who see the good in me. i smile today because of the few who see the bigger me rather than seeing just a small part of me.
"we gossip because its fun. you gossip... i gossip. it just hurts when the gossip turns out to be about you" --- hilary duff
i choose to see the better things in this. i choose to see the people who see the good in me. i smile today because of the few who see the bigger me rather than seeing just a small part of me.
"we gossip because its fun. you gossip... i gossip. it just hurts when the gossip turns out to be about you" --- hilary duff
out with the old.. in with the new
i was fixing my clean laundry just a few minutes ago when i realized i was seriously running out of closet space! well, my closet aint that big to begin with cause i really dont have a lot of clothes, but to see it almost overflowing like that means only one thing... time to sort the out and dispose of some of my clothes. stressful. hahaha.
i wonder where all the clothes came from? i rarely go shopping nowadays and yesterday's shopping gig resulted in just 6 items to add to my closet. hmmm... something fishy is going on.
in any case, im a firm believer than for new energies to come into our lives, it is importatnt to regularly toss out the old stuff to make room for the new ones to come pouring in. similarly symbolic to the cutting of my hair. hahaha. (obvious bang i want to move on from certain things... im just itching to get rid of some really negative vibes!)
maybe next weekend ill be able to face the sorting of my clothes... i should remember to buy boxes this week --- throw, give away, sell, keep.
i wonder where all the clothes came from? i rarely go shopping nowadays and yesterday's shopping gig resulted in just 6 items to add to my closet. hmmm... something fishy is going on.
in any case, im a firm believer than for new energies to come into our lives, it is importatnt to regularly toss out the old stuff to make room for the new ones to come pouring in. similarly symbolic to the cutting of my hair. hahaha. (obvious bang i want to move on from certain things... im just itching to get rid of some really negative vibes!)
maybe next weekend ill be able to face the sorting of my clothes... i should remember to buy boxes this week --- throw, give away, sell, keep.
Sunday, July 8
seven-seven-oh seven
tickle me!
spent the day with lily... shopping! hahaha. actually, i shopped, she kept me company. i swear, that girl has the highest EQ. hahaha. then agan, she's off to singapore and bangkok... so she shouldnt really buy stuff here muna.
i was so giddy about it that i was just two bags into my shopping but i was smiling ear to ear already. haha. retail therapy rocks!
next on my expense list is my hair. eeeeee! im excited already. hahaha. i love cutting my hair. its like im physically cutting off the things that have passed. medjo too much of a symbolism for a simple haircut, but i like to think of it that way. haha.
while waiting for my sister, lily and i got to talking about something ive been toying in im head for quite a while now. i think im going to go for it. ill be praying things fall into place as planned or even better than planned. i just needed that extra nudge from lily. fingers crossed!
so between the shopping and the exciting new plan, yesterday was G-R-E-A-T.
spent the day with lily... shopping! hahaha. actually, i shopped, she kept me company. i swear, that girl has the highest EQ. hahaha. then agan, she's off to singapore and bangkok... so she shouldnt really buy stuff here muna.
i was so giddy about it that i was just two bags into my shopping but i was smiling ear to ear already. haha. retail therapy rocks!
next on my expense list is my hair. eeeeee! im excited already. hahaha. i love cutting my hair. its like im physically cutting off the things that have passed. medjo too much of a symbolism for a simple haircut, but i like to think of it that way. haha.
while waiting for my sister, lily and i got to talking about something ive been toying in im head for quite a while now. i think im going to go for it. ill be praying things fall into place as planned or even better than planned. i just needed that extra nudge from lily. fingers crossed!
so between the shopping and the exciting new plan, yesterday was G-R-E-A-T.
Friday, July 6
of climbing rats, dancing shoes, and more
climbing rats
i was waiting in line for the shuttle when i noticed some movement around 20 meters away... i thought they were kittens playing. to my surprise, they were 4 (or 5 maybe) rats playing outside that house.. PLAYING! they were swinging and jumping around on this shrub's flimsy stems ala tarzan and climbing the house's wall. as in a 7-foot wall... and they were climbing it... as in vertical climb. kinilabutan talaga ako. THERE'S NO ESCAPING THEM! they jump, they climb, they knaw on stuff. *shudder*
anyhow, i was a good distance from their frolicking so i was watching them for a good 5 minutes or so, when i realized.... THEY WERE RUNNUNG ON THE TREE BRANCHES OF THE TREE I WAS STANDING UNDER. i almost freaked out. there were 2 more playing tag on the branches. yuck. buti na lang the van came right at the time i saw and was ready to run all the way to makati.
MENTAL NOTE: bring umbrella next time i line up at banzon.
i want to dance
dancing is my ultimate release and i miss it. i miss the non-verbal expression... the release of energy and emotion... the sweat and the rush of it all. stumbled on thiis on kikay exchange and as i was watching her videos, i felt like i was ready to jump out of my seat and dance too... hahaha. that would have been a sight.
july 5
yesterday was a really tiring day. i spent the whole day cooped up in the 4As seminar at dusit. while i was happy at the thought of not being at the office and being unreachable by naggers, it kinda felt weird to be in the same seat for a whole work day.
i learned a lot during the seminar and im thoroughly thankful they sent me. but when the seminar ended at 530, the rain was pouring hard outside! tough luck for me.. i had to haul my ass to ABS-CBN to take a video-message of maricel soriano for the sales team. traffic and all, i got there. thanks to marj who kept me company and shielded me from her taray kilays.
i was done by 9pm. chumika rin ako ng slight kay marya and bec to remind myself i should be happy im not in showbiz. good thing hindi na umuulan at wala nang traffic sa edsa going back to makati. but my luck seems to be on vacation kasi unusually long ang pila sa shuttle going home! as in umiikot-ikot pa.
long story short, i was home by 11pm but weirdly enough was in a friendly and cheerful mood. pero pagod ang katawan... ng-O.
i was waiting in line for the shuttle when i noticed some movement around 20 meters away... i thought they were kittens playing. to my surprise, they were 4 (or 5 maybe) rats playing outside that house.. PLAYING! they were swinging and jumping around on this shrub's flimsy stems ala tarzan and climbing the house's wall. as in a 7-foot wall... and they were climbing it... as in vertical climb. kinilabutan talaga ako. THERE'S NO ESCAPING THEM! they jump, they climb, they knaw on stuff. *shudder*
anyhow, i was a good distance from their frolicking so i was watching them for a good 5 minutes or so, when i realized.... THEY WERE RUNNUNG ON THE TREE BRANCHES OF THE TREE I WAS STANDING UNDER. i almost freaked out. there were 2 more playing tag on the branches. yuck. buti na lang the van came right at the time i saw and was ready to run all the way to makati.
MENTAL NOTE: bring umbrella next time i line up at banzon.
i want to dance
dancing is my ultimate release and i miss it. i miss the non-verbal expression... the release of energy and emotion... the sweat and the rush of it all. stumbled on thiis on kikay exchange and as i was watching her videos, i felt like i was ready to jump out of my seat and dance too... hahaha. that would have been a sight.
july 5
yesterday was a really tiring day. i spent the whole day cooped up in the 4As seminar at dusit. while i was happy at the thought of not being at the office and being unreachable by naggers, it kinda felt weird to be in the same seat for a whole work day.
i learned a lot during the seminar and im thoroughly thankful they sent me. but when the seminar ended at 530, the rain was pouring hard outside! tough luck for me.. i had to haul my ass to ABS-CBN to take a video-message of maricel soriano for the sales team. traffic and all, i got there. thanks to marj who kept me company and shielded me from her taray kilays.
i was done by 9pm. chumika rin ako ng slight kay marya and bec to remind myself i should be happy im not in showbiz. good thing hindi na umuulan at wala nang traffic sa edsa going back to makati. but my luck seems to be on vacation kasi unusually long ang pila sa shuttle going home! as in umiikot-ikot pa.
long story short, i was home by 11pm but weirdly enough was in a friendly and cheerful mood. pero pagod ang katawan... ng-O.
Tuesday, July 3
the ultimate taray
ive had my exposure to marya's taray... matched with mama bec and wyngard's own versions and i think i survived well. even if she totally killed me when she unleashed her taray in the halls of ABS... in front of kris aquino, no less. or when she first tried to assasinate me when she refused to wear the tvc wardrobe on the rated k guesting simply because she's worn it in public before. oh, and that day was extra bad because korina had to join in the "taray fest". pero makapal face ko.. deadma.
ive been surprised by chit ramos' sweetness which is total opposite of her reputation. i love that woman. even if forever nya ako nilalaglag about john prats. hahaha.
today, i meet face to face with the ultimate taray... ms. anabelle rama (im actually unsure if she's the ultimate taray or if lolit solis is... i think she might win it). hahahaha. we've been in touch over the phone the past days to coordinate for today's event but im honestly nervous about meeting her in person. baka sampalin ako for no reason at all! hahahaha.
im trying to focus na lang on meeting the gutierrez twins instead... at least i have something nice to look at. hahahaha.
nervous or not, its time to go! wish me luck!
ive been surprised by chit ramos' sweetness which is total opposite of her reputation. i love that woman. even if forever nya ako nilalaglag about john prats. hahaha.
today, i meet face to face with the ultimate taray... ms. anabelle rama (im actually unsure if she's the ultimate taray or if lolit solis is... i think she might win it). hahahaha. we've been in touch over the phone the past days to coordinate for today's event but im honestly nervous about meeting her in person. baka sampalin ako for no reason at all! hahahaha.
im trying to focus na lang on meeting the gutierrez twins instead... at least i have something nice to look at. hahahaha.
nervous or not, its time to go! wish me luck!
Monday, July 2
someone please explain
i end up saying what i want to anyways... its true. even if i bite my tongue to keep myself from saying something, at some point in time... in one way or another, i always manage to say what i want. and im exercising that fact.
i hate playing games. and it seems that because i hate playing games, i tend to attract people who play nothing but games --- some even have the nerve of denying that they are in fact typical guys... typical players. i know there are lessons to be learned from all the shit... because life would not even bother putting me through it if there arent lessons to be learned, but right now, it just irritates the hell out of me. im sick of the games people play. im sick of being played with. im sick of sticking my head out... of holding on to hope that this time it might be different.
if there is a "match" for everyone out there... if the so-called balance in everything in this world does exist, then he's taking too much of his time getting here. why should i even bother?! i know the answer to that one... i bother because im still the sickly hopeless romantic that i naturally am. im just a little bruised and broken right now.
