i quote myself

reading back... id like to quote myself...

my first post ever:

let the madness begin

im unpredictable.

people around me will probably agree im a crazy girl. im moody and emotional with a flair for the melodramatic. sometimes i think ive pictured my life to be a book... a cheesy teenage romance novel book. so what? im a girl... and all girls are entitled to their own fairytales.

so here it is. my attempt to define myself... PA-PROFOUND ha...but that's who i am. to say im the complete and total opposite of myself will be the closest thing to the truth.

im a sweet bitch.
im aloof, apathetic and overly concerned.
im lazy, guttonous, and health conscious.
im a sort-of-almost-mature kid.im nightmare anyone can dream of.
im conservative and profane.im big and small (depends what bodpart you're looking at, really).
who give's a shit how may times i contradict myself... I'M F****** ME--- deal with it buster.

tough luck... tough love

i still have time to make a new wish...

my birthday wish

i know na what i want for my birthday.

i was supposed to do something that ive always wanted to do but never had the chance to yet. i have some great ideas, but there are things that have developed that make me change my mind. i have the rest of my life to work on that list. there are more important things to take advantage of at the moment.

there is nothing i would want more than to be able to spend my entire birthday with you guys. alam nyo na kung sino kayo. i dont care what we do, or where we go. i just want to be around you guys. hang out, have fun, watch the sun rise the next day, whatever! i dont really care. i just want at least 24 full hours.

that would make my 25th the memorable 25th that i wanted.

ayoko malungkot. BAWAL.

boom!

suddenly im over my head with work. bakit biglang ang dami?!

i guess im off the happy train ive been on for a while now. feeling shitty right now.

well at least i had really great lunch... that should lift my spirits.

burp-ee

i had the best lunch in a long time... lunch with mel, pau and pedi at circles. wow. when pedi told us the buffet was to die for, i what greeted me was like a glutton's heaven... wasnt able to take photos of my food so ill just borrow pau's..

to celebrate a list of ocassions yet to come, we literally ate to our heart's content.

Thanks to Tat for the GCs... and to the rest of my family for letting me use them as i wish. hahaha.

get me out

to day i have this boiling urge inside to just get away... to get out... to break free.. to just be away from all the heavy things weighing me down. if i could, id want to just get in a car and go... go wherever... to the sand dunes, to bolinao, to tagaytay, to baguio, to sagada, to boracay... anywhere. just not here.

im hoping this is just hormones. id love to wake up happy again tomorrow.
or maybe this is stress. stress over what? maybe its amplified stress because ive been feeling tired plus work just keeps coming.... i shouldnt complain... after all, more work should mean more money, right? yeah, right.

so today is another career day... whether i like it or not.

whirlwind week

i predict this week will be much much faster than last week. for one, last week was a drag... s-l-o-w mehn. secondly, today, tomorrow and thursday is practically booked. i kinda like it actually. this is a good time for me to be booked because ive been feeling lazy the past days... so knowing ill be in meetings helps me work faster and just get things done. haha.

so im looking forward to my weekend already. :)

kikay.exchange.ph

discovered kikay.exchange yesterday... from the schu website. and i must say, it was a fortunate thing that i did!

some things i took note of as i read through:

1. Avon Heated Eyelash Curler.

ive always been a kikay girl..., started plucking my eyebrows before any of my friends did. (hmmm... maybe we're all late bloomers?) and an eyelash curler is one of the things i NEVER leave home without. and i hate it when i leave my curler under the hairdryer too long... so this is a dream come true... if it does wonders the way i read it supposedly does, then next to my Shu curler from Mel, this should be my favorite thing.

2. Crest White Strips


Ive only seen this on Queer Eye but i never really thought to give it a try.

3. Ben, the hair-straightening guy and benders for DIY curls.
For someone who doesnt have super straight hair nor has curly hair, ive always been seesaw-ing from getting curls or having my hair straightened. at leant now i have cheaper options to help me decide. :p

thanks kikay-exchange!!!

A - list

i realized while i was briefly chatting with kaye a few minutes ago, that ive always "planned" my birthday in a way that my friends would enjoy... i seemed to have been keeping in mind if they would like the things i planned or not... but that was beacuse i wanted to make sure they were there! because i wanted to make sure my friends would be around on my birthday!

but this year... being my 25th... ive been feeling pressure (self imposed i confess) of doing something memorable. after all, you only turn 25 once in your life. some people couldnt get why i had to start thinking as early as october... but i didnt decide to think that early, it just started popping in my head that early.

so far,i have a very very short list of things that i think i can do... but none that really excites me. so going back to my realization while chatting with kaye, this year, i think things should be much different. it should be all about ME.

so now im revisiting the list of things that id like to be able to do at least once in my life... and maybe from there i can get a fab idea to celebrate a memorable 25th. and it shouldnt really matter if id end up having people join me, or if its something ill be enjoying alone.

time to work on my list! :D

angry

i dont want to be angry.. but i think i have to be honest to myself and admit that even in a very very small way, i am.