P.S. no cliche responses please. call me cynical.. call me negative, but ill be honest and say hearing cliches make me feel sick these days. they just dont make me feel better anymore.
i hate playing games. and it seems that because i hate playing games, i tend to attract people who play nothing but games --- some even have the nerve of denying that they are in fact typical guys... typical players. i know there are lessons to be learned from all the shit... because life would not even bother putting me through it if there arent lessons to be learned, but right now, it just irritates the hell out of me. im sick of the games people play. im sick of being played with. im sick of sticking my head out... of holding on to hope that this time it might be different.
if there is a "match" for everyone out there... if the so-called balance in everything in this world does exist, then he's taking too much of his time getting here. why should i even bother?! i know the answer to that one... i bother because im still the sickly hopeless romantic that i naturally am. im just a little bruised and broken right now.
P.S. no cliche responses please. call me cynical.. call me negative, but ill be honest and say hearing cliches make me feel sick these days. they just dont make me feel better anymore.
Wednesday, June 27
vins' bright idea
i have no idea what gave him the bright idea to stick his pokemon on himself... but it sure entertained us for quite a while. hahahaha. crazy boy... and look, nauto pa pati ninang nya! hahahaha.
back in the day
looking back at old photos sure has made me feel stupid. i remember thinking i was fat back in college... if i could go back in time, it slap myself. haha. i wasnt fat. i was flat, but not fat. even with the ass and hips.
sigh.
sigh.
Monday, June 25
weird dreams
i couldnt remember everthing, but here are some elements from dreams i had last week:
1. i had measles (again)
To dream that you have measles, signifies much worry and anxiety in your life that will interfere with your job or schooling.
To see others with measles in your dream, denotes that the troubling situation and condition of others will give you much worry.
2. i was given several injections
To dream that you are being injected for health reasons, suggests your need for healing behavior/ideas/attitudes. You need to develop yourself on a mental and spiritual level.
To see a syringe in your dream, signifies that you need to inject more enthusiasm, fun, or determination into your life. Consider also the contents of the syringe and how it would effect you.
From a Freudian perspective, the needle and its contents represents the penis and intercourse.
3. spiders
To see a spider in your dream, indicates that you are feeling like an outsider in some situation. Or that you may want to keep your distance and stay away from an alluring and tempting situation. The spider is also symbolic of feminine power. Alternatively, a spider may refer to a powerful force protecting you against your self-destructive behavior. If you kill a spider, it symbolizes misfortune and general bad luck.
I think im watching too much grey's anatomy.. but it calms me. so im not stopping. until i finish the season. hahaha. then i can move on to heroes.
(interpretations care of dreammoods.com)
1. i had measles (again)
To dream that you have measles, signifies much worry and anxiety in your life that will interfere with your job or schooling.
To see others with measles in your dream, denotes that the troubling situation and condition of others will give you much worry.
2. i was given several injections
To dream that you are being injected for health reasons, suggests your need for healing behavior/ideas/attitudes. You need to develop yourself on a mental and spiritual level.
To see a syringe in your dream, signifies that you need to inject more enthusiasm, fun, or determination into your life. Consider also the contents of the syringe and how it would effect you.
From a Freudian perspective, the needle and its contents represents the penis and intercourse.
3. spiders
To see a spider in your dream, indicates that you are feeling like an outsider in some situation. Or that you may want to keep your distance and stay away from an alluring and tempting situation. The spider is also symbolic of feminine power. Alternatively, a spider may refer to a powerful force protecting you against your self-destructive behavior. If you kill a spider, it symbolizes misfortune and general bad luck.
I think im watching too much grey's anatomy.. but it calms me. so im not stopping. until i finish the season. hahaha. then i can move on to heroes.
(interpretations care of dreammoods.com)
Monday, June 18
bakit ang bigat?
i used to find such joy in just being here. sure, it was mostly because of the friends i made, but the general feeling of sitting at the table never felt this "heavy".
Friday, June 15
feeling old at 25
i feel old today. not only do i feel old, i LOOK old too.
we were looking at mac make-up here at the office, when i happened to look at my face in this mirror... and i was alarmed to see wrinkles under my eyes. sadness. not only to i have dark circles there, i have wrinkles too!
makes me think of this line in one of our old stresstabs commercials... mukha pa ba akong 25?!
we were looking at mac make-up here at the office, when i happened to look at my face in this mirror... and i was alarmed to see wrinkles under my eyes. sadness. not only to i have dark circles there, i have wrinkles too!
makes me think of this line in one of our old stresstabs commercials... mukha pa ba akong 25?!
Wednesday, June 13
it will have to wait...
i set my eyes out for a vacation in july. but it seems it will have to wait... for several reasons.
its still early to know for sure, but right now it seems that ill have to wait for another opportunity to go. maybe there's a very pleasant surprise at the end of this all.
its still early to know for sure, but right now it seems that ill have to wait for another opportunity to go. maybe there's a very pleasant surprise at the end of this all.
Saturday, June 9
what a week: hard labor and bora regrets
HARD LABOR
this week went by so fast, im still in shock. im happy though that i can cross out a bunch of my projects in my to-do list.. but waking up this morning and realizing how much pain im in, wasnt a good way to wake up. haha.
monday, i went to pick up my parents at the airport... im so happy theyre home! although i wont actually get to spend time with them for the next days, knowing they're home leaves a warm feeling.
tuesday, up by 5am to get ready for pick-up at 6am. whole day shoot which ended around 9pm. home by 1030-ish, slept at 2am-ish. (ill post about the shoots some other time...)
wednesday, half asleep for most of it. started with an 830am instant print shoot to which i was late because of damn sucat traffic. i was thinking i could go home after the afternoon print shoot but ended up leaving the office at 9pm... had to release a whole bunch of files pa pala AFTER yet another instant client presentation (snaps to my creatives for the instant boards!).
thursday, running low on energy from the beating my body took the days before. spent the day at the office. my boss got rushed to the hospital though... i hope she and the baby will be okay.
friday, up at 4am (no exag) for 5am pick up. location shoot was tough because it was hot, and we were moving around so much. but i still had fun. finished late. couldnt go to karla's despedida party anymore because i was literally drained. i was out cold almost as soon as my head hit the bed. hahaha.
today, i head to pasig to keep shoti company while the rest of the family is in HK. wawa naman sevi... dont worry, ninang will bring you to disney when you're a little bigger. :p
BORA REGRETS
i havent had much time, energy and focus to do some serious life thinking... and im in search of a good retreat i can go to, so i can have thinking time. miah mentioned there was one this weekend in boracay for a really reasonable cost. i had to decline because i wasnt sure i agreed with the organizing group's views on some points in religion. i didnt want to go and confuse or frustrate myself. and a very minor reason is i wouldnt want to be in boracay and be stuck in a session hall for 3 days... thats torture!
on my way home last night, i gave her a call to ask her about her final plans on it. it turns out, theyre staying at boracay tropics and the sessions are only in the morning and in the evening!!! sayang!!!!!!! i could have gotten a retreat AND a vacation... IN BORACAY. o well... nasa huli ang pagsisisi.
i really didnt want to write about this, but this morning i realize it might be a good thing to do.
late late last year, i met someone and although the manner by which we met was less than ideal for me, i found myself being open to things. and the next two months was spent talking non-stop and visits before and after work (before his, which was after mine... then after his, which was before mine. hahaha.) things we're going well, actually. we talked about a whole range of things.. from mundane to serious topics and never did i feel uncomfortable with it.
long story short, all that time, i kept telling myself to keep im mind he was just being friendly. but i still cant blame myself if at a time i did think something was there. i mean, i dont think i was being assuming given we just met and yet he can have dinner with me and my mom, and stuff. after a few months (and by few, i mean 2), suddenly wala na. hahaha. just like that. no nothing. weird. if i was confused by the "game" before meeting him, i was REALLY confused.
does it really have to be a game? im sure there's a simpler way of going about this whole relationships thing. i was thinking maybe the game just evolved because people got hurt by other people and the game became a defense mechanism, or a test to weed out possible 'hurt-ers'. if that's the case, then its ironic that even more people are hurt by the game.
personally, i dont get the point of the game. haha. i dont know how to play it. and im not sure if i want to learn to.
Saturday, June 2
what a week ahead...
woke up this morning and realized how fast this week is going to be.
Monday - i have the whole morning to do my stuff because i have a 3pm all the way down south. then its time to pick up my parents at the airport!
Tuesday - whole day shoot. enchanted kingdom, here i come!
Wednesday - shoot again... but only in the afternoon.
Thursday - afternoon contract signing
Friday - whole day shoot (again)
then its weekend again!!!! weeeee!!!
i really, really, REALLY hope it doest rain this week... especially on my shoot days.
Monday - i have the whole morning to do my stuff because i have a 3pm all the way down south. then its time to pick up my parents at the airport!
Tuesday - whole day shoot. enchanted kingdom, here i come!
Wednesday - shoot again... but only in the afternoon.
Thursday - afternoon contract signing
Friday - whole day shoot (again)
then its weekend again!!!! weeeee!!!
i really, really, REALLY hope it doest rain this week... especially on my shoot days.
Wednesday, May 30
who says that eyes are the windows to the soul?!
someone once told me (im not sure if it was mel or pau) that the key to knowing what i really feel or what mood im in, is my hair. gosh, ang babaw ko pala talagang tao! oddly enough, sometimes i find it to be true. its either a good hair day swings me into a good mood or my good mood magically makes my hair look fantastic. hahaha!
when once our kasambahay told me that i look different on weekends. despite the times i barely had a wink's sleep from staying out, i look happier and fresh on weekends. or so she says. on weekdays, mukha daw pasan ko daigdig. my eyebags are darker, deeper and puffier. niiiiiice. i wonder how much truth there is to her observation? am i just naturally happier to be home than at work?
so today, i decided to keep my hair neatly (and painstakingly OC-ish) in a low ponytail with my usual straight diagonal part. my side-swept bangs are behaved, and my ponytail isnt tikwas like it normally would. today is a great hair day. so, if the hair-theory is true, then today should be a great day.
that has yet to be determined. :p
when once our kasambahay told me that i look different on weekends. despite the times i barely had a wink's sleep from staying out, i look happier and fresh on weekends. or so she says. on weekdays, mukha daw pasan ko daigdig. my eyebags are darker, deeper and puffier. niiiiiice. i wonder how much truth there is to her observation? am i just naturally happier to be home than at work?
so today, i decided to keep my hair neatly (and painstakingly OC-ish) in a low ponytail with my usual straight diagonal part. my side-swept bangs are behaved, and my ponytail isnt tikwas like it normally would. today is a great hair day. so, if the hair-theory is true, then today should be a great day.
that has yet to be determined. :p
Monday, May 28
someone give back my happy thoughts
what do you do when you wake up one afternoon and you realize you lost your happy thought? i dont know when, why or how it happened, but i just lost mine. I LOST IT. how can i lose my happy thought?!
if someone sees it, please give it back.
if someone sees it, please give it back.
Tuesday, May 22
the day i met john
totally caught off guard (understatement).
going about official business at cibo ABS... i shouldnt have underestimated tita chit. i was literally blown away... ang bilis ng mga pangyayari. the next thing i knew, katabi ko na si john prats. AS IN! i could not look at him... hahaha. di ko kinaya. wasnt prepared at all!!!
good thing, little girl had the best idea of insisting i have my picture taken with him... so she got my phone, and was trying to get the camera ready... ano sabi ko? "wag yan, may camera ako sa bag ako..." hahahahahahaha! nagpaka-fan. buti na lang talaga may camera ako lagi sa bag ko. kasi ang pangit ng resolution ng photos sa phone ko.
but it doesnt end there... photo number two.. and what did i say? "five years kong hinintay 'to" bwahahahaha!!!!! ang jologs. hahahaha.
nag-short circuit utak ko. as in i could not think. i never thought that id meet him today. hahaha. and to top it all off... to add to my embarrasing one-liners... when tita chit kept taunting me by asking him to look at me kasi kamukha ko daw si kim (nung payat pa ha... importante yan i-qualify)... ano sabi ko? (to him) "ang kamukha ko sister mo..." Lord Almighty... sukdulan na talaga yun.
it was a really jologs moment... cold hands, cold sweat and all... hahaha. i have to redeem myself. im asking for a second meeting. and this time, im going to be prepared.
i am going to relish this for the next few days... OH HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY DAY.
Monday, May 21
Friday, May 18
World of Shell V-Power with Ferrari
NBC TENT10am to 10pm
free entrance
ferrari cars on display
trip to italy, trips to boracay and fuel cards to be given away
tons of activities for everyone
see yah there!
Thursday, May 17
end of an era
we all have fond memories of things, people, and places we grew up with. and last night marked the end of one of my fond highschool memories.
my cousin ana, whom i grew close to through the years, used to be the road manager for the wiseguys (not sure if anyone would be familiar with them). and around second year highschool, she started bringing me to their gigs... and mommy would only allow me to go out if i was with ana. so my gimik life literally was dependent on their gigs. i looked forward to fridays and saturdays when i get to watch them (usually at strumms, chatter box galle, and 8th day) and was sure to have much fun. kaya siguro maaga din ako na-expose sa mga green jokes ng all boy group. hahaha. come to think of it, grad ball date ko was a close friend of one of them. and right after the awarding (as in i didnt join the dancing dancing part), we headed straight to blue lizard along pasay road for their gig. they were part of the secret life i led. hahaha. mom had no idea id drink, and my schoolmates had no idea that the simple little me then had such a night life.
i carried over this habit onto college but i kinda stopped going around senior year (fiddler's green na kasi pinapanuod ko. hehehe) until when i started working.
but i digress... about last night. last night was precisely that... their last night. ana YM-ed me telling me they were disbanding... nakaka-sad. while we were there, i cant help but feel sentimental... my huge HS crush on Jam (na ngayon siguro minor crush na lang... he's still my favorite) how they'd tease me about my hips and ass (well, everyone does, and they still do), etc.
well, thats the end of it. i tried to take in allt he sights and sounds of last night... to add to the memories... memories that started nung nagdadalaga pa lang ako (yuck, ang baduy pakinggan).
ps. its funny they still see me as 'nene'... and even funnier they all say "angel, dalaga ka na..." to which im so tempted to say, "um, kasi 25 years old na ako... lampas na ako sa dlaaga stage." hahaha. unless they're referring to dalaga as in single woman. hahaha.
my cousin ana, whom i grew close to through the years, used to be the road manager for the wiseguys (not sure if anyone would be familiar with them). and around second year highschool, she started bringing me to their gigs... and mommy would only allow me to go out if i was with ana. so my gimik life literally was dependent on their gigs. i looked forward to fridays and saturdays when i get to watch them (usually at strumms, chatter box galle, and 8th day) and was sure to have much fun. kaya siguro maaga din ako na-expose sa mga green jokes ng all boy group. hahaha. come to think of it, grad ball date ko was a close friend of one of them. and right after the awarding (as in i didnt join the dancing dancing part), we headed straight to blue lizard along pasay road for their gig. they were part of the secret life i led. hahaha. mom had no idea id drink, and my schoolmates had no idea that the simple little me then had such a night life.
i carried over this habit onto college but i kinda stopped going around senior year (fiddler's green na kasi pinapanuod ko. hehehe) until when i started working.
but i digress... about last night. last night was precisely that... their last night. ana YM-ed me telling me they were disbanding... nakaka-sad. while we were there, i cant help but feel sentimental... my huge HS crush on Jam (na ngayon siguro minor crush na lang... he's still my favorite) how they'd tease me about my hips and ass (well, everyone does, and they still do), etc.
well, thats the end of it. i tried to take in allt he sights and sounds of last night... to add to the memories... memories that started nung nagdadalaga pa lang ako (yuck, ang baduy pakinggan).
ps. its funny they still see me as 'nene'... and even funnier they all say "angel, dalaga ka na..." to which im so tempted to say, "um, kasi 25 years old na ako... lampas na ako sa dlaaga stage." hahaha. unless they're referring to dalaga as in single woman. hahaha.
Monday, May 7
'tis the time for updates
MAY 5 - a day of finally's
FINALLY got to go to see the iCare cardiologist yesterday morning... and im getting my tests done on wednesday. if all goes well, i have the doctor's thoughts by the 26th of May (my next two weekends are booked). i hope that will put all my worries to an end.
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FINALLY got a haircut. my first for the year. hahaha. i was putting it off so my hair would really have the chance to grow. and i absolutely love how philippe gave me a bit of side-bangs this time. weee!
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FINALLY. this was the catch word for my cousin's wedding. and i got to host it with my other cousin. di kinaya ng kapal ng fez ko. nahiya ako. hahaha. funyn thing pa, i went straight to the reception and almost crashed the wrong reception!!! hahahaha. i still laugh when i think about it. imagine if i ended up hosting the wrong event! :p
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kontra lang... one thing that i havent had finality on is what i want to do with myself. it been keeping me up late at night and restless all day. one thing is for sure. i will have to embrace the process and hope the answers come sooner than later.
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MAY 6 - children's party, spiderman, and beer
andrea's 1st bday party was fun. i sat at the singles table and iya was with the mommy's table.. hehe. sweetie pie martine.
spiderman and a couple of beers with the BF boys at central. thank God for the boys... really appreciate the time out with them since those are pretty much the only times i get to do stuff other than work. :p
my weekend went by so fast. and i woke up with a really bad stomach ache... so ended up going on half day. here's to an equally busy week. at least i have bangkok to look forward to this weekend.
to shop or not to shop?
FINALLY got to go to see the iCare cardiologist yesterday morning... and im getting my tests done on wednesday. if all goes well, i have the doctor's thoughts by the 26th of May (my next two weekends are booked). i hope that will put all my worries to an end.
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FINALLY got a haircut. my first for the year. hahaha. i was putting it off so my hair would really have the chance to grow. and i absolutely love how philippe gave me a bit of side-bangs this time. weee!
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FINALLY. this was the catch word for my cousin's wedding. and i got to host it with my other cousin. di kinaya ng kapal ng fez ko. nahiya ako. hahaha. funyn thing pa, i went straight to the reception and almost crashed the wrong reception!!! hahahaha. i still laugh when i think about it. imagine if i ended up hosting the wrong event! :p
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kontra lang... one thing that i havent had finality on is what i want to do with myself. it been keeping me up late at night and restless all day. one thing is for sure. i will have to embrace the process and hope the answers come sooner than later.
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MAY 6 - children's party, spiderman, and beer
andrea's 1st bday party was fun. i sat at the singles table and iya was with the mommy's table.. hehe. sweetie pie martine.
spiderman and a couple of beers with the BF boys at central. thank God for the boys... really appreciate the time out with them since those are pretty much the only times i get to do stuff other than work. :p
my weekend went by so fast. and i woke up with a really bad stomach ache... so ended up going on half day. here's to an equally busy week. at least i have bangkok to look forward to this weekend.
to shop or not to shop?
Saturday, April 28
pounding on the red button
since we got back to work from holy week, things have been no less than hellishly busy. and this morning, im really feeling it take a toll on me. even as i write this, i have to concentrate on breathing and fighting the tremors in my hands. how can anyone be under this much stress on a saturday morning?!
i feel SO overwhelmed and confused with things. its like my system is just overloaded... and i think its mostly because of the fatigue building up. i feel like i lost capability to do anything.... as in di na ako maka-isip. like im at my breaking point and i dont know what to do anymore.
id hate to think that other people in the office may be going through a similar thing... coz thats just not good.
the creatives have been working non-stop (literally). one presentaiton after (often one on top of another)... meeting deadlines just in the nick of time. and there's nothing we can do but just go through the motion and hope we get past this phase.
the accounts, the default "blame me" persons. always feeling guilty that we have to dump so much work on the creatives but really cant do much most of the time. i personally feel like im fighting to stay afloat.
i guess there's nothing more to do than to JUST KEEP SWIMMING. tired or not, i have to keep swimming to survive.. and hopefully the end will have for me a beautiful paradise island where i can rest and be carefree.
i feel SO overwhelmed and confused with things. its like my system is just overloaded... and i think its mostly because of the fatigue building up. i feel like i lost capability to do anything.... as in di na ako maka-isip. like im at my breaking point and i dont know what to do anymore.
id hate to think that other people in the office may be going through a similar thing... coz thats just not good.
the creatives have been working non-stop (literally). one presentaiton after (often one on top of another)... meeting deadlines just in the nick of time. and there's nothing we can do but just go through the motion and hope we get past this phase.
the accounts, the default "blame me" persons. always feeling guilty that we have to dump so much work on the creatives but really cant do much most of the time. i personally feel like im fighting to stay afloat.
i guess there's nothing more to do than to JUST KEEP SWIMMING. tired or not, i have to keep swimming to survive.. and hopefully the end will have for me a beautiful paradise island where i can rest and be carefree.