i havent felt this way since i graduated highschool. and i would have wanted never to feel it again. its funny in a way that i get to experience this again now that im much older.

i will never understand why its in anyone's nature to be that way.

i have what i need.

what goes on in the dark

we were at church and the lights went out. normally id feel a bit nervous being in the dark (i blame it on my hyperactive imagination as a child), but somehow i felt relaxed. the wind was cool, the trees (recuperating from Milenyo) had friendly silhouettes, it was fairly quiet (the choir had to sing acapella), and everything just made me want to stare and just take in the warm feeling inside. i almost didnt want the lights to come back on! (but then i realized i havent charged my phone... haha!

anyway, the short amount of time i spent in the dark, all i got to think about was how ive been so blessed with the things that have been happening to me these days --- big and small, good and bad. and ive surprised myself with how i handled / reacted to some things. goes to show how wisdom does come with experience. good thing is that ive gotten so much from everything. new found confidence, a more positive outlook, secure relationships, etc. ive been blessed so much.

thanksgiving is coming up... we may not celebrate that here sa pinas, but i have quite a list of things and a short list of people to thank and be thankful for.

its been a year already?

this time last year...
... just got back from a north luzon road trip with ainee and pedi. no trips planned yet, but im sure one will come around eventually.
... been less productive than ideal and always antsy to get out of the office. ive been happily productive but the past days, i HAVE been wanting to spend more time out of the office. i think its the season... no?
... wrote about how the next year has started for me. what do you know! i just wrote about 2007 a few days ago!
... harry potter and my first zara shirt. looking forward to watching happy feet!

looking forward to the last month of the year and find out what's in store. :p

could not ask for more

i got what i wanted... and more.

things just keep getting better... oh, joy!

caffeine high

had breakfast with mel this morning... i dont even know what time i woke up! basta i know we were in makati by around 630am. so we had breakfast and i was at the office by 8am... i was so groggy i HAD to take a nap. but even after that nap i was still lethargic. so... i got myself coffee... i ended up getting my toffee nut latte AND passion iced tea. simply because i couldnt decide which one to get.

so now im hyper. hyper ng O. but not naman neurotic hyper.

anyway, time to divert my energies to productive work.

2007 has begun

i remember around this time in 2005, ive mentioned about 2006 starting early for me... well, its happened again! haha. this time i have things lined up already all the way to june.

i hope its going to be a good year. and these first projects have been exciting for me. im kinda in the dark with the category, but the learning experiences have been good so far... lets keep it that way, please.

so while some others are waiting for Christmas to come, im already planning my life for Q3 '07! weeeeeeeeee!

the question is.... where will i be by Q3 '07? hehehe.

the hardworking sloth

i LITRALLY spent my weekend in bed... i hardly left my room. but i didnt lounge around... oh no, on the contrary... i was doing hard labor. haha. ive never been in that kind of concentration-ear-mind-hand coordinated in my entire life.

im glad its over. im glad i was able to go through it. it tested my patience... and a bit of my sanity. haha.

on a lighter note, i think ill take a rest from that for a while before doing anything like that again.. IF they still want my help. hahahaha!

so i guess i didnt have a weekend... i had a slightly unpleasant friday night.. but that went fairly well (all things considered)... and an even more physically tiring saturday and sunday. monday tomorrow!

i can wait for friday to come.

acky, mister chinese man

acky took GREEEEAAAT photos at Hainan, China.

some of my more favorite ones:

im having problems downloading the others that i especially like (the bridge, the kids, the hotel photos, tha country side) .. but more photos here!

look! LOOOOOK! acky's hainan, china photos

sabi ko nga sa kanya.. numanational geographic ang pictures... ganda.

illusion

trust is something that should not be given out too freely. today, i feel like i will be a bit more skeptical of people and things. it hurts to know. but i would rather know, still.

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things arent always what they seem. so true. so so so true.

people will think whatever they would want to think... see things they want to see... believe what they think is real.

but on the other side of things, there are things that are exactly the was they are. there is such a thing as gut feel.. and sometimes you're gut is so on the money its freaky.

everyone is blessed to have certain people who put you back into place... right on track... to say the exact things you need to hear... i feel better now.

got this off april's blog

NOTE: got this long ago, i guess i just wasnt able to publish it. :p things that got me thinking in italics)

Angel, you're single because you don't want to slow down

Whether you're working all hours, busy with school, or planning a cross-country move, it sounds like you just don't have time for anyone else in your life...right now, that is. Your timing may be off in other aspects, too. Chances are, you've met that perfect person who just so happens to be married or planning their own cross-country move. So take a step back for a moment. Is there something underlying this? Could it be you're afraid to get involved for some reason or another, and are therefore attracted to people who are simply unavailable? Whether you're secretly sabotaging yourself or not, try a little exercise. Open your mind to those who are around you (and available!) right now. Then let up on your schedule to let that someone in. That is, unless you want to get married to your goals, and not Mr. or Mrs. Right.

early Christmas fever

ive been shopping. and im happy with what ive bought. im still in control though... i can still keep my impulses in check.

weeeeeeeee!!!