Monday, April 23
hot in the city
its been brutally HOT. im sure everyone in manila will agree. its been so hot that im actually looking forward to being in the office tomorrow to get out of the heat. hahaha.
i guess it wouldnt be as bad if i got to go and enjoy the heat at the beach. was invited to go to galera for mon and ralph's birthday... but i had medical tests schedules over the weekend. BUT! as fate would have it, the iCare cardiologist had an emergency saturday morning and didnt see anyone for consultation. sayang. i had to cancel the tests. I COULD HAVE SPENT THE UBER HOT WEEKEND IN GALERA!!!
o well.. no point in being a brat about it. :p
i guess it wouldnt be as bad if i got to go and enjoy the heat at the beach. was invited to go to galera for mon and ralph's birthday... but i had medical tests schedules over the weekend. BUT! as fate would have it, the iCare cardiologist had an emergency saturday morning and didnt see anyone for consultation. sayang. i had to cancel the tests. I COULD HAVE SPENT THE UBER HOT WEEKEND IN GALERA!!!
o well.. no point in being a brat about it. :p
Saturday, April 14
whats on my menu?
since my fainting spell early thursday morning (april 5), ive been meaning to head to a neurologist for a check-up. so this morning, despite having less than 4 hours of sleep, mom and i went to see a neurologist and a cadriologist.
the neurologist says i need a work up for possible cardiogenic syncope (SING-kuh-pee).
say what?! hahaha. i looked it up and syncope is a medical term for fainting. (sosyal di ba?!) and fainting happens when the brain is not receiving enough blood and oxygen --- thus the temporary loss of consciousness. more specific to his initial findings: cardiogenic syncope is when the fainting is from the abnormal heart rhythms. but the bigger question was what caused me to "syncopate"? (hahaha.) initially he thinks it because i drank a granite with an espresso shot at max brenner at 5pm (an "upper") then a beer at 9pm (a "downer") and that may have caused my heart to skip some beats.. eventually leading to the fainting.
in any case, there isnt a final diagnosis yet.. but they do have to run several tests on me to help figure out the cause and to rule out any of the serious stuff (ie. seizures, heart conditions, etc.)
here's the list of tests i have to have done:
1. ECG
2. complete blood count
3. (some stuff i can read but has something to do with my blood)
4. 2D echo with DS
5. treadmill exercise
6. stress test
7. EEG
grabe. these are the tests done for my parents!!! and im having them done too! hahaha. whats not as funny though is that its SUUUUUPER expensive. parang gusto ko ulit himatayin sa mahal... except this time ill know the exact cause is. :p
but health is wealth.. its ironic that i have to make a huge dent on my savings. ouch ouch ouch. hopefully though the office HMO will approve and shoulder the costs. :D
i have a feeling this is far from over. after the tests have been done, ill know if i have to see any other specialists..
so the adventure continues...
the neurologist says i need a work up for possible cardiogenic syncope (SING-kuh-pee).
say what?! hahaha. i looked it up and syncope is a medical term for fainting. (sosyal di ba?!) and fainting happens when the brain is not receiving enough blood and oxygen --- thus the temporary loss of consciousness. more specific to his initial findings: cardiogenic syncope is when the fainting is from the abnormal heart rhythms. but the bigger question was what caused me to "syncopate"? (hahaha.) initially he thinks it because i drank a granite with an espresso shot at max brenner at 5pm (an "upper") then a beer at 9pm (a "downer") and that may have caused my heart to skip some beats.. eventually leading to the fainting.
in any case, there isnt a final diagnosis yet.. but they do have to run several tests on me to help figure out the cause and to rule out any of the serious stuff (ie. seizures, heart conditions, etc.)
here's the list of tests i have to have done:
1. ECG
2. complete blood count
3. (some stuff i can read but has something to do with my blood)
4. 2D echo with DS
5. treadmill exercise
6. stress test
7. EEG
grabe. these are the tests done for my parents!!! and im having them done too! hahaha. whats not as funny though is that its SUUUUUPER expensive. parang gusto ko ulit himatayin sa mahal... except this time ill know the exact cause is. :p
but health is wealth.. its ironic that i have to make a huge dent on my savings. ouch ouch ouch. hopefully though the office HMO will approve and shoulder the costs. :D
i have a feeling this is far from over. after the tests have been done, ill know if i have to see any other specialists..
so the adventure continues...
Thursday, April 12
Sunday, April 1
night out with the boys
i havent been out in a long time. my usual gimik would be hanging out at someone's house or at a nearby bar or your short dinner or movie then head home. but last night (or this morning rather) i found myself at the heart of mainstream nightlife.
it was supposed to be a laid back gimik at 310 along aguirre with some neighborhood friends since christian was leaving for denmark... i wasnt able to join them but they picked me up a little past midnight on their way to cuisine at the fort. ive never been there and it was fun.
by past 3am, the boys were ready to call it a night... BUT! i had to eat so we stopped by burger machine here in BF.
some photos with the boys:
it was supposed to be a laid back gimik at 310 along aguirre with some neighborhood friends since christian was leaving for denmark... i wasnt able to join them but they picked me up a little past midnight on their way to cuisine at the fort. ive never been there and it was fun.
by past 3am, the boys were ready to call it a night... BUT! i had to eat so we stopped by burger machine here in BF.
some photos with the boys:
Saturday, March 31
what i do best
i sent a random thought to a friend... and i didnt expect to get this reply: go do what you do best.
whoa. good point. the thing is... WHAT IS IT THAT I DO BEST ANYWAY?!
whoa. good point. the thing is... WHAT IS IT THAT I DO BEST ANYWAY?!
Friday, March 23
im thankful again...
big load off my shoulders... im so thankful to God things happened they way they did. actually id be more thankul if it didnt happen at all.. but these things happen for a reason.
the worst thing for me to deal with was the disillusion. im not naive. i know these things happen... and several families all over the world have gone through, are going through, and will go through a similar predicament. but one would NEVER think or expect it would happen to them. i never thought it would happen to MY family. but it did. and i was broken by it.
at least now, i can really go and continue mending that part of myself. start to forgive and forget... slowly i understand. for this blessing, i am thankful. i hope this makes you both stronger... makes all of us stronger. i hope this opens doors for things to go back to the happier days. after all, in the end we only have each other.
the worst thing for me to deal with was the disillusion. im not naive. i know these things happen... and several families all over the world have gone through, are going through, and will go through a similar predicament. but one would NEVER think or expect it would happen to them. i never thought it would happen to MY family. but it did. and i was broken by it.
at least now, i can really go and continue mending that part of myself. start to forgive and forget... slowly i understand. for this blessing, i am thankful. i hope this makes you both stronger... makes all of us stronger. i hope this opens doors for things to go back to the happier days. after all, in the end we only have each other.
Monday, March 19
few people get me
i think i can name just 3 people who i know REALLY get me. like they can finish my sentences and get what i want to say even if i cant construct a decent sentence to express myself. not just that, they GET me... no judgements, they just get me... like i make sense to them. scary, aint it?
and im ever so blessed and thankful to have them. case in point... was chatting with pearl, and i was suprised at how accurate she can be about me:
"you can be so closed about your emotions sometimes... like you dont want to open up.
You are an open person and all that but there are times when you set up walls or seem indifferent about things that actually mean a lot to you.
Like you are careful.... you are more than meets the eye so i do not push when you do not want to talk or say things and i figure you will say or show how you feel when you feel comfortable or want to get it out..
i think it is bec you feel so bad and you cannot control it after... like a huge melon stuck in your throat. or you trying to stand up when there is river that tries to wash you down."
i love it. thank you pearl. you hit the spot.
you know me too well. hahaha. sabagay 25 years of friendship does that. :p
and im ever so blessed and thankful to have them. case in point... was chatting with pearl, and i was suprised at how accurate she can be about me:
"you can be so closed about your emotions sometimes... like you dont want to open up.
You are an open person and all that but there are times when you set up walls or seem indifferent about things that actually mean a lot to you.
Like you are careful.... you are more than meets the eye so i do not push when you do not want to talk or say things and i figure you will say or show how you feel when you feel comfortable or want to get it out..
i think it is bec you feel so bad and you cannot control it after... like a huge melon stuck in your throat. or you trying to stand up when there is river that tries to wash you down."
i love it. thank you pearl. you hit the spot.
you know me too well. hahaha. sabagay 25 years of friendship does that. :p
because i said so
i was supposed to have a working saturday... deliver flowers to greenhills, meeting at abs, then head home. somehow, isa-isang nawala yung gagawin ko. the clincher is, i ran out of official things to do, i was in makati na. hahaha.
i was supposed to watch this baduy movie alone... dont ask why. good thing i ran into lily (literally) and we ended up watching 'because i said so'.
good movie... tried not to me extra emotional about it... it was hard since something semi-major happened to my family around lunch. but anyway! i liked the movie.
id watch it again.. maybe with my mom this time.
i was supposed to watch this baduy movie alone... dont ask why. good thing i ran into lily (literally) and we ended up watching 'because i said so'.
good movie... tried not to me extra emotional about it... it was hard since something semi-major happened to my family around lunch. but anyway! i liked the movie.
id watch it again.. maybe with my mom this time.
beer and poker
friday was a fast one... we had our thanksgiving mass at 4pm then a shocking staff meeting after (i still dont know what to feel after the announcements)... but we soon drowned our concerns in beer and lechon cebu.
it was one of those times that beer didnt taste like anything.. it tasted like water actually. i knew id end up drinking more than my usual (which still isnt a lot on normal standards). so i had a couple of beers at the office. it was the usual gasso party.. fun, fun, fun. happy kris got to stay for a while.
at around 9pm, i headed to skyland to meet up with some other friends. i though i was just going to watch them play poker and then head home by midnight... but no. they had other plans. hahahaha! long story short, i got a crash course on poker. half the time i didnt know what i was doing (given i had already a good amount of alcohol in my system.. my standards). but i had fun.
ended up going home at 3am. thanks for the ride and the great conversation... :)
it was one of those times that beer didnt taste like anything.. it tasted like water actually. i knew id end up drinking more than my usual (which still isnt a lot on normal standards). so i had a couple of beers at the office. it was the usual gasso party.. fun, fun, fun. happy kris got to stay for a while.
at around 9pm, i headed to skyland to meet up with some other friends. i though i was just going to watch them play poker and then head home by midnight... but no. they had other plans. hahahaha! long story short, i got a crash course on poker. half the time i didnt know what i was doing (given i had already a good amount of alcohol in my system.. my standards). but i had fun.
ended up going home at 3am. thanks for the ride and the great conversation... :)
Friday, March 9
major recap
MAJOR RECAP!!! havent been able to write since SOOOOOO many things have been happening. (im still a bit overwhelmed.. hahaha)
most are good and happy things... but i must warn you the last item just oozes with anger.. i cant help it. f***ing asshole.
feb 22 - advil pitch
happy this went well... and even happier we got the account! whoopeeeee!
feb 24 - pearl
i remember pearl was supposed to come home fo her dad's 60th but i got caught up with stuff going on. so hearing her voice on the phone got me a bit disoriented. haha. i thought she was callign long distance from denmark... then i realized she was calling from her house across the street! so like i used to do years and years ago, i got out of bed and went straight to her house. hahahaha.
happy pearl is home, but sad that tito bo had to pass away today. i guess it should be seen as a blessing that he didnt have to suffer long. tito was the first of papa's barkada to pass away. although my only memories of him were of when i was around 9 and we'd go to hundred islands with them, i will miss him. via con dios tito bo!
feb to mar 10
spent days with pearl.. to make up for the 2 years of not seeing her. the last time she was here, we barely got to spend time together. so we were pretty much inseparable for 2 weeks. just like old times.
ATC with pearl's college friends... johnny, joey, katkat, migs, marie, ermel, and baby hagia
central and havana ktv with the d. tuazon boys...
la luz!!!!
feeling a bid sad she has to leave so soon! but ill see her again and i know we'll have as much fun again. :) i still have tonight to stay up and take thousands of photos with her. hahaha.
feb 28
gave myself the chance to try something new. and it went surprisingly well.. kahit na napigtas sandal ko as i was about to sit down. hahaha! thank God ms J and i have the same shoe size. great conversation... great to be exposed to a different group of people... and i wasnt conscious at all about being jologs or less intelligent! hahaha. will have to beg off poker night tonight... maybe next week. :)
mar 1
things have generally been great for me. but now comes the anger part.
you asshole. its sufficient to say im STILL mad at you. more because napahiya ako and my pride is badly bruised. this is EXACTLY why i dislike opening up to people who show intentions other than being just friends. because it makes me vulnerable. and i was stupid enough to give you a chance... to trust you... and give you the benefit of the doubt. even if my closest friends told me more than once that you were bad news... you're a player...
this is why my pride is hurt real bad. because I let this happen. and you took advantage. what were you thinking?! how can you go to your weekly religious meetings and spend the rest of the week taking advantage of people. HYPOCRITE!!! argh! im still really angry.
you insensitive asshole. how can you have dinner with my family and do what you do? the nerve talaga. i pray you dont get karma for the things you do. because if you do, i will not think twice about laughing. i hope you never meet the girl who will break your heart like you've broken so many girls' hearts.
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i move on.
one of the many things i realize from all of this, the world keeps on turning... regardless if im happy, sad, angry, or lonely... the world will not stop for me. i may feel like sh*t, but i just have to keep going... to keep swimming... :D
most are good and happy things... but i must warn you the last item just oozes with anger.. i cant help it. f***ing asshole.
feb 22 - advil pitch
happy this went well... and even happier we got the account! whoopeeeee!
feb 24 - pearl
i remember pearl was supposed to come home fo her dad's 60th but i got caught up with stuff going on. so hearing her voice on the phone got me a bit disoriented. haha. i thought she was callign long distance from denmark... then i realized she was calling from her house across the street! so like i used to do years and years ago, i got out of bed and went straight to her house. hahahaha.
happy pearl is home, but sad that tito bo had to pass away today. i guess it should be seen as a blessing that he didnt have to suffer long. tito was the first of papa's barkada to pass away. although my only memories of him were of when i was around 9 and we'd go to hundred islands with them, i will miss him. via con dios tito bo!
feb to mar 10
spent days with pearl.. to make up for the 2 years of not seeing her. the last time she was here, we barely got to spend time together. so we were pretty much inseparable for 2 weeks. just like old times.
ATC with pearl's college friends... johnny, joey, katkat, migs, marie, ermel, and baby hagia
central and havana ktv with the d. tuazon boys...
la luz!!!!
feeling a bid sad she has to leave so soon! but ill see her again and i know we'll have as much fun again. :) i still have tonight to stay up and take thousands of photos with her. hahaha.
feb 28
gave myself the chance to try something new. and it went surprisingly well.. kahit na napigtas sandal ko as i was about to sit down. hahaha! thank God ms J and i have the same shoe size. great conversation... great to be exposed to a different group of people... and i wasnt conscious at all about being jologs or less intelligent! hahaha. will have to beg off poker night tonight... maybe next week. :)
mar 1
things have generally been great for me. but now comes the anger part.
you asshole. its sufficient to say im STILL mad at you. more because napahiya ako and my pride is badly bruised. this is EXACTLY why i dislike opening up to people who show intentions other than being just friends. because it makes me vulnerable. and i was stupid enough to give you a chance... to trust you... and give you the benefit of the doubt. even if my closest friends told me more than once that you were bad news... you're a player...
this is why my pride is hurt real bad. because I let this happen. and you took advantage. what were you thinking?! how can you go to your weekly religious meetings and spend the rest of the week taking advantage of people. HYPOCRITE!!! argh! im still really angry.
you insensitive asshole. how can you have dinner with my family and do what you do? the nerve talaga. i pray you dont get karma for the things you do. because if you do, i will not think twice about laughing. i hope you never meet the girl who will break your heart like you've broken so many girls' hearts.
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i move on.
one of the many things i realize from all of this, the world keeps on turning... regardless if im happy, sad, angry, or lonely... the world will not stop for me. i may feel like sh*t, but i just have to keep going... to keep swimming... :D
Thursday, March 1
agit agit agit...
a lot of things to update... but not now. i just need to unload a bit (as always)...
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do i? i think i do. and im a bit concerned. thats not a good position to be in. not with all the unaswered questions. but ill have to cope with where i am... maybe its the lack of sleep of something. but i just cant get you out of my head... and its driving me insane. how do i work this situation?! HOW?!?!?!
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i appreciate you 'listening'.. i notice the change... i dont regret speaking up about being uncomfortable about some things. and its stupid of me to be looking for it now!!!!! girl cant make up her mind? or maybe we just dont see eye to eye about some things and you didnt get what i was saying. who knows what going on in there... share naman...
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everyone says i should be careful... i have just about had it with tip toe-ing around and playing safe. this is why i hate mind games. i just cant play.
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do i? i think i do. and im a bit concerned. thats not a good position to be in. not with all the unaswered questions. but ill have to cope with where i am... maybe its the lack of sleep of something. but i just cant get you out of my head... and its driving me insane. how do i work this situation?! HOW?!?!?!
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i appreciate you 'listening'.. i notice the change... i dont regret speaking up about being uncomfortable about some things. and its stupid of me to be looking for it now!!!!! girl cant make up her mind? or maybe we just dont see eye to eye about some things and you didnt get what i was saying. who knows what going on in there... share naman...
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everyone says i should be careful... i have just about had it with tip toe-ing around and playing safe. this is why i hate mind games. i just cant play.
Friday, February 23
mixed nuts
athough still sluggish and sleepy, i feel G-R-E-A-T.
yesterday's presentation went well... feels great to be part of it. ive been lucky that the few new business pitches ive been part of, most left me in high spirits. happy with myself and how i did. :) teehee.
i really hope we get the account.
of course the last few days leading up to yesterday were less than sweet. i found myself angry and frustrated again. but hey, ganun talaga e. inthe end things still went well. that should be enough to get over all the hassles.
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ive been thinking... there are things that you cant force.. some things just dont go together. maybe we're like that.
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here it goes... im starting to feel the strain of this new set-up... but i know we can get over it and adjust. after all, if what we have is as strong and special as we say, then we'll be okay.
i guess i just miss you. especially since these are the times i would love to share with you.
yesterday's presentation went well... feels great to be part of it. ive been lucky that the few new business pitches ive been part of, most left me in high spirits. happy with myself and how i did. :) teehee.
i really hope we get the account.
of course the last few days leading up to yesterday were less than sweet. i found myself angry and frustrated again. but hey, ganun talaga e. inthe end things still went well. that should be enough to get over all the hassles.
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ive been thinking... there are things that you cant force.. some things just dont go together. maybe we're like that.
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here it goes... im starting to feel the strain of this new set-up... but i know we can get over it and adjust. after all, if what we have is as strong and special as we say, then we'll be okay.
i guess i just miss you. especially since these are the times i would love to share with you.
Wednesday, February 21
night out with my cheering friends
sleepy... i really shouldnt stay up late on sunday nights coz it turns me into a walking vegetable the rest of the week! it doesnt help that i haven't been able to sleep earlier than 12mn since then. hahahaha.
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"...im out with my cheerleader friends."
got together with the boys ang girls of babble last night at grams diner, rockwell. i knew it was going to be a riot. hahaha. kat introduced her hubby lee to us and i think its safe to say we all fell in love with him... congratulations to you both. we're all looking forward to seeing how cute your kids will be! hahaha.
rundown of attendees: kat and lee, abel, jemil, tooper, tisha, patching, arjae (and friend), monica, lora (and brother), caleen and myself.
with mon, lora, and myself there (though we missed nikki, and karen... golden girls! haha) we were not a quiet table. haha. lora was her usual self... non-stop kwento. isama mo pa si caleen. and of course kat. hahaha.
i had so much fun. too bad kat and lee have to fly back to LA tomorrow night. :( im seriously considering adding a side trip to LA to visit her (and mel lau and some other relatives)... i wonder, may maiiwan pa kaya akong pera after the trip? hahahahaha!
(photos on my multiply photo page... will grab the others' photos when i get the chance)
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"...don't be an asshole."
in the spirit of the same honesty and openness that made you confess your soul to me a few days back, i hope some of the things i said will make you realize how this "arrangement" is sitting with me.
though i now know you're not the type to take bluntness easily. ill probably have to be more cheerful in being honest.
its slowly becoming more obvious i have to do something about this. so not into mind games. but i told you that already, didnt i?
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"...im out with my cheerleader friends."
got together with the boys ang girls of babble last night at grams diner, rockwell. i knew it was going to be a riot. hahaha. kat introduced her hubby lee to us and i think its safe to say we all fell in love with him... congratulations to you both. we're all looking forward to seeing how cute your kids will be! hahaha.
rundown of attendees: kat and lee, abel, jemil, tooper, tisha, patching, arjae (and friend), monica, lora (and brother), caleen and myself.
with mon, lora, and myself there (though we missed nikki, and karen... golden girls! haha) we were not a quiet table. haha. lora was her usual self... non-stop kwento. isama mo pa si caleen. and of course kat. hahaha.
i had so much fun. too bad kat and lee have to fly back to LA tomorrow night. :( im seriously considering adding a side trip to LA to visit her (and mel lau and some other relatives)... i wonder, may maiiwan pa kaya akong pera after the trip? hahahahaha!
(photos on my multiply photo page... will grab the others' photos when i get the chance)
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"...don't be an asshole."
in the spirit of the same honesty and openness that made you confess your soul to me a few days back, i hope some of the things i said will make you realize how this "arrangement" is sitting with me.
though i now know you're not the type to take bluntness easily. ill probably have to be more cheerful in being honest.
its slowly becoming more obvious i have to do something about this. so not into mind games. but i told you that already, didnt i?
Tuesday, February 20
ouchie
my head hurts. its ironic my head hurts because of the sheets on pain relievers. somehow i dont find it funny and im not relieved at all.
everything was whacked today.
was supposed to have a 9-12nn meeting at alabang where 3 groups of suppliers were to present. that stupid girl (who had no remorse whatsoever for the immense delay she caused) came in at freaking 1030am... pushing everything else to end by 130pm.
my 2pm internal meeting got "moved" to 5pm, but instantly moved again to 330pm... ended past 5pm i think.
so technically my day began at 5pm. these things happen, i know. and ive adjusted to it several times before. but the clincher is... because i had this bright idea to ask about sheets, i find myself sitting here at my desk (STILL) magically producing sheets for tomorrow out of nothing.
now i have to be honest. im a bit lost with this project. so that makes it a bit harder to be the one to construct the sheets. PLUS, it seems my boss is already resigned to the fact that whatever i prepare will surely be changed based on what the bosses want (whats new). so (without thinking) i told her earlier:
- di ko na kakaririn kasi babarilin din naman... EEEEENK! wrong thing to say.
- bakit di nalans sabihin ng mga boss ano gusto nila para di na sayang effort ko kung alam naman pala nyang babarilin... EEEEEENK! wrong again.
i cant help but wonder why i have to exert effort to think of how the latag should go if i know my boss is SO open to it being shot down... parang i get the feeling di man lang nya ipaglalaban. i will end up presenting my hard work, and take all the blows. what the point? please, someone remind me what im missing.
anyway, i should really go back to my sheets... and my endless transcriptions.
oh by the way... im doing this... yet i wont be part of the actual group presenting come d-day. wow. that's very uplifting.
MENTAL NOTE: keep in mind that this will only make me better... do it for the exercise.
everything was whacked today.
was supposed to have a 9-12nn meeting at alabang where 3 groups of suppliers were to present. that stupid girl (who had no remorse whatsoever for the immense delay she caused) came in at freaking 1030am... pushing everything else to end by 130pm.
my 2pm internal meeting got "moved" to 5pm, but instantly moved again to 330pm... ended past 5pm i think.
so technically my day began at 5pm. these things happen, i know. and ive adjusted to it several times before. but the clincher is... because i had this bright idea to ask about sheets, i find myself sitting here at my desk (STILL) magically producing sheets for tomorrow out of nothing.
now i have to be honest. im a bit lost with this project. so that makes it a bit harder to be the one to construct the sheets. PLUS, it seems my boss is already resigned to the fact that whatever i prepare will surely be changed based on what the bosses want (whats new). so (without thinking) i told her earlier:
- di ko na kakaririn kasi babarilin din naman... EEEEENK! wrong thing to say.
- bakit di nalans sabihin ng mga boss ano gusto nila para di na sayang effort ko kung alam naman pala nyang babarilin... EEEEEENK! wrong again.
i cant help but wonder why i have to exert effort to think of how the latag should go if i know my boss is SO open to it being shot down... parang i get the feeling di man lang nya ipaglalaban. i will end up presenting my hard work, and take all the blows. what the point? please, someone remind me what im missing.
anyway, i should really go back to my sheets... and my endless transcriptions.
oh by the way... im doing this... yet i wont be part of the actual group presenting come d-day. wow. that's very uplifting.
MENTAL NOTE: keep in mind that this will only make me better... do it for the exercise.
Monday, February 19
what's up with that?!
something is really screwed up with the world these days. and im flattered. haha. this is funny... in a good way. i got a really odd text message tonight. and i dont want to say anything about it yet.. but saturday should be VERY interesting.
im giving myself the chance to do something i dont normally do (because i find it really uncomfortable and complicated). but im giving myself this chance because i owe it to myself.
hay. haha. im still smiling.
thank God for giving me another reason to smile.
im giving myself the chance to do something i dont normally do (because i find it really uncomfortable and complicated). but im giving myself this chance because i owe it to myself.
hay. haha. im still smiling.
thank God for giving me another reason to smile.
Saturday, February 17
wala lang
im here at my mom's house.. sitting on her comfy couch. papa keeps popping in and out of the house with visa forms... miah is channel surfing... im going to take a while to enjoy this silence. right at this very moment, my life is calm. feels good to soak up in calm-ness for a change.
ill probably go to sleep in a while. looking forward to ama's lumpia tomorrow...
happy new year everyone!
ill probably go to sleep in a while. looking forward to ama's lumpia tomorrow...
happy new year everyone!
Thursday, February 15
A-cute valentine
i knew this year's valentine's day was going to be just another day... haha!
830am-330pm whole day meeting. talk about overwhelmed with info.
330pm-430pm instant crisis-control meeting
430pm-600pm made my way home... burning with fever again
the rest of the evening was spent at the ER of Asian Hospital.
mom was with me nung una.. but left after she found out na i needed to get a CBC test... her reason? she wanted to watch tita cory on deal or no deal. hahahahaha. cute ni mommy.
so anyway, i was happy the girl who got my blood was really good. as in wala ako naramdaman! not even the needle touching my arm! hmmm... dugo ko talaga kaya yun? haha.
so it turns out i have acute bronchitis. i guess i should count my blessings its just bronchitis. didnt feel too blessed when i bought my prescriptions though...
zithromax (antibiotic) - 1 tab a day for 3 days Php280/tab
toclase (for my dry cough) - 1 tbsp, 4x a day Php200+ isang bote
nafarin-a - 2x a day Php4.75/tab
my total bill: Php1,071.75
ouch.
i could have put that in my savings account na lang...
so that was my valentine's day.. :) i feel better today. at least i havent had fever since last night.
thanks to dj and mr manny for the single stem roses. thanks. :)
830am-330pm whole day meeting. talk about overwhelmed with info.
330pm-430pm instant crisis-control meeting
430pm-600pm made my way home... burning with fever again
the rest of the evening was spent at the ER of Asian Hospital.
mom was with me nung una.. but left after she found out na i needed to get a CBC test... her reason? she wanted to watch tita cory on deal or no deal. hahahahaha. cute ni mommy.
so anyway, i was happy the girl who got my blood was really good. as in wala ako naramdaman! not even the needle touching my arm! hmmm... dugo ko talaga kaya yun? haha.
so it turns out i have acute bronchitis. i guess i should count my blessings its just bronchitis. didnt feel too blessed when i bought my prescriptions though...
zithromax (antibiotic) - 1 tab a day for 3 days Php280/tab
toclase (for my dry cough) - 1 tbsp, 4x a day Php200+ isang bote
nafarin-a - 2x a day Php4.75/tab
my total bill: Php1,071.75
ouch.
i could have put that in my savings account na lang...
so that was my valentine's day.. :) i feel better today. at least i havent had fever since last night.
thanks to dj and mr manny for the single stem roses. thanks. :)
Monday, February 12
awake and sick
i still dont know exactly what the better thing to do is, but at least i have a fresh perspective on things. im awake now. i know this is not a dream... its not my dream. wake up and smell the real world!
in a way im thankful certain things happened. at least di na lulutang-lutang utak ko sa ulap.. my feet are back on the ground. hahaha. eh, kasalanan ko rin naman pala e!
so from now on, whatever you say and do, i cant help but probably be skeptical. thats the way things are now. you'll have to prove me wrong.
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im sick. fell asleep feeling great after walking outside (alone ah). but woke up feeling like something got stuck up my nasal passage (gross). then it progressed to a bad headache... then i got girly cramps... then they all kinda bugged me at the same time. until i finally broke out with a fever. so now, im crampy, runny (nose), achy, and getting hotter.
blech. this isnt the time to get sick. really.
i hope i wake up feeling better tomorrow.. its going to be a really crucial week.. and the week after too. so... I CANT BE SICK!!!
in a way im thankful certain things happened. at least di na lulutang-lutang utak ko sa ulap.. my feet are back on the ground. hahaha. eh, kasalanan ko rin naman pala e!
so from now on, whatever you say and do, i cant help but probably be skeptical. thats the way things are now. you'll have to prove me wrong.
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im sick. fell asleep feeling great after walking outside (alone ah). but woke up feeling like something got stuck up my nasal passage (gross). then it progressed to a bad headache... then i got girly cramps... then they all kinda bugged me at the same time. until i finally broke out with a fever. so now, im crampy, runny (nose), achy, and getting hotter.
blech. this isnt the time to get sick. really.
i hope i wake up feeling better tomorrow.. its going to be a really crucial week.. and the week after too. so... I CANT BE SICK!!!
Friday, February 9
still...
still sleepy.
i worked until past 10pm last night. got all the small yet needed and oh-so icky to do stuff out of the way. okay, fine. i didnt touch my copy analysis list. but i got a lot of things done and organized. i have a desk again. but i digress, i got home and fell asleep. woke up late and got to work late. but im still sleepy. makes it worse im starting to regret why i didnt sleep that night/morning. argh.
still thinking.
i still dont know what the better thing to do is. i dont think there's a right thing to do at this point. so i search for the better thing instead. some things im sure of, but some im still thinking of. maybe thats why im still sleepy. i havent stopped thinking.
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good luck! ill see you soon. :)
i worked until past 10pm last night. got all the small yet needed and oh-so icky to do stuff out of the way. okay, fine. i didnt touch my copy analysis list. but i got a lot of things done and organized. i have a desk again. but i digress, i got home and fell asleep. woke up late and got to work late. but im still sleepy. makes it worse im starting to regret why i didnt sleep that night/morning. argh.
still thinking.
i still dont know what the better thing to do is. i dont think there's a right thing to do at this point. so i search for the better thing instead. some things im sure of, but some im still thinking of. maybe thats why im still sleepy. i havent stopped thinking.
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good luck! ill see you soon. :)
Thursday, February 8
lack of sleep = incoherence
i find it hard not to say im a bit disappointed.
how can i not be?
how can you confess your soul to me the way you did?
well, maybe not how... but WHY?
can't you just please express your intentions?
i hate being kept in the dark.
i hope you're not playing mind games. i hate mind games.
lack of sleep. mind on full 'analyzing' gear.
i just want to understand and know im still in control of the situation.
i told you, pet peeve ko yun... i HAVE to stay in control of things... to have a hand in keeping options open.
thats the AE in me... i cant help it.
how can i not be?
how can you confess your soul to me the way you did?
well, maybe not how... but WHY?
can't you just please express your intentions?
i hate being kept in the dark.
i hope you're not playing mind games. i hate mind games.
lack of sleep. mind on full 'analyzing' gear.
i just want to understand and know im still in control of the situation.
i told you, pet peeve ko yun... i HAVE to stay in control of things... to have a hand in keeping options open.
thats the AE in me... i cant help it.
Monday, February 5
days of passion
was a bit frustrated today. guess thats comes with realizing that what you're doing isnt exactly what you're most passionate about.
so talking about passions.. my passions in life... a list comes to mind. to share a few things:
dancing. i know im not skilled enough to be a professional, but i think i would be most happy if i would be given the opportunity to pusue this... and succeed. wishful thinking.
theater. lea salonga breaks my heart. i absolutely envy her. her talent is just ... WOW. the control she has over her voice... the emotions she can inject into her performances, ay grabe. i gave up theater in highschool... i left it there. but i had fun. the performer in me had a great time.
i know ive talked previously about the rush of performing... of seeing people smile and enjoy your performance.. of just being able to have a potent form of expression! i miss that kind of release... god, i really need an outlet. haha.
on a lighter note... i still love john prats. totally unrelated to passion, but i just have to put this in. i dont know what it is about him, but i cras him talaga. hahahahahaha. kadiri... di na naka-move on. i mean i find a bunch of other stars cute/hot or whatever, but i cant seem to get over him. haha.
also, im seriously thinking of studying... secret muna kung ano aaralin ko. basta its totally unrelated to what im doing.. well, sort of related. haha. its been a funidea ive had in my head for a while. im sure i might have mentioned it in passing to some people... im not sure. baka pabiro. so ill look into that. it would have been better if i got the idea when i was a bit younger.. just to start early. but no regrets. no harm in trying. not even sure if im any good at it or hilig ko lang talaga. if not, i have myself to make use of it! hahaha!
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im babbling again.. at least i get to unload my thoughts. or else id go gaga. :p
so talking about passions.. my passions in life... a list comes to mind. to share a few things:
dancing. i know im not skilled enough to be a professional, but i think i would be most happy if i would be given the opportunity to pusue this... and succeed. wishful thinking.
theater. lea salonga breaks my heart. i absolutely envy her. her talent is just ... WOW. the control she has over her voice... the emotions she can inject into her performances, ay grabe. i gave up theater in highschool... i left it there. but i had fun. the performer in me had a great time.
i know ive talked previously about the rush of performing... of seeing people smile and enjoy your performance.. of just being able to have a potent form of expression! i miss that kind of release... god, i really need an outlet. haha.
on a lighter note... i still love john prats. totally unrelated to passion, but i just have to put this in. i dont know what it is about him, but i cras him talaga. hahahahahaha. kadiri... di na naka-move on. i mean i find a bunch of other stars cute/hot or whatever, but i cant seem to get over him. haha.
also, im seriously thinking of studying... secret muna kung ano aaralin ko. basta its totally unrelated to what im doing.. well, sort of related. haha. its been a funidea ive had in my head for a while. im sure i might have mentioned it in passing to some people... im not sure. baka pabiro. so ill look into that. it would have been better if i got the idea when i was a bit younger.. just to start early. but no regrets. no harm in trying. not even sure if im any good at it or hilig ko lang talaga. if not, i have myself to make use of it! hahaha!
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im babbling again.. at least i get to unload my thoughts. or else id go gaga. :p
Saturday, February 3
drip
Kapanahunan na naman
Ng paglalambingan
At kasama kitang mamasyal
Sa kung saan
Kabilugan ng buwan
At ang hangin ay may kalamigan
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Pagmamahalan lang naman
Ang mararanasan
Sa sariling mundo tayo lang
Ang may alam
Kabilugan ng buwan
At ang hangin ay may kalamigan
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Halina’t pakinggan
Ang awit na dala ng pag-ibig
Masaya ang mundo pag kapiling
Kitang ganito
Huwag kang hihiwalay at ang
Puso ko ay maligaya
Lapit na, oh lapit pa
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Sa buong magdamag
Sa buong magdamag
its been lovely and cold the past few days.. lovely if you're not freezing your ass off at the office. haha. but ive been taking leisurely walks at night... so far, last night was the most enjoyable. cool breeze, full moon, no stray dogs, tummy full of ineng's bbq... great, great, GREAT!
perfect way to end a not-so-perfect week.
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change of plans... wasnt your fault you were late. i didnt mind.
funny movie.. but the popcorn shower was more funny... i didnt tell you but i thought that would happen too. hahaha!
i still bet you opened that pack of spoons you were supposed to return. haha!
really enjoyed walking with you. mas relaxed. at least we got to spend more time togather without people here sa house snooping around. :p
sabi mo you havent seen me in a while... sinabi mo pa! ewan ko ba naman sayo bakit di ka nagpapakita. hahaha!
Ng paglalambingan
At kasama kitang mamasyal
Sa kung saan
Kabilugan ng buwan
At ang hangin ay may kalamigan
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Pagmamahalan lang naman
Ang mararanasan
Sa sariling mundo tayo lang
Ang may alam
Kabilugan ng buwan
At ang hangin ay may kalamigan
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Halina’t pakinggan
Ang awit na dala ng pag-ibig
Masaya ang mundo pag kapiling
Kitang ganito
Huwag kang hihiwalay at ang
Puso ko ay maligaya
Lapit na, oh lapit pa
Aakapin kita mahal ko
Sa buong magdamag
Sa buong magdamag
Sa buong magdamag
its been lovely and cold the past few days.. lovely if you're not freezing your ass off at the office. haha. but ive been taking leisurely walks at night... so far, last night was the most enjoyable. cool breeze, full moon, no stray dogs, tummy full of ineng's bbq... great, great, GREAT!
perfect way to end a not-so-perfect week.
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change of plans... wasnt your fault you were late. i didnt mind.
funny movie.. but the popcorn shower was more funny... i didnt tell you but i thought that would happen too. hahaha!
i still bet you opened that pack of spoons you were supposed to return. haha!
really enjoyed walking with you. mas relaxed. at least we got to spend more time togather without people here sa house snooping around. :p
sabi mo you havent seen me in a while... sinabi mo pa! ewan ko ba naman sayo bakit di ka nagpapakita. hahaha!
Thursday, February 1
trip
pau isnt the only one who gets to go on a trip.. thanks to lily, i think i may get a chance to breathe non-manila air for a day. im hoping its going to be just a day trip... so i get to sleep and be catatonic the next day. haha.
im sure im going to be looking up a lot and its definitely going to be a colorful day. looking forward to it already... im making sure my memory stick is empty and ready. weeee!
thanks lils... love you! sana matuloy for sure! (and sana we get to ride one... that would really make my day.)
im sure im going to be looking up a lot and its definitely going to be a colorful day. looking forward to it already... im making sure my memory stick is empty and ready. weeee!
thanks lils... love you! sana matuloy for sure! (and sana we get to ride one... that would really make my day.)
Tuesday, January 30
suddenly cold
yesterday morning, i was pleased to notice how cool it was... especially in the garden where its constantly breezy. but it never occured to me that if it was cold outdoors, then it would be MUCH colder indoors.
it doesnt help that im feeling slightly sicky... so double whammy.
ang lamig talaga. but i shouldnt complain... one, its definitely colder elsewhere.. i still live in a tropical country. and two, id rather it be cold with the AC working than sweaty and irritable when it was broken. :p i will count my blessings. haha.
it doesnt help that im feeling slightly sicky... so double whammy.
ang lamig talaga. but i shouldnt complain... one, its definitely colder elsewhere.. i still live in a tropical country. and two, id rather it be cold with the AC working than sweaty and irritable when it was broken. :p i will count my blessings. haha.
Monday, January 29
attainable challenge?
| Men See You As: An Attainable Challenge |
 You know how to make your man crave more of you But you also know when to show some interest back You're good at keeping your guy guessing And over time, you'll let him know how you really feel |
* from kaye
thinking sleepy
right at this very moment, inaantok ako. as in i want to crawl back into bed and sleep. BUT! its a monday... and mondays set the mood for the entire week, so i have to manage to be as relaxed yet productive as i can. i cant have an entire week like this!
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despite my sleepy thoughts, my mind is still busy with my life options... maybe thats why im sleepy... nakakapagod mag-isip ng mga ganun ah. no joke. last night i was tearing up na when i fell asleep because of frustration.
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despite my sleepy thoughts, my mind is still busy with my life options... maybe thats why im sleepy... nakakapagod mag-isip ng mga ganun ah. no joke. last night i was tearing up na when i fell asleep because of frustration.
Sunday, January 28
dasal
give me a sign. i thought i was sure what i wanted. pero bakit parang dumadami yung mga interesting options that i can take? nalilito na tuloy ako.
sure there arent any opportunities that need my immediate decision, but i should move to make these opportunities come.
basta bottomline, its up to me... its really my decision to make. my decision on what route i want to take with my life. so i can start focusing my energies on it.
hay! what do i do? what do i really want to do?
i need a sign.
sure there arent any opportunities that need my immediate decision, but i should move to make these opportunities come.
basta bottomline, its up to me... its really my decision to make. my decision on what route i want to take with my life. so i can start focusing my energies on it.
hay! what do i do? what do i really want to do?
i need a sign.
Friday, January 26
gulong ng palad
You are The Wheel of Fortune
Good fortune and happiness but sometimes a species of
intoxication with success
The Wheel of Fortune is all about big things, luck, change, fortune. Almost always good fortune. You are lucky in all things that you do and happy with the things that come to you. Be careful that success does not go to your head however. Sometimes luck can change.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
Thursday, January 25
singit lang
quick break to copy paste somethings i wrote on my way home last night.
- there are things that make me happy these days... enought for me not to feel too sad about other things.
- nights like this, when my body is just too damn tired to move but my mind is too busy throwing thoughts around, will probably be the hardest for me. eto kasi yung times na i can throw random thoughts at you and i dont have to worry about not making sense. even better that in the end, they make sense already. hope you're doing well there. keep shining.
- just when i thought things could not get any more hectic, they just do. meetings that are piled up like crazy... its not even funny how they all seem to conflict with each other AND theyre all important. requirements and deadlines that just keep coming. pati mga tulog na bagay, ganda ng timing to be reborn. but we're all still standing... and smiling. that should be a good sign. ah, yes, the rush of being in advertising.
- with all of these things going on, i cant deal with this right now. i dont want to be cruel, but i just dont have the energy to sort through it and deal with it. im sorry. ill take my chances. if by the time that i can sort through it without being short-fused, would be a time that you wouldnt want to be there anymore, ill have to deal with it. i just cant do this right now. i should let the frustration, confusion and irritation die down.
- there are things that make me happy these days... enought for me not to feel too sad about other things.
- nights like this, when my body is just too damn tired to move but my mind is too busy throwing thoughts around, will probably be the hardest for me. eto kasi yung times na i can throw random thoughts at you and i dont have to worry about not making sense. even better that in the end, they make sense already. hope you're doing well there. keep shining.
- just when i thought things could not get any more hectic, they just do. meetings that are piled up like crazy... its not even funny how they all seem to conflict with each other AND theyre all important. requirements and deadlines that just keep coming. pati mga tulog na bagay, ganda ng timing to be reborn. but we're all still standing... and smiling. that should be a good sign. ah, yes, the rush of being in advertising.
- with all of these things going on, i cant deal with this right now. i dont want to be cruel, but i just dont have the energy to sort through it and deal with it. im sorry. ill take my chances. if by the time that i can sort through it without being short-fused, would be a time that you wouldnt want to be there anymore, ill have to deal with it. i just cant do this right now. i should let the frustration, confusion and irritation die down.
Tuesday, January 23
i shouldnt be saying this...
just to get it out of my head...
it hasnt been long, but im nearing a point where i wish you'd just go and say something.
SAY SOMETHING!!!
it hasnt been long, but im nearing a point where i wish you'd just go and say something.
SAY SOMETHING!!!
Sunday, January 21
super saturday
today was great.
630am - leave for offline
730 to 930am - offline
930 to 1230nn - hang out at salcedo weekend market
1230 to 130pm - head on home
130 to 300pm - las paellas, theobroma, ruins
300 to 9pm - hang out at home
okay, it wasnt that simple. pau scheduled to bring me my painting today... and that was the major event of the day. but it was worth the wait... and more. i absolutely love the painting. the more i look at it, the more i love it. haha. thanks pau. you're the best.
whats not to love about today?
love hanging out with arnie, ige, paolo and april at the salcedo market...
love taking pau around BF...
love theobroma ice cream...
love ruins...
love having strawberries and chocolate fondue...
love hanging out with mom and pau...
LOVE THE PAINTING...
LOVE THE PORTRAIT...
thankies to everyone for a great day!!! eeeeeeeeeeyaaaaaaahooooooo!
* more photos in my multiply
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get well soon...
630am - leave for offline
730 to 930am - offline
930 to 1230nn - hang out at salcedo weekend market
1230 to 130pm - head on home
130 to 300pm - las paellas, theobroma, ruins
300 to 9pm - hang out at home
okay, it wasnt that simple. pau scheduled to bring me my painting today... and that was the major event of the day. but it was worth the wait... and more. i absolutely love the painting. the more i look at it, the more i love it. haha. thanks pau. you're the best.
whats not to love about today?
love hanging out with arnie, ige, paolo and april at the salcedo market...
love taking pau around BF...
love theobroma ice cream...
love ruins...
love having strawberries and chocolate fondue...
love hanging out with mom and pau...
LOVE THE PAINTING...
LOVE THE PORTRAIT...
thankies to everyone for a great day!!! eeeeeeeeeeyaaaaaaahooooooo!
* more photos in my multiply
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get well soon...
Friday, January 19
giddy giggly doo
had a great time last night. it was refreshing to be doing something different on a weekday.
i cant help but smile today.
i cant help but smile today.
Tuesday, January 16
happy pill
i never really noticed until they pointed it out... ive been extra happy the past few days.
Friday, January 12
choices, choices...
i want to go out of town... i want to get in a car, and go anywhere. anywhere but stay here.
on the other hand, im supposed to be saving up for a major spend item this time next year (if all goes as planned)...
choices, choices...
on the other hand, im supposed to be saving up for a major spend item this time next year (if all goes as planned)...
choices, choices...
Thursday, January 11
short messages
1. something about you feels right... but im going to be smart and continue not to put too much attention to it.
2. go and be the best at everything you do. you are such an inspiration to me. i feel as though i can do things that i never even considered int he past. its as if your presence has enabled me on several levels. i will ever be proud of you.
3. im thankful, in a sense, that the last few weeks have allowed me to get used to the distance between us. at least saying 'see you soon' wont be as difficult anymore. ill have to admit i was jealous a s hell... as i always have been with a few uber close friends. but in retrospect, it was a good thing.
2. go and be the best at everything you do. you are such an inspiration to me. i feel as though i can do things that i never even considered int he past. its as if your presence has enabled me on several levels. i will ever be proud of you.
3. im thankful, in a sense, that the last few weeks have allowed me to get used to the distance between us. at least saying 'see you soon' wont be as difficult anymore. ill have to admit i was jealous a s hell... as i always have been with a few uber close friends. but in retrospect, it was a good thing.
Wednesday, January 10
iWant iPhone
looks like if i want a new phone ill have to buy myself one... no Globe Loyalty Rewards this year... boo hoo!
it so happens i saw this....
now i want one... I WANT ONE. its really just a materialistic thing to want since i just got my iPod and i still have a phone.. hahaha. but i still want one.
*photos from apple.com
Friday, January 5
in fairness...
being the self-absorbed person that i am.. i just HAD to try this one with multiple photos. hahaha. i was surprised at the faces that came out consistently. hehehe. in fairness...
Tuesday, January 2
greetings
my favorite holiday greetings...
from peejay: Salamat sa mga araw ng tawanan, kuwentuhan, tambay at mga tila walang kuwentang mga oras na kasama kita. Ito ang mga moments na pinapanaginipan ko, nire-reminisce at pinagsesentihan. Maraming salamat talaga, ang saya saya ng buhay ko dahil sa'yo. Ma-achecheng Pasko at Maligo ang Gagong Taong Grasa!
from mel: My 12 gifts for you: 1. Happiness. Deep down inside. 2. Serenity. At every sunrise. 3. Success. In every facet of your life. 4. Family beside you. 5. Caring friends around you. 6. A love that never ends. 7. Good health within you. 8. Beautiful memories. 9. A bright today with so much to be thankful for. 10. A pathway leading to better tomorrows. 11. Dreams that manage to come true. 12. and A great appreciation for whatever you do. One day to go... Merry Christmas!
from mark: May your year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books, kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art - write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere this year, you surprise yourself! --- Neil Gaiman
from coach ivan: Happiness is somewhere between too little and too much. May you have just enough wealth to meet your needs, enough poverty to learn how to work hard. Enough blessings to know that God loves you, enough problems so you dont forget Him. Enough happiness to keep you sweet, enough trials to keep you strong. Enough hope to keep you happy, enough sorrow to keep you human. What you are is God's gift to you, but what you become is your gift to God. Happy New Year!
hope everyone has a rockin' 2007!
from peejay: Salamat sa mga araw ng tawanan, kuwentuhan, tambay at mga tila walang kuwentang mga oras na kasama kita. Ito ang mga moments na pinapanaginipan ko, nire-reminisce at pinagsesentihan. Maraming salamat talaga, ang saya saya ng buhay ko dahil sa'yo. Ma-achecheng Pasko at Maligo ang Gagong Taong Grasa!
from mel: My 12 gifts for you: 1. Happiness. Deep down inside. 2. Serenity. At every sunrise. 3. Success. In every facet of your life. 4. Family beside you. 5. Caring friends around you. 6. A love that never ends. 7. Good health within you. 8. Beautiful memories. 9. A bright today with so much to be thankful for. 10. A pathway leading to better tomorrows. 11. Dreams that manage to come true. 12. and A great appreciation for whatever you do. One day to go... Merry Christmas!
from mark: May your year be filled with magic and dreams and good madness. I hope you read some fine books, kiss someone who thinks you're wonderful, and don't forget to make some art - write or draw or build or sing or live as only you can. And I hope, somewhere this year, you surprise yourself! --- Neil Gaiman
from coach ivan: Happiness is somewhere between too little and too much. May you have just enough wealth to meet your needs, enough poverty to learn how to work hard. Enough blessings to know that God loves you, enough problems so you dont forget Him. Enough happiness to keep you sweet, enough trials to keep you strong. Enough hope to keep you happy, enough sorrow to keep you human. What you are is God's gift to you, but what you become is your gift to God. Happy New Year!
hope everyone has a rockin' 2007!
